Very emotional before starting stims

[Brooklyne]

Hey all,

I've been on birth control for 4 weeks and I'm scheduled to take last one a week from today, wait for AF and then start stimming. I've been having breakthrough bleeding and it's been upsetting me making me think that my body isn't responding how it should. I went to the clinic this morning and was told by RE not to worry that it's okay. I started crying uncontrollably in her office. RE was really good, gave me some kind words and a hug and escorted me out the back door so I wouldn't have to walk in tears in front of everyone.

The last week I have been feeling so emotional - I cry on and off throughout the day. After I cry I feel better, but then shortly after I need to cry again. I don't feel like I'm depressed because I was depressed last year and I remember I would cry and never feel that release I just always felt awful. I have lots of love and support in my life right now, but I'm overly sensitive and burst out crying anywhere. I even started crying when I went to get my decaf coffee this morning because I felt it was taking too long.

Did anyone else feel like this before starting IVF or did you feel excited and positive? Can the birth control make me feel this emotional?

Brooklyne xxx

[SomedayMommy]

Oh, yeah! I sure did. EVERYTHING you just described is 100% normal. You will feel ALOT of emotions these next few weeks.........

and the breakthrough bleeding is very normal, too...just be sure to take the meds at the same time each day, and you will be fine.....

[JandBC]

Absolutely, it can make you feel this emotional. And you are not alone. Ever since I started ART treatment, I have had periods of breakthrough bleeding--mostly brown spotting. I even had a saline sono, just to rule out any cysts. The doc said it was most likely due to all the shifting hormone levels in my body. Think about all these crazy drugs we're putting in there...birth control pills, Lupron, then the stims. It's not a natural state for our bodies to be in.

I think it's quite normal to be all hormonal. I feel like I cry at the drop of a hat, just very overly sensitive. I'm starting the 2nd week of BCP's, and I was balling yesterday watching the WWII veterans on the CBS Sunday morning show, and last night watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition. The least little thing can set me off.

So, know that you're not alone. ART treatment sucks--what we go through both emotionally and physically can be so overwhelming sometimes. I hope you join the Autumn's Hope girls....I'm over there now, and they are a great support system.

Good luck with your upcoming cycle!
JC

[Sandra16m]

I've cried my whole drive to work this morning.. I think I cry everyday.. my husband told me it was excrutiating for him to watch. I cried from the time I started my BCP till now.. seems like the word around here is that it's normal .

[jpoo]

Ugh...I was a mess when I was in BCPs! You are totally normal! I didn't have breakthrough spotting, but I have heard so many say that they did and it was fine. This is not an easy process at all...none of it. That's why this board is so important for support.

(((HUGS)))

[Brooklyne]

Thanks everyone so much for your support and reassurance! Now that's all I can write now before I start bursting into tears again - lol!

Brooklyne xxxx

[katiecaskey]

Just wanted to say that I too was an emotional WRECK during the entire IVF process. There is so much going on with our bodies!! I also had breakthrough bleeding just a tad bit. Everything worked out just perfect for me and I pray it does you also.

[BC-KarenS-MI]

Isn't this board great?! Just when you're feeling like you're falling apart, you realize that you are VERY NORMAL!!!! Break through bleeding happens, although not to everyone, but to most people. Emotions......sheesh! We already know about that one! You'll find that you'll have periods where you'll feel nothing but positive, then the next minute (or is it more like the next second??) you feel like nothing can ever work. That's the "joy" of an IVF cycle.

Your hormones are getting all worked up & it's leaving you feeling sad, fearful & tearful one minute & excited, anxious & overjoyed the next.

No one ever said that this was easy, but you never have to face these fears or tear filled days alone!!

Hang in there sweetie!!!

Karen

[Brooklyne]

Thanks for the support - it's so nice to know that I'm not alone in feeling this way. The crying seems to be gone - for now.


Brooklyne xxxx