my decision

[crochetqueen]

i think this is the best place to introduce myself. my name is michelle, im 31 yrs old. im a nurse for alzheimer patients. ill be married for 4 years in november.

we started trying right when we got married,. i finished my last pill pack right before the wedding. we had assumed id be pregnant quickly. well when we hit 3 years, we decided to start the testing. everything is fine. no problems on either end. im overweight but going to the gym and 20 lbs down so far. anyway, after i got licensed we started clomid. on the second cycle, i had a really bad reaction to it. so we decided that we had to stop all treatments. which was very hard for us. it hasnt been until this last couple of weeks that ive made peace with this. a little therapy and a vacation has given me the chance to step back. now were just not preventing anything, but were no longer trying. if it happens it happens. were not planning our lives around when,. it is what it is. and honestly, ifeel free and relaxed finally. its been a long heartbreaking road. i no longer think im less of a woman or that theres something wrong with me. its just bum luck. but i love my life and were happy with our lives. i stopped looking at what i dont have, and grateful and enjoing what we do have.

[krmay]

That is the best attitude to have. In our journey, we must all find contentment where we are because some of us will overcome IF somehow and some of us will never have biological children.

With that said, there are other drug therapies besides clomid that may be better for you. You can discuss that with your RE.

Keep up the great attitude. And live everyday with gusto!!!

[barren-bipolar]

Just wanted to say "thanks" for being the board coordinator. Sounds like you're in a good place right now.

As for me, some days I feel content and then other days it's a struggle. I'm trying to learn what triggers the loneliness so that I can develop strategies to prevent it... for example, making plans for even little holidays so that we feel a part of a larger group. Yesterday was Labor Day and we took a stroll in the park... just the two of us. All around us were huge bustling families having barbeques and it was hard not to feel lonely looking at them. It is on days like that I wish my extended family didn't live so far away.

[brianwhitskey24]

there is always a solution for every problem,dont worry dont give up the hope,

[WhitneyAtFertilityAuthority]

After years of TTC and multiple Iui and IVF treatments, my husband and I decided to live our lives without children. It took me a long time to get to this place, but I count my blessings and value my freedom and friends every day. The wounds have closed over and every so often the scab comes off in a dark movie theater if there's a poignant baby scene...............but that rarely happens anymore. There is nothing more painful than being attached to something you can't have or control. we are better than fine.