Feeeling Crappy

[jbraman]

I feel awful! All I have done all day is take Klonipin and hope to go back to sleep. Forget taking a shower and getting dressed, I would just like to go around the house. I took another 2 mg of Klonipin cause the 2mg I took 1/2 hour ago did squat.
I dunno why I feel like this today, I just do. I can't handle seeing babies and pregnant women either.
When will this go away?

Jen

[carolsue]

I am sorry you are having a hard time, I m/c earlier this month and popped xanex to keep me from crying all day at work and the holidays make me depressed and I don't want to go anywhere near the baby section. I hope you get to feeling better as time goes by, there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about it but knowing we will try again makes me feel better but we have to come up w/ the cash first.

[seth1]

I'm so sorry to hear that you are having such a difficult time. I have felt very depressed too. This week I found out that my first IUI was a failed attempt. I have been crying off and on for the past few days. It doesn't take much to get the tears flowing. The fertility meds really play with your emotions. It also didn't help that last weekend (day before I was scheduled to test) one of my best friends had a baby shower. I didn't want to go, but I told myself that it's not her fault that I can't get pregnant and I should be happy for her. Well I went and I had to leave early. I cried all the way home. What has worked for me is chatting and using the forums on this site. I have also tried to stay busy with activities but it is still hard. Another thing is keeping open and honest communication with my husband. Although I think sometimes it is different for men, but it does help to vent my feelings to him. I do hope that you start feeling better soon. Try to think positive thoughts like.... "I haven't had a baby YET". I wish everyone the best.

[WackyJacquiRN]

I'm glad to see that I am not the only one moping around, not wanting to do anything at all! This crap is so depressing. I get so angry every time I see a cute little pregnant chick. I just want to kick her in the knee !!! It's especially difficult when you have teen pregnancy running rampant through your own family! Arrrggghh! I just want to steal their babies and put them in my own belly!!! Seth, I too had to go to a shower for one of my best friends during my last cycle. It almost killed me, but I just had to keep telling myself "I have a big fat follicle...she can't see her feet...I have a juicy follice...she is going to be in labor in a couple of weeks (ouch)...I have a follicle" LOL...hey, it got me through the shower with a smile (okay, mostly a fake one) plastered to my face!
I've been feeling pretty angry becasue I was so sure that I was going to be pregnant! It's pretty frustrating!!! It's been three days now and I still haven't pulled down the streamers from my pity party! I don't want to take them down today either. I must say, the upside was that I got to have mamosas at my pity party!!!
It is definately different for men! Yes, they are walking through this with us, but until my husband starts having three or more transvaginal ultrasounds a month, blood work, and a cute little nurse sticking a catheter into HIS uterus to do an insemination, we're not even playing on the same field!!! Sorry, I just get tired of getting things shoved everywhere too!!!
Thanks for letting me vent too!

[carolsue]

Yeah, it sucks, this time of the year makes it harder too, I get sick of seeing pregnant women too and going anywhere near the baby aisle sucks big time. I can't believe how hard it has been to ttc, the needles and stuff is rotten but taking it day by day is alot easier but I figured it would have happened by now I am tired of waiting.

[seth1]

It will happen for us girls! Don't give up! God has a plan for all of us.