Waiting for ultrasound and scared (pg, loss mentioned)

[medgirl2001]

I had a 5 day FET on 11/21/06. My first ultrasound is scheduled for Wednesday, which will be 6w6d. I am extra nervous, given that this all started with very low betas (9dp5dt - 16, 13dp5dt - 130, 15dp5dt - 374). They doubled okay, but were still very, very low. As I have mentioned on other boards here, I had a difficult experience with my early transvaginal ultrasound with my prior pregnancy - sac but no heartbeat at 6w5d, the longest five days of my life waiting for an ultrasound at 7w3d thinking I was going to miscarry, then two embryos with heartbeats! (We later lost one of the twins at 12 wks).

Symptom-wise, I have been feeling very tired, have sore breasts, and noticeably increased CM (sorry - TMI). No real morning sickness. I haven't had any spotting. I _feel_ pregnant, but I'm still terrified. I actually took a urine HPT today, which is ridiculous, but it made me feel a little better to see two lines (actually the only positive HPT I've ever had - I figured I might as well get a chance to see one while I can). I'm not sure if there would be any signs I would have if I were going to miscarry, especially since I'm on PIO injections and estrogen patches. Anyway, I'm rambling. I guess I just wondered if there's anyone else out there going through the "second" 2ww right now, or anyone who has some advice. My DH thinks I have lost my mind!

[poppan]

Just want to say good luck tomorrow at your u/s and hope you see some h/b's!!

[medgirl2001]

Well, I had my ultrasound today, and as I had feared, the news is mixed. They saw a gestational sac in my uterus, but couldn't make out a fetal pole or heartbeat. My doctor said it looked like it was measuring about a week behind (I should be 6w6d today). She said she was maybe less worried about this than she might have been otherwise since my betas were so low initially, and maybe this is all part of the late implantation. It still seems to me like a week behind at this stage is a lot. She said that the sac did not look like it was collapsing or anything - it basically looks like a decent 5 1/2 week sac. They will repeat the ultrasound on the 26th. Basically, they gave me some hope that this all might work out but also said to be prepared for a possible miscarriage.

I was worried that this would happen. It is going to be a long wait until Tuesday, especially over Christmas.