long lost Holly! Here is our update!!!

[MrsHollyberryw2]

I'm Holly AKA Mrshollyberryw2. I had a blighted ovum last oct and finally got pregnant in April and those were my last postings. I'm 40 and have PCO. I have 2 kids from my first marriage. Me and BF just got married in August!! The pregnancy has been going great!!!! I am 27 weeks now and due Dec 29. We just found out we are having a boy and his name will be Graison. We were so stressed thinking that we would not get lucky enough to conceive again after our m/c. It took 6 months, just as the dr said. I had trouble with the other two due to pco. My son took 12 years then we found metformin and bam! He was 10 months and I got pg with my daughter with met alone, no clomid. My last one I got pg without metformin, but we lost it. The dr thinks I may have lost it due to NOT being on met, so this pg she kept me on it and all is great. I do not even have gestational diabetes like I did with my daughter and I work out at the gym and have only gained 1 lb so far!!! You would never know it either, cause I'm HUGE!!! I'm so blessed to see that baby belly everytime I look down or feel him move. It is all such a dream. We got married in Aug of this year, so that is an even bigger dream to marry my best friend and my kids love their new step-dad. He is so involved with them and this pg and is great in lamaze!!! I just want everyone to keep up hope which is what we did.

[BC-GoMom]

Oh Holly!!!! What an excellent, absolutely wonderful update! Thank you for your words. May others who read this find it as an inspiration on many levels from remarriage, stepparenting to overcoming IF! Thank you for your post-
Give us another one- we love birth stories!

[Sherb]

Hi Holly! I'm so happy to hear your news and you sound so very very happy! Congrats again and can't wait to meet your new son Graison!

[oli]

Great news! Congratulations on your baby boy!

[Nirmiti27]

Hi Holly,
hope u remember me.
Read ur updates.......I am really happy for u ..and hope u do great.
just really take lots of rest....I wish you all the best


My update are bad...I delivered my baby Boy Reyansh on 26th July 2009at 9:10am ..when i was 31-32 weeks...i had to do emergency c-section..as i started leaking..and it wouldnt stop...my baby boy was doing great...but as premature was shifted to NICU..his growth was just 28 weeks ..and couldnt suck ..he was all normal just weak..was just 1.3 kgs at birth and gain 200gms in 17days...he was having my milk thru feeding tube...but on 13th august he couldnt throw out his vomitting ..and that went into his lungs...which cause his death....i saw him twice in these 17 days..and touched only when we was born....

Now i am to singapore and Indian Doctor asked me to take 1 yr break....to start ttc again...will check with singaporean doctor in Jan 2010.


I will be praying for you and ur little Graison to be happy and healthy all life.

tc and sticky dust to u
nirmiti

[Sherb]

Nimitri, I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious little son Reyanesh. I'm heartbroken for you and your family. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers honey. I would love to see pics of him if you have any and would like to share. I'm sure that he was absolutely beautiful.

Nimitri, I just wanted to add that there is an absolutely wonderful board here for loss moms of an infant or child. If you need support or just someone to talk to, these ladies are wonderful.

[MrsHollyberryw2]

Oh my dear friend Nirmiti................I'm soooo very sorry for your loss. I just read your note today and am in tears with shock and sadness for you. I have thought of you for months since we last spoke and knew you had the baby cause I remembered when. I wish there was somthing I could do to help your pain. I am here to support you and listen and offer prayers, just as you were for me. You gave me hope when I thought I would never smile again or be able to get pg again. Take care of your body and your heart. You will get through this and have a precious angel in your arms again. I found out I was expecting Graison the month of the due date of my baby I lost 6 months earlier. It was so hard and sad and then I found out he was coming and never suspected it. The year mark that I lost the baby just passed on oct 24. It has been a very emotional month and couldn't figure out why I was so sad until I remembered the dates. I am now 31 weeks along and thank God everyday for giving me and Michael another chance. You will get another chance, too. I pray your hear will heal. Please keep in touch with me. many hugs and love to you.........................

Holly

[Nirmiti27]

Originally Posted by Sherb

Nimitri, I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious little son Reyanesh. I'm heartbroken for you and your family. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers honey. I would love to see pics of him if you have any and would like to share. I'm sure that he was absolutely beautiful.

Nimitri, I just wanted to add that there is an absolutely wonderful board here for loss moms of an infant or child. If you need support or just someone to talk to, these ladies are wonderful.

I did have 2 pics and some vedio recording of reyansh....but by mistake i deleted his photos e and... recording is with my mom in india..she did not give me tape thinking i will cry everytime....he was very beautiful...and long...we was exactly same height of 9 months baby...doctor also said he would be tall...and was exact copy of his dad...this make me more sad..when i look at my DH...and feel like i have taken all his happiness...and all was my mistake

[Nirmiti27]

Originally Posted by MrsHollyberryw2

Oh my dear friend Nirmiti................I'm soooo very sorry for your loss. I just read your note today and am in tears with shock and sadness for you. I have thought of you for months since we last spoke and knew you had the baby cause I remembered when. I wish there was somthing I could do to help your pain. I am here to support you and listen and offer prayers, just as you were for me. You gave me hope when I thought I would never smile again or be able to get pg again. Take care of your body and your heart. You will get through this and have a precious angel in your arms again. I found out I was expecting Graison the month of the due date of my baby I lost 6 months earlier. It was so hard and sad and then I found out he was coming and never suspected it. The year mark that I lost the baby just passed on oct 24. It has been a very emotional month and couldn't figure out why I was so sad until I remembered the dates. I am now 31 weeks along and thank God everyday for giving me and Michael another chance. You will get another chance, too. I pray your hear will heal. Please keep in touch with me. many hugs and love to you.........................

Holly

hope god will give us another chance...I feel a complete failure and sad for Dh as he lost his precious baby and happiness because of me....Baby was just copy of his Daddy....another thing is i had emergency C-section...so dr asked me to wait for another yr atleast.. but i want my baby reyansh back ASAP...dont know what to do...i just passed 3 months without reyu....hope he forgive me for the suffering he went thru ....all just because my body did not take good care of him..........

please rub ur belly twice when every u love ur little precious one...1 for u and 1 from me....god bless him with all happiness...

nirmiti

[BC-GoMom]

NIrmiti,
oH sweetie I am so sorry for your loss of your precious Reyansh. I am a loss mom too and my heart breaks for you. Please visit this board. click the link and it will take you there, it is under parenting- loss of a child. These ladies know every feeling you are having. Be gentle with yourself.


Loss of an Infant/Child - Fertile Thoughts