An old timer, but "new" here.

[pmorris1274]

Hello, ladies. I used to belong to this website many years ago, and took a 5 year breather from ttc. I had to re-register, and am back to try again.

Brief history: 34 year old female, married 14 years to the same wonderful man, PCOS, type 2 diabetic, 12 years of infertility, 3 subsequent miscarriages, no live births, and no kids. After the last miscarriage, the thought of ttc again was just too much and five years later, after a much-needed break from this, here we are.

It looks as if in the 5 year absense so much information and knowledge is out there now. This is great, but also sad that so many of us are in this situation.

Anyway, I did round one of clomid this month, and I just had my progesterone level checked yesterday on cd22. It came back as 24, which means I definitely did ovulate. Anyway, I remember now why I did not like this drug before from many years ago. The mood swings and hot flashes are just awful. Anyway, this past weekend was horrible. Doing anything felt like I was running a marathon, and my breasts were incredibly tender and sore. This would have been CD 20 and 21. I am feeling much better, but appetite isn't still all the way back to it used to be, and the breasts are still tender.

I am trying not to hope I am pregnant because I have been let down too many times, and if I am pregnant, I am scared it will just end in miscarriage again. Either way, I forgot how loooong this 2ww is! I mean, in case I am pregnant, I am not taking my nightly glass of wine, so I can't but help think about it, even though I really try not to think about it. Gah!

Ah, well. I just hope that this time around with everything all goes well.

Thanks for listening to me. I just had to post this where all of you ladies would understand because it seems as if nobody really understands unless they have been through this.

Many fertile and happy thoughts to everyone!

Patricia