Hope dwindling

[wishing]

I was supposed to have my first appointment with TCART today. My friend who I was going to do a co=parenting situation is quadraplygic so we knew that we would need extra help. I also have mild issues (not regular periods). I talked to him at midnight last night to make sure he knew what time to meet me today. ANyway long story short he never showed up to pick me up and I have not been able to reach him. I had to call and cancel the apointment because I had no way to get there.

I always knew that he might not work out so I have looked into donor sperm. I also have already set up an apointment for a shared cycle. My apointment today was set up months before the shared cycle so I was only going to get my test results and learn more about the process. I know that I can do the tests again at the new clinic and it is only three weeks away but it is more waiting I thought that I would have some answers today.

I also know for sure now that I will be using donor sperm and will not have a father for this child. I am so sccared and heartbroken. BUT I want a baby so bad it hurts I am too far down this road to turn back now...I hope.

[50/50]

Wishing, I'm sorry to hear what has happened. I always try to remember that all things happen for a reason. I think if your friend was on the fence about co-parenting with you it is probably best that this has happened now rather than later. I'm sure your decision to move on without him is a good one!

I wish you the best in your journey to motherhood!

[BC-KarenS-MI]

I'm so sorry that this happened to you, but honestly, it's probably a good thing that he didn't show up. I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but perhaps he just wouldn't have been what you were looking for & it would have only caused you more pain.

Of course you're scared, that's only natural. Hang in there & know that if a child is what you want, using ds & being a SMBC is still a wonderful thing.

Good luck!

Karen