My Update (m/c ment)

[jenbethk]

Hi girls. I hope you're all doing well! Sorry this update is so long!

I went to the Dr. today(who induced my m/c) who told me the placenta is still attached to the wall, that I have a cyst in my ovary, that I need a D&C and that I will probably have placenta accreta when I am pregnant (which could lead to surgery to remove the placenta after delivery.... often ending in HYSTERECTOMY!!!) I left there so overwhelmed!!

Then she called me back after speaking to my RE. The RE also called me. As it turns out he still does not want to do the D&C, my progesterone is still high and he thinks I will get my period/ovulate (which is the reason for the cyst??) and that I shouldn't worry about this placenta accreta thing.... I'll just be watched carefully when I'm PG. So now I just WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to go back next Mon. for beta and progesterone, and based on those numbers, he'll let me know the next step!!

How much more can one person go through?? He knows I've been through he!! and back, but since my first D&C was really difficult, and he had to have a high risk OB come in and guide him by u/s, he really wants to avoid that again! Can you believe all of this??? It just stinks!!! I trust everything he has said and I know he only wants the best for me, but this just BLOWS!!!

Anyway, I am going out w/DH tonight and will be drinking for sure!!! A good glass or 2 of wine should do the trick temporarily for my constant sadness and disappointment!!

So that's the update on me. It's hard to believe this is going on since my first beta on 2/10. Thanks for sticking by me, girls!!! Your continued support truly helps!!

It's definitely looking like a May/June FET or even June/July (G-d forbid!!!) April is out of the question!

Jen

[AndreaK]

I do believe the waiting it the worst. You are in my thoughts every day as you deal with this.

It looks like we may be cycling together - although it's up in the air, those are my two possibilities.

[Little fluff]

Jen

You poor thing. I have been thinking of you and adding you to my prayers each night. I can't imagine how much you must be suffering with the ongoing problems that you have had to endure on top of your loss.

I so hope that when you are able to do your next FET you have a BFP and a very uneventful 9 months and delivery.

Hope you have a great night out with DH.

Will have an update on me for you soon.

Take care hugs to you and DH

Debbie

[MIliyMoy]

Hey Jen,
Wow, I am so sorry, as if IF isn't freaking hard enough!!! I hope that you had a great evening with DH. I things get better for you and soon. Take Care

Please know that we are here for you if there is ANYTHING you need.

[raytw]

i can't believe what you are going through. i really hope you get your period soon and this all resolves itself.

well, i definitely think you are due for some good things to happen.

God will bless you!!!

[justkaren]

Oh Jen!!!! I'm so sorry. I just wish that I could make this whole thing go away. I wish I could just hand you a baby and keep one for myself and we could just go on with our happy lives.

I'm really, really sorry you are going through all this.
Karen

[jenbethk]

Thanks to all of you for all your support!! One ray of sunshine today is that I just took a digital Clearblue Easy hpt and it said, "NOT PREGNANT"!!!! So that should mean the beta is under 50, right? Which is down from 120 on Monday. I pray it's at a zero by Monday!!!!!

Karen, How are things going at Cornell?? Have you started meds for your cycle yet?

Thanks again to all of you for staying with me on this horrible rollercoaster/nightmare!!! You guys are the BEST!!!

Jen

[NicoleK]

Jen:

Sorry I'm so late in repling to this but I want you to know that I'm thinking about you. I wish there was something I could do to make things easier for you.


Nicole

[hugapug]

Jen -

You are living the mirror image of me. I had placenta accreta with my d & c in Nov. I don't know if you remember my telling you all of this. I had never even heard of placenta accreta until then. Anyway, I didn' t have to have a hysterectomy, thank God. My RE got it all out with a second precedure. Matter of fact, I saw my RE today and just happened to see the pictures. Oh, man, what an eye opener. Anyway, yes, you'll be at higher risk for it when you get pg and deliver. However, now that they know you are suseptible to it, they will monitor you for it and be prepared. It sounds like both doctors are not on the same page. I had a hysterocomy (spelling?) where she took a cauterizing loop and shave off the remain placental tissue. Very different than a d & c. Please ask you RE about this. You've been through enough with this and I can't believe they are letting this go this long. If nothing else, they are putting added stress on your body. Be proactive and demand they decide what to do so you and your dh can move on with your lives. You're a brave, girl. You deserve better.

Many hugs,
Marie

[jenbethk]

Marie-

I will definitely look into the procedure that you've had. The waiting is torture!! Yes, I do remember you mentioning placenta accreta and I just remember having no idea what you were talking about. Now here I am joining you! Strange how life works, right???

Here's a question....... I took 2 hpts during work today (yes, I'm crazy I know!) and I finally got 2 - hpts!!!! I was so strangely excited, since that meant my beta must be below the 50 that I believe is the min. detected on a Clearblue Easy digital. However, a little while ago I took a third and it came out +++. Is it possible that I am borderline and that's why it came up +? I believe I peed more on the 3rd stick. Could that be the reason? I was so happy, now stressed again. UGh!!!!!!!!!!! Next beta and progesterone is on Monday. My RE seems to think I'm going to pass this on my own. It's been 4w since m/c was induced. Do you think that is too long? I totally trust my RE and he said that my D&C and hysteroscopy were so difficult that he wants to try to avoid putting me through them again! I'm so confused!!!

Jen