Is everything working against me?

[GKGable]

My husband has been begging to kids for years. I wanted to wait a few years, and lose weight first. Well, we've waited a few years but the weight has only gone up. I'm 30 years old, 5'2 and bouncing between 270-280lbs. I have High Blood Pressure and PCOS.
I've been off the pill for a month and weaned off my antianxiety/depressants. For the last two weeks I've been nauseous in the mornings and eating any and everything in front of me. I should be on my period now, but I'm not. I've taken two pregnancy tests, both negative. I don't want to get myself psyched up that I may be pregnant but my body just feels different. I'm sure it could just be hormones or the change in my system since going off three different meds, but I don't know.
I'm terrifed to get pregnant at my current way? I've read many online articles about all the risks, but I've been reading forums from women who were overweight/obese that had healthy babies and no problems themselves either. Should I be agonizing over being/getting pregnant at this weight?
I have an OB appointment Monday to go on Clomid (I did one cycle a year or more ago that didn't work), I'm planning on starting again.....

[braceland]

I know how you feel I had been exercising to loose weight in order to get my baby dream; we have been doing IVF for 3 years and im in my 2ww of #8 cycle. I know my weight is what is holding us back... Earlier this year I went to the gym for 4 months and lost 11kgs half way there but then feel pregnant naturally (can you believe it TTC for 6yrs and never happened) I was bleeding and didnt release I was pregnant. Anyway at 11 weeks we lost it. Sad, very sad but what made it sadder was that it stopped my routine that I was doing so well in with the gym and now I put all that weight back on and have to start again... Our journeys are tough but self blame is not the answer. We will get our baby wish. I have my beta test tomorrow so who know.......

[KatheAtFertilityAuthority]

GKGable,

I feel for you, I was overweight when I went through my process. I am still overweight. I actually ended going to a RE and did not continue with my OB. I was not getting any younger, needed a more aggressive plan.

If it helps, I found my new RE at fertilityauthority.com and it helped me tremendously, hope it helps.

Kathe