A contrasting experience...

[sweet em]

In contrast to a recent post here I had a really good experience with my priesthood leaders this weekend that I wanted to share.

In general our ward members, leaders and stake leaders are excellent!!

I few months ago I posted about a crisis of faith that I was having and how I thought maybe I should go to my bishop. Well, I never did...and reached some helpful conclusions on my own and things went on fine. Of course, for what ever reason I have had bad times and this weekend was shaping up to be one of them.

For context you should know that I am near the end of a 2ww...

I spent all weekend hanging out in the messy part of my house cause DH was painting and wouldn't let me in the room...which is really sweet but I felt like a slug and IF I'm not PG then I have to work extra hard this upcoming week to make up for all the work I missed out on.

Because I was feeling useless Saturday I actually did the dishes (large gasp!) which is the time when I stand at the sink and daydream about all the horrible things people could say/do. This time is was what my favorite aunt...who is good, sweet, loving, and faithful...REALLY thinks is the reason I'm not PG...which according to my sick overactive imagination and NOT based on anything she's ever said...is that I'm not PG cause I don't have enough faith. So I had a huge conversation with her (yes, in my mind) about how she was sooo wrong, wherein "she" managed to convince me that yes, she was right. Which, understandably sent me into a gigantic slump compounded by the fact that I took a negative PG test Sunday morning (only 12dpiui so, dang it, there is still hope).

Well, I did NOT want to go to church (or do anything really, i just wanted to sleep till tuesday afternoon) but I HAD to (because I'm that type of person, thank goodness). I sat in ward council pretty much near breakdown, but I'm good at hiding it!

Then afterward, to my suprise the bishop (who is a really dear friend of DH and I) "randomly" had an interview with me under the pretense of a PPI about YW. I walked into his office determined to give him a factual run down of the YW program then hi-tail it out of there. I almost made it when I asked me how I was doing. Of course I started bawling like a baby and we had a nice talk...which thankfully lifted me out of my despair.

I am very grateful that he was, I think, inspired to talk to me when he is very busy. He is getting ready to move, this is his last week as bishop there are TONS of people in our ward more needy than I. I am percieved as one of the "strong ones" in the ward and frankly we just recently met to discuss the YW so there was no real reason to meet again. I would have gotten over my depression on my own within a few days if he hadn't met with me but having him take the time to talk and feeling his spirit as the bishop pretty much zapped me back into a good attitude (and made DHs life OH so much easier!! ).

In addition to this meeting I also met with the 1st counseler of the bishopric for a temple recommend interview. I sat down, ready to say yes a bunch of times. But as he asked me the first 4 questions about my testimony of Heavenly Father, Christ and His Atonement, the Restoration of the Gospel and our current Prophet I was blanketed by a calm comforting assurance that I do believe in those things, that I honesly believe them to be true, and that saying yes was not just something to do to get the signature.

So in summary - I am so glad to be in such a strong habit of going to church that I can't NOT go and was able to be so edified!

[Pebbles]

I am so glad you had such a wonderful experience with your Bishop. While we were ttc I was lucky enough to have a wonderful Bishop also. I guess that is part of the problem for dh and I we have had it good once. now we know what is wrong with where we are not. I am glad you have a supportive group of leaders during this time. s

[sweet em]

I guess that is part of the problem for dh and I we have had it good once.

I'm sorry for sure! Especcially if you have tried to instigate change without results. I really wanted to share my great experience and I hope it wasn't insensitive of me.

Now, you should know that despite how awesome my ward is 1/5th of the active families are moving this summer (we are pretty small to being with). So we are looking for recruits - it would be no big deal for you to uproot your entire family (complete sarcasm here ) and move here...I can guarentee you would have the warmest reception imaginable!!

[Pebbles]

thank you sweet em for the offer and if we do decide we can't take it anymore no matter what the air force says LOL, we might give your area a try.

[katrack]

Thanks for sharing your experience. I'm very happy he saw your need.

I'm sorry about your negative.