Checking in, Surgery went well

[Steph22679]

Hey girls. I haven't been in here in a while. I got a little consumed with preparing for my trip to Atlanta to have my surgery. I got back last week but I'm just now up for being on here long enough to post. Not that I'm in so much pain, but just emotional right now. A quick summary of the surgery (you can read a lengthy write up if you visit the endometriosis forum and read the thread about being back from Atlanta): Bilateral salpingectomy, excision of endometriosis off of my ovaries, bladder, uterus, side walls, and uterosacral ligament, 15% loss of left ovary due to endometriomas and adherence to side wall, 30% loss of right ovary due to 9cm cyst and adherence to side wall, appendectomy, uterine polypectomy, and D&C.

I guess this is just as much a forum I should be posting in as the endo forum now that I have no tubes. I know it's safest not having them, as they were severely damaged and I was a great risk for an etopic if I were to get pregnant with IVF. As I posted in the endo forum earlier, I think I may be done with the TTC road and I may switch gears in the future to adoption. I am just too exhausted after the past 8 years or so of trying to have a baby. At least for now I am not going to pursue anything but enjoying my life again and hopefully enjoying it pain-free finally!

I hope everyone here is hanging in there. I look forward to getting to know everyone better. Have a good week!

[slowmotion]

Im so glad your surgery went well and your not in too much pain after all they did to you. I agree that it was a good choice to have both of your tubes removed and I hope your next IVF will be bfp.

I also dont want to have to go through all this IVF hell again, when I do get pregnant. I may look into adoption in the future.

[Steph22679]

Hi, slowmotion I have actually never done IVF before... I only did surgery and meds. Nothing ever worked for me. I was always looking for the 'miracle' everyone told me I would have eventually. Everyone had to share their stories of friends, neighbors, etc that miraculously got pregnant after 10 years of trying and so on and so on. I knew in my gut and in my heart I would never be that lucky. At least now with no tubes, I dont' have to be consumed with it. I just know every month I am NOT pregnant That is a better feeling than being bummed every month when AF comes. That's great that you may consider adoption too! It's a wonderful alternative for those of us who have exhausted our bodies!!

[QueenValerie]

Hello*!!! sorry I am a little late in responding here*!!! I was away from my computer all last week*!!! I am happy to hear that you are healing good after surgery*!!! Wow I had no idea that you were going through so much. I am sure the emotional healing end of it is much harder then expected*!!! {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}} I sure will keep you in my thoughts ands prayers for which ever route you decide*!!! Please keep us posted*!!!

[Steph22679]

Thank you, Valerie! I'm starting to feel better now, which I'm thankful for. I was worried the first week or so after surgery. I was so so depressed and had weird pains. Now the pains are still there, but I can tell things are trying to heal. Emotionally, the best I can say is I'm "holding it together." Everyone seems to be talking about their kids around me a lot and I have to say right now it makes me a little uncomfortable. Luckily, I have years of practice of how to ignore it or brush it off Also, I've found during this that a couple of my closest friends really aren't the friends I thought they were. My 2 closest friends have still yet to call me and I'm a little over 2 weeks post-op. I think that is just ridiculous. I think this is the kind of thing that happens that helps me weed through my friends and only keep the ones around that really care. Infertility is exhausting, isn't it?!??! How are you feeling Valerie??

[QueenValerie]

Hello*!!! ohhhh yeah for sure you can weed through some friends through the heartache and healing. I have lost a few along the way because they didn't know how to act around me. WHAT??? come on now. Well I am glad you are doing even a little better*!!! And please know if you ever need to chat feel free to post here, PM me or even email me*!!!


As for me....I feel like I am doing better now that I am on new meds for my mental problems. I see my new pych DR tonight so he might change me again, but as long as it is in the right direction that is what matters most to me*!!!