Yesterday I went to the doc and it was another blow of devistation. The tech doing ultrasound told me it looks like I O'd fine but nothing this month. Great. Then she is trying to be nice enough and was like "Do you want to make an appointment with the doc now or after you get your period?" Like she had to remind me that that was coming too? I know it was a genuine guestion, but I was feeling like come on, kick a woman when she's down!!
I felt like hell yesterday, but 2 good things that I enjoy in life came out of it yesterday, strong black coffee and a few strong drinks after work (God knows I needed both). This month was exceptionaly dissapointing to me for some reason, mabey because the holidays are coming, i don't know. Well, on to next month..
So i leave there hopefull. then the next day i get a call while i' m at work and they tell me that the doc looked over the ultrasound and wants to see me back this friday now! oh my god. and of course they on't discuss it with me on the phone. Can it be that i am?? i know the tech was right in what she said, she showed it to me. i'm losing me mind. i can't wait till friday. it's too early to take a test. now, i'm like getting sad, getting that why am i kidding myself attitiude? like "it" can't happen to me. one month on clomid? that would be too perfect!! i'm setting myself up for dissapointment! what should i think????? 
