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    My fertility journey

    I’m a 42 y/o, been on this journey for 4 years. Spent numerous amounts of money on natural methods and homeopathic medicines, with no results.
    Contacted a FC, had an assessment cycle including a saline flush of Fallopian tubes. Diagnosed with a uterine polyp and a heart shaped uterus. Had surgery to correct issues. Given 3 mths to try naturally, no success.
    Whilst waiting for my period to arrive, ready to start a cycle. Fell pregnant naturally but MC at 8 wks. Had a chemical pregnancy 3 mths later. Started a natural stimulation cycle. 10 follicles on U/s. 6 mature eggs collected. 4 made it to embryos. 3 to day 5. Fresh transfer, failed. Next a double transfer, which also failed.
    Waiting for the 2nd cycle to start, fell pregnant naturally, MC at 10 wks.
    Now on 2nd cycle, u/s showed only 2 follicles on each ovaryMy fertility journey, huge difference from 12 month previous u/s. Now on the “short flare” protocol. Fearing another round of failure, everyone is telling me to be positive, finding that incredibly hard to do


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    I'm so sorry for your losses Kripke. It's no wonder you're having a hard time seeing the bright side, you've been through a lot in what sounds like a relatively short amount of time. Are you in therapy? If you aren't, you might consider finding a therapist who specializes (or has experience) in working with fertility patients. Therapy is a space for you to process everything you're feeling--the stress of the repeated appointments, the financial strain, the emotional grief of your miscarriages--without worrying about how you're making your listener feel (i.e.: making your partner feel worse when you just need to vent for a moment). Therapy is all about your feelings. It's a space for you to be selfish and yell or ugly cry or question. When done right, therapy is truly a cathartic space.

    I hope you find peace around this next cycle.

    All my best,
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    Thank you Kelley.
    I did try therapy with the FC counsellor but it wasn’t a good match. She was far to flighty for my liking. Hadn’t read my file prior to our meeting.....
    With the first MC I was devastated and went through therapy through works counsellor, but after 8 sessions I felt I didn’t need anything further. I have the tools to manage my anxiety such as headspace app.
    I think in a way I’m preparing myself for failure to lessen the disappointment if things do not turn out as expected, self preservation


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    That's understandable, it's natural to prepare yourself for the worst outcomes. I wish I could tell you it'll all work out, but fertility is a wench. Don't be afraid to take some time for yourself, self-care is sooooooooooooo important right now. I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you.


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    Kripke, praying for you. Strength and for you to get your heart's desire.
    ME - 38, DH - 45
    IVF - 01/12, ER - 06 Feb, ET - 09 Feb
    BETA #1 - 80.3 (12dp3dt), #2 - 183.6 (15dp3dt) - b/g twins
    Ruptured Membrane 06/16/12 - Maximus
    Born at 23 weeks 03 July 12 - 23 July 12 - Anaya
    FET - March 2014 - BFN
    IVF 2 - 08/2015, ER - 13 Aug, ET 18 Aug
    BETA #1 - 84 (9dp5dt), #2 - 225 (11dp5dt), #3 - 1303 (15dp5dt) - 4/15/16
    FET2 - around 26 Jun 17


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    Made it to EC, 10 collected only 3 fertilised. Now on day 5, there is only 1 standing.......
    Clinic offered me another cycle but the last one was enough! (21 days of injecting) and the chances of the outcome being the same are very high, will send this one of for biopsy to see if it’s normal, fingers crossed as this is my IVF journey coming to an end.


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    I will keep all my fingers and toes crossed for you, Kripke. I know sentiment doesn't do much to quell the anxiety, but I'm pulling for you!


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    Thank you SC-Kelley M.


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    Keep my fingers crossed xx
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    I am sorry that your previous attempts failed. It seems to me that you need to think about finding a good specialist. Perhaps the search can be started in clinics that are located abroad. I understand that you are in a very upset state. You wrote that you were mentally preparing for failure. You should not think about it and don't program yourself for premature disappointments. Many people face similar problems, but find a way out. The main thing you should do is find a good clinic with good specialists. Perhaps you will be offered other ways to find a baby. Many couples who are faced with similar problems consider for themselves the option of surrogacy. Do not despair in advance, you are still young. You are only 42 years old, this is a great age, you should hope for a positive outcome. After all, a lot in our life depends on how we perceive what is happening around. If you fight for your dream of finding the happiness of motherhood, then you will succeed. I would like to repeat again that at the moment reproductive medicine is very developed. And a competent doctor will advise you solutions to your problem.


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