Emily's Mom- any word yet from your EDC?

[50/50]

Just checking in...any news yet? I hope they call you soon. Inquiring minds want to know what the hey is going on.

[Emily'sMom]

NO .. !#%)*!@#$%&!)#$%!)@#^$%)!@#$ I'm really angry right now. I always e-mail her so I don't have a bunch of ears listening to my conversations at work. Well I broke down and called her at 9:01 am (clinic opens at 9) and ended up getting her v/m. Left a message of course asking her to call me at the office. Not only do I want to ask if I should be worried about my e2 (which I'm sure is going to be fine), I need to know if my low e2 is going to delay my schedule at all, and I also need to know when my donor is supposed to start stims because David needs to start his antibiotics on that day. Of course, that info wasn't on my calendar Trouble is I realized that today is the first Thursday of the month and they have team meetings all day If I haven't heard from her by noon tomorrow I'm going to call again. I'm also getting upset with the embryologist. I've left two voice-mails and two e-mails trying to arrange an appt to have a semen sample frozen as backup .. you know just in case. Nothing from her either! I'm sure she was tied up in the group meeting today too so I can't get too mad .. yet.

Are you glad you asked???? j/k Sorry to have given you an earful I'll be sure to let you know WHAT I hear tomorrow (because come he11 or high water I'm going to speak with someone!). Thanks for letting me get that off my chest. I sure do feel a lot better now

[50/50]

I can't believe she hasn't called you back yet! I would be !#%)*!@#$%&!)#$%!) too! Yeah it would be nice to know when your DH should start his antibiotics. Well, I'm crossing my fingers that they call you sooner than noon tomorrow cuz that is ridiculous! I'm sorry you are having to wait so long and can understand that you are upset. But hang in there it will all work out as it usually does..the waiting is just not fun. I will be checking to see your post! Take care of yourself and B R E A T H D E E P!

[Emily'sMom]

Thanks! There's no way I can wait till noon tomorrow so I've decided to call b/w 9:30-10. So with any luck as you're getting up in the morning I should have some answers! I also just remembered that they close at 12:30 on Fridays I'm pretty sure she works from home tomorrow so I should be able to reach her. At least I hope so.

I know everything is going to work out. You're right though, this waiting $ucks. I know I'm a PIA, but still ..

Hope to be posting the details of my conversation in the morning

[50/50]

You're definately not a PIA! I don't blame you for not wanting to wait. I will be looking fwd to your post in the am! Try not to worry or obsess over it.

[Emily'sMom]

Just spoke with the EDC (she's been at some expo). I didn't even bother to ask her about the e2 issue because I think she's tired of my line of questioning. Anyways, no big deal on messing up lupron and taking my dose this morning. She said to just get back on schedule tomorrow. She said our donor was in today and if her levels come back okay she will start stims tomorrow. That's when I thought she'd start. It's a great day too b/c dh and I will be married 11 years tomorrow! She mentioned she'll be away at a conference for several days next week and into the following week. I'm not even sure she'll be around for the retrieval. I asked if I'd get any kind of updates like things are going well and she said no - just the opposite. So she said I wouldn't get any updates .. meaning everything will be good. I'm confident my donor will do well, I just hate the fact that we're kept in the dark. I just find this whole process very impersonal. I don't know what I was expecting but what I'm experiencing isn't quite what I had hoped for I guess I just need to focus on the end result and to heck with everything else. Lets just say I'm really looking forward to my acupuncture appt this afternoon!

[50/50]

I'm so relieved that she called you back today! I wouldn't worry about your E2 they must feel it will go up sufficiently or they wouldn't even consider starting your donor on stims yet.

Glad to hear the lupron thing was not a problem.

Sorry you are feeling that this is so impersonal but sometimes no news is "good" news. I was stressed out from the bad news I kept getting from my RE so I don't know what is better to know or not to know? In the end it all came out good and that was what counted.

We are all here to support you! I know it will all work out great too!!!! It's coming up so soon!

Congratulations on your 11 years too! Have a great weekend and CELEBRATE!

[Emily'sMom]

Ya know, I gave up on the e2 issue yesterday. I think I just need to ride out my worries b/c after 24 hours I always seem to be fine with it.

I guess that's how they look at it - no news is good news. I have no choice but to accept that. They certainly aren't going to change for me I remember so clearly your ups & downs with being told a few things so I guess it's best I not know anything. I will have to keep reminding myself of that over the next 11 days!

I think I set my expectations too high This anonymous thing is still upsetting to me. I suppose I've gotten to know too many ED that have incredibly close relationships with their recipients and it makes me sad to realize I won't have that opportunity. I know I will come to terms with that eventually but for right now it's so hard for me. I guess I also want to hear some excitement from the EDC (she's been dealing with me for nearly a year now) that we're finally here. It's all seems more like "matter of fact" stuff. Boy I must sound like a huge whiner right now. Sorry about that.

Thanks so much for checking in on me and your never ending support. I really appreciate it!!! I think the next 2 weeks are going to fly and the retrieval and transfer will be here before I know it! So for now, I'm going to do my best not to worry (yeah right). At least I'll try!

[50/50]

I'm sorry you are upset about the anonyminity issue. Did you ever ask your EDC about sending her a letter? When you send her your gift you could always include your email address like you had thought of doing? You never know what may happen?

I didn't get much "emotional" support from my nurse coordinator either...even when I got pg she was not even very excited for us. I think it's an everyday occurance for them and they prob have to look at it like it's just their job. They probably have to build some type of wall around them other wise they would be so emotionally drained with every patient..I just couldn't imagine?

We are all excited for you and your progress! It is actually happening!

Focus on the end result!

[Emily'sMom]

The clinic just called .. cycle is delayed. I'll post separately.