I am new here. I have been looking through so many posts and I decided that it was time for me to post my story. My husband and I conceived naturally in Oct 08 only to miscarry at 8 1/2 weeks. We seen the heartbeat and then a week later it was gone. The pain was greater than I ever imagined. My doctor's office didn't know how to read an ultrasound in the beginning (they thought we had ectopic pregnancy along with normal pregnancy) so they sent me to an RE and all turned out to be ok at the time. We were 5 weeks along and it was to soon to even see a heartbeat.
After the miscarriage I decided to stay with the RE rather than return to my OB. Since we hadn't gotten pregnant again on our own within 6 months of trying on our own RE decided to try clomid that was a bust because it made cervical mucus hostile. So we have now done 2 IUI's. I took a test this morning and got a BFN. I was completely devastated and heartbroken and angry. It's been a difficult and painful 9 months and I don't know how to do this again for another month. I am thinking about taking a break but I think that if I do then I'm further away from possibly getting pregnant again. I'm farther away from having what I lost again (I don't want to replace my baby, I just want to move forward).
I have an appointment with my RE tomorrow but my head is going 1000 different directions. Sorry this is so long, no one around here understands what I'm going through and I just feel alone!
this journey can be such a roller coaster ride of emotions... Please know there are alot of people here who understand and want to be here for you... you are not alone...
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