Anyone Out There???

[Tanya T.]

This board is so darn slow...

I just wanted to check in & say hello... I hope that you are all doing well...

I would love to hear any updates - if anyone is here reading...

As for me... (pg ment - please skip if you are uncomfortable)
I am still 100% in shock about being pg. We have had a few scares (spotting & whacky beta's at around 8-9 weeks)... But I entered my 2nd trimester on Sunday Nov. 26th... I still don't know the outcome, but it's in God's hands & we are just hoping & praying for the best... Miracles Happen - Thats what I keep telling myself... But regardless of how this pg ends up (hoping for a full term heathy pg) I/we will be giving up TTC forever... I always wanted to have 4 children - But I feel blessed at this point to have Cheyenne (after 14yrs of TTC Hell) & then also this natural surprise pg just as I was calling it quits forever... It's been over 16yrs dealing with IF & loss & all the emotions tied into it all... I am actually very anxious to close the TTC door & never look back... A person can only take so much right??? Anyway - That is my update...

I hope that everyone of you have success very very soon... My heart just aches for all of my friends who are TTC... Just remember that you are all in my thoughts & prayers...

Please share some updates here if anyone is still around ok???

Huge Hugs
Tanya

[hollym]

i'm around. we're ending our journey. i was supposed to start the pill this cycle, but i just couldn't yet. however, as soon as af shows, i'm going on it. i can't take the pain anymore, i can't take the emotional crap anymore either.

i did O this cycle, but we didn't time it right this time, so i'm not hopeful. of course, the irony wouldn't surprise me. my dh quit his job and is opening his own practice now. our insurance is ending (i'm pushing the limit trying to get my job to put me on the ins immediately!) in december. i can't get past the fact that it would be so ironic for it to finally happen this time. i hate to say it, but i hope it doesn't. not this month. at least wait until i have my permanent health insurance again and dh has some more clients to build his practice.

so i'm definitely going on the pill when af comes. i might go off again, but i doubt it. i dont' know how much more of this i can take. i'm doing better regarding dealing with all my pg friends and coworkers (another one announced today). and now i'm just trying to put off having a hysterectomy.

tanya,
i hope and pray this little one makes it safely into your arms. (((hugs)))

~holly
ttc almost 10 years
closing the door

[Princess123456]

Hi Tanya,

The party is still going for me , I'm planning on IVF#2 in January. I never cycle in December too much stress with the holidays and people with one foot out the door. So keep your fingers crossed for my husband and I and our earth angel in January.

Kris
trying for #1 for almost seven years now.

[JenNelll]

Hi all, still here, sorta.....
We did our second IVF in October. I ended up in hospital with really bad hives again, just like last time, and of course, it was a BFN. Hives cleared up as soon as my body rejected the embies!!! I have been to the allergologist, and he is pretty sure it has something to do with the IVF process, but what exactly no one knows! He wants me to do another IVF with him on the team to supress any outbreaks, but I am really unsure about all that. I pay out of pocket, so it really is a stretch for me.
Have also been toying with the idea of stopping trying, but am definitely not ready for that!!!
The Endo is getting worse, so I'm now trying to decide if it is time for another laporoscopy. Will definitely have one before I try IVF again though!

Best of luck with your little one Tanya!!!!!

Jen

TTC now for 6 years.

[WaitingMommy]

Me im still in TTC hell, I just had another BFN and AF showed up last night. Im only on meds at this point been dealing with PCOS for about 4 years now. THis sucks, I can not afford right now IUI and ins doesnt cover any of it so its all out of pocket. I feel like a failure and DH and I have been arguing latley more and more im at the point where I dont even know what I want anymore. baby would be nice but how much more can I take. Sorry just venting. Best wishes to you ladies and Wishing you the rest of your preg. a happy one. May god bless you at the end you truly deserve it
Waiting

[dblair]

Waiting mommy,
Hang in there. It sounds like you may need a bit of a break from it all, to maybe help the stress between you and DH. That has helped us. We've been TTC for about 5 1/2 years, unexplained IF is what they said after all the tests last year. This year we tried IUIs for several months, out of pocket like you. Then I just had to take a break emotionally. Couldn't think or talk about it anymore. We've just busied ourselves with work and other activities. That's my suggestion to you -- just step back and take a break for a few weeks or months, to not think or talk about it.
Good luck.
Tanya -- good luck and lots of prayers to you!!!!!!! Stay positive!

[hollym]

dblair,
that's great advice. taking some time to rest from it all is a good thing. it's hard though.

waitingmommy,
(((hugs)))
i hope you don't have to have any more bfn's. they suck. i know there's nothing i can say that takes away the pain.

jen,
i'm sorry you're hurting. that is weird about the hives. i have never heard of that happening. how many laps have you had? i don't think it would hurt to do another clean-up before another ivf. just in case it's causing a problem with your ovaries. if there's nothing on the ovaries, i don't know if a lap would help matters, but you never know. hang in there. (((hugs)))

princess,
good idea to take the month of december off. you're right. too much stress during that season.

tanya,
how are things with you? are you still doing all right?

nothing much here. just nursing my fractured foot and dealing with awful medication side effects. anyway, i've been charting even though i know i shouldn't have been. my temps are barely staying elevated during this stupid 2ww. i have a week to go before af shows, and i just wish she'd show now and get it over with. the day she's due, our friends are having a cd-release party, the next day i'm supposed to go to some big-wig luncheon with my mom, and the day after that is my husband's first marathon. why does af always have to come when i have big plans? can y'all wish me good thoughts that she will be nice to me? or that she will come early? or just a few days late even? the pms is already starting, so i have a feeling she'll be right on time.

sorry to grouch and gripe. the meds for my foot have really made me grumpy lately. even my students have noticed.

~holly
ttc almost 10 years
mild endo/graves/uterine infection
closing the door

[Little fluff]

Hi all

I am having surgery on Wednesday to remove a polyp and also they will be having a look at my blocked tube. Wish nme luck as I have read that Polyps can cause non implantataion and also the foetus to not develop. Praying that my solution has been found.

If I could have one wish and only one wish it would be that no woman ever has to face infertility.

Blessings and peace to you all.

[MT_firegirl]

Doing ok here also...

almost the end of my 60 day break (I was just exhausted) and it looks like my break might be extended. Waiting on the results of a colposcopy I had on Thursday. I'm ok with a little extension, but don't want to wait too long. School starts back the 22nd of January and then it will be much more difficult to schedule IUI's etc. We submitted a packet to the Seattle Fertility Clinic so that they can oversee a few mayo cycles done here in Kalispell with my OB/Gyn. We got a positive last year with a mayo cycle (ended up being a chemical pg) and I'd like to do another, but I refuse to go back to the RE that we saw in Spokane. Here in Montana, there are no RE's and no Infertility Specialists, so we have to go out of state. Also I had to repeat my CD3 labs and my prolactin came back elevated, so I had to repeat those labs on thursday too. At this point, they're still really not sure why we aren't conceiving because I am responsive to the clomid alone and the sperm washing should be overcoming my beloved's agglutination. His sperm numbers have been excellent and my follicles have been optimally sized, but nothing yet.

Regular life stuff is going well also. Not too much actually going on other than work, work and school. I've been kind of bummed about yet another anniversary passing and still no little feet in our house. But, what can you do right?? We'll probably head on to IVF this next year and quit screwing around hoping for a BFP through IUI's. I hope that the rest of you get your bfp's this year also..hell, I hope we ALL get bfp's...wishful thinking I know, but hey, it's my fantasy.

holly...hope that the foot is feeling better. little fluff...good luck on wednesday and I hope that you have no discomfort at all from your surgery. waitingmommy..I agree with dbair...my beloved and I actually even went to counseling and it helped tremendously. I really just felt alone in our ttc battle and he needed to learn how to be more supportive. Even though it was out of pocket, it was worth every penny. JenNell..that is a pretty strange reaction to IVF, although coming from someone with a severe allergy to ALL forms of topical alcohol, I can completely empathize.

[hollym]

debbie,
best of luck with the surgery. wouldn't that be something if that was all you needed? of course, that would aggravate the ****ens out of you, i'm sure. hang in there. hope it's painless for you (omg, i almost typed "painful"- that is BAD! LOL).

MT,
i hear ya on everything working perfectly in your cycles. for so many years, everything was fine. of course, nowadays as i get older, well it's a different story. apparently everything really DOES fall apart when you hit 35. anyway, good luck figuring out how to schedule IUIs along with the other stuff in your life. you're a very busy woman. you have allergies to topical alcohol? well, here's one to make you giggle. i am allergic to aloe vera. i can use products that have a smidgen of it (like the very last ingredient on the list), but anything more than that, and i get a rash.

the meds and pms have wreaked absolute havoc on my body. so much so, that i've lost another 4 pounds. when i had my annual in august, i weighed 118. i'm 104 today. this isn't good. a friend and her dh and baby came over last night for dinner (baby was cute, *sigh*), and she brought me some clothes that she'll never fit into again. all size 4, and they are big on me. but i'm keeping them. hey, free jeans!