Sad (children ment'd too)

[Lynnette1]

My grandmother passed away on April 20, 2005 at the age of 98 1/2yrs. I have been sad but I know that she has been ready to go be with my grandfather for many years. I know my Grandma knows how much I love her.

I am more heartbroken because this is the first Mother's Day without my Mom. She passed away on October 4, 2004. I am so glad that her and I made peace before she died but I have realized that even though we didn't agree and had our problems I so miss her every day. There are so many times I start to pick up the phone to call her to ask a question then mid-dial it hits me that she isn't here. Years ago I had started a tradition that on Easter and Mother's Day I bought Mom a corsage to wear to church. Easter was so hard seeing them in the store and Mother's day will be too. THis year is so hard with all the firsts to get through. Will it get easier next year? Her biggest joy in life was her children and grandchildren. As I watch my children at times I get sad knowing that she would want to be here with them to hold, hug and love them in person.

Thanks for listening.

[ResqMomma]

I am sorry for the loss of you Mom and Grandmother. Any loss is hard and the grieving part is hard too..

I lost my Mom in May 2001, just after her 65th birthday, and not even 3 months after my oldest son was born.

I will say, it will get easier as time goes by. Of course that time frame is sooooo different for everyone. I still have bad days when just the smallest thing will set me off and others where I can smile at the memories.

It has been hard on me recently, well since my baby was born.

I wish I had seen this earlier, but there is nothing wrong with keeping with your tradition of buying the corsages. Just leave them at her grave, if you have that option.

We are here if you need a shoulder.

[ResqMomma]

Lynnette----just checking on you....

[Lynnette1]

Thank you so much for thinking of me I am better. You know how it is the first year with all the firsts. It is hard. I read your post and cried because my mom raised my nephew. My 2 youngest will never know her and she loved and lived for her grandchildren. That is hard but we keep going because we are needed by our families.

[Lynnette1]

Thank you so much for thinking of me I am better. You know how it is the first year with all the firsts. It is hard. I read your post and cried because my mom raised my nephew. My 2 youngest will never know her and she loved and lived for her grandchildren. That is hard but we keep going because we are needed by our families.

Lynnette

[PrincessBride]

to you Lynnette and Emily, too. I cry, too, thinking about how much Tommy has changed since mom last saw him. He was almost 18 months when she passed away. She was actually buried ON his 18 month birthday. Now, he's almost three! Would she even recognize him? And, she didn't know what a language explosion he was having that last week of her life. He really took off. And, of course, we have Bethany now, who she has never met. It is VERY hard. We still talk about her every day, from things she gave us or things she wanted to teach Tommy. And, when I tell him to put his glass in the proper place at the table, I tell him how Grandma always told me that when I was little. We remember her with ladybugs as well. This summer we are having pics made and I plan to make a three photo spread. I have 18 month pics of her and me (professionals--only one of either of us) and Bethany will be 18m in July. I will put the three of us "together".