Momie to Be... :bellyrubs

[annoula]

Hello everyone. My story started in 1998 the year that I got married. On our first year anniversary we went to a fertility specialist who told us we needed IVF, right from the get go. We did not go.....but instead we faught all the time. .......I came very near loosing my marriage and my job from the obsession of wantig a child so bad. Years went by and it was so hard to see other women having children and me sitting by the side lines watching them be happy while I was so sad.......and depressed. So we finally decided to do something about it.

We started on IUI's....... ........and not one worked.......I remember the days that I would go into have the sperm put in and coming home thinking that I was pregnant...then getting AF.

A few more years went by and then we started the IVF process.....oh what a process it was. We did our first IVF and it was a bust........then on our second one I did not respond well just like the first and I only produced 8 eggs.....and of the 8 only 1 was put back.. and I got a BFN...

Then we decided to go to a different clinic......right away after the doctor saw me and checked out my reports he said I need an Egg Donor. We asked all of my siblings and only one was willing to do it, but could not because of her age. More time went by and we did not find our donor and no BFP!!!!!

Then we decided to try one last time with my eggs.........again BFN

Our angle came to us as a mirricle. We found our donor. She is 23 yrs old and now a very good friend to me and my husband...she is so beautiful, and full of spunk.....kind of like me....teehee.......So off to the races in doing Donor Cycle. We did our fist donor cycle in May of 2007......and the resaults of her eggs were unreal. She was able to get 20 eggs all firtalized and we had lots to freeze.....do the implanted the eggs into me and I waited that ugly 2ww again....but got another BFN


So now we did FET........and two were implanted and I finally got a BFN.... After 8 long years and so much I am finally pregnant. All you women who try please dont ever give up. I am living proof that good things do happen to good people and god loves all his children and will help everyone. Sometimes we have large hurdles to pass or climb but you have to be strong and have lots of will-power and love to overcome it. My prayers are with all you who are ttc and I hope that you all have the blessing that I am endouring now. God bless you all.

My IVF journey is a follow.

8-iui with clomid......BFN

1st IVF.....cancled

2nd IVF......porr response only 1 embryo......BFN

3rd IVF .....again poor response.....2 embies at 5 cells....BFN

1st Donor egg cycle.....great response....2 embies at 14 and 15 cell...BFN
1 st Fet from Donor cycle........BFP :ange

Dreams do come true

[teach123]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It has brought a little hope to my dreary tearful weekend. Like you we went through ivf twice only to find out I had a poor response and needed donor eggs. Fast forward to this recent de cycle. My donor had a great response and got 21 mature eggs, 15 fertilized, and 2 were put in me on day three. The rest were frozen. This weekend at 8 and 9dpt I decided to crazily poas. Well the result was a big fat negative twice. I have been so tearful and sad. I am happy to read that a fet can work after a failed fresh cycle. I go for my official beta on Wed. but I feel I already know the answer.
Congratulations on finally receiving your bfp. I hope one day I will be able to post those beautiful three letters. Thanks again for giving me some sun to my dark clouds.

Beth

[annoula]

I know how you feel.....you loose all hope in having your dream come true. I know that first hand. Never give up!!!! My mother in law was and is my biggest insperation in my life. She is awsume and she helped me through my hardest time. You need to find someone to share what you are going through that can be your supporter, other than your husband. I will hope and pray for you that you get a BFP.....but always remember that you are in a way better place than what you were in when you did the IVF on your own. I know what you are feeling and going through.....

Good luck to you hun......lol

[Sasha72]

annoula,

Congratulations on your pregnancy!!!!!

Wow...........I can't believe how similar our ttc journey has been. While I was reading your post, I felt as if I was reading my own story!!!!! Do you know if your having twins? I have 8 month old b/g twins.

Take care!!!

[rbutterfly]

Annoula: Thanks for sharing your story. I hope that I can post a similar story in a couple of months. I too went through 2 IVF cycles using my own eggs. I did get pregnant the first time then mc. Then the 2nd time we only had one embie of poor quality that ended in a BFN. We then moved to donor egg and transferred 2 good looking embryos and got a negative. We have 3 frozen and are doing a FET in November. I will be doing heparin or lovenex this cycle. Did you do anything different on your FET?

Sasha:I take it since you said your story was similar that you had a BFP from a FET. Did you do anything different on your FET?

Thanks for the encouraging story!

[Sasha72]

rbutterfly,

Yes, I did get pregnant from a FET. My fresh failed DE cycle was in 02/06 and I started acupuncture in April. I did my first FET in June 06 and I got a BFP!!!! I really think the acupuncture helped me get pregnant because I was more relaxed and my lining was thicker. Also, I think FET's are better because they're so stress free compared to a fresh cycle.

Good luck!!!

[cutes]

Hello to everyone who has replied to my post. Yes I went through allot to get to this final destination and I am not over yet. No I don't know if I am having twins but I am starting to show at 4.5 weeks....my sister is sending twin vibes as she has twins from a natural cycle.....(grandma and sister were twins).....I am so happy for all those women who don't give up...and don't give up as life is full of many miracles and dreams do come true. LOL and peace and god be with you. Buy the way I am Annoula for those who don't know and I have two post names in case that gets confusing

[annoula]

went for my U/S on 7 weeks 3 days and there was no fetal heart beat and a small fetus but large yoke sack. The doctors are not to optomistic at all about this as it does not look good. The fetus is messuring 4 cm which should be 10-17 cm and it is not even close. The yoke sack is alot large and they feel that I will most likely misscarry. I am so upset......after 8 yrs of ttc and then finally got pregnant and now this...what next. I have been crying all day and praying for a miracle.

[maddiemonk]

I am so sorry to hear that this is happening to you.

I think it is particularly hard when you have been through so much and then emotionally and financial invest in using a donor.

I too used donor eggs...we retrieved 22 and 18 fertilized, only 3 made it to day 5 and we implanted all of them. I waited almost 2 weeks before I took a hpt and found out I was pregnant. It was our first attempt at IVF. I was cautiously optimistic, since I had a m/c in Dec of 2005. But my 1st beta was 800 and the 2nd one was 2020. Things seemed to be progressing well.

I began bleeding at about six weeks and kept spotting on and off. Despite the spotting the fetus was growing perfectly. I graduated my RE clinic and had an appointment scheduled for the ob. At almost 11 weeks, I felt weird and decided to go in to my clinic just as a precaution. There was no fetal hb. I was devastated.

I felt like my life was shattered. The first week I think I was in denial. The second week I took off from work because I could not stop crying. The past two weeks I have walked around in a sort of daze. I still can not believe I am not pregnant anymore.

We did not have any embryos to freeze and will need to do a fresh cycle all over again. Despite the fact that our donor has agreed to cycle with us, I am really scared.

It is great that you have FET but that probably does not take away the pain of what you are going through now. Take good care of yourself and try REALLY hard not to blame yourself...I am sure you took the best care of yourself that you possibly could.

Take good care and I am sending many, many hugs!!!!

Diane