second iui need some advice on follice size girls meet me here!

[dancing lilly]

Hey girls, I thought we could come ever here. that way we are more free to discuss the differences in everyones plans without making anyone feel bad.

[keepthefaith]

Dancing, thanks for starting this new thread. I felt like I couldn't post anymore under the IUI boards. I haven't been feeling well and I'm getting both nervous and excited about my next u/s Nov 1.

I'm so happy for you and your DH. I can't wait to hear about the adoption. So after you submit the application, you just wait to be matched up with a birth mom? Do you request a girl? Is that why you got the pink sleeper? (I almost cried when I read that post).

I have wanted to start buying things, but then I'm worried something will go wrong. Hopefully after the 12 week mark my mind will be at ease and I can start to enjoy this afterall.

[dancing lilly]

Today, 01:22 PM #629 posted by Dana

Trisha,
Are they going to ask you to 'abstain' after the Clomid Challenge? I've read of a few pregnancies after the test!

I'm doing as well as can be expected. The relatively few success stories at 45 and finances (and time spent here!) is affecting my mood negatively.

I will likely start a new cycle by the weekend. No excitement or anticipation though. Not after five antral, followed by one follicle; then three fat follicles followed by a BFN. But I will keep on for a bit longer. I've entered the ttc 'underground' network trying to find suitable donor embryos or shared donor eggs. Soooo far from conceiving with a DH and having both sides of the family excited. All this secrecy. Ugh. It eats my soul.

Forgot to say my parents are moving out at the end of the month. At least I will not need to use stealth in my own home after that.

Sorry, I"m quite blue today. Child Mentioned: I went to a Mom and child group today and was so uncomfortable, I left after about fifteen minutes. Not really liking 'small town' living as much as I thought I would. Maybe it would have been different if I were married.

Dana



Today, 12:28 PM #628 posted by trisha


Keep- Hey sweetie! Well, I wasn't sick when pg with dd, BUT I was soooooo exhausted all I wanted to do was SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEP! It got much better nearing the end of 3 months. I also had no appetite until about the 7th month, which may have been good hee, hee, because once I wanted to eat everything.... she was almost due ! I would drag myself to work at 5am, get home at about 3pm, eat something, and go to bed!! I hope it will be shortlived for you hon, BUT it's the beautiful reminder there is life in you and it is very NORMAL. I would give anything to feel that again (I say that now huh....lol).
Yes, the test you're talking about is the same one they're doing on me. They're adding the clomid challenge test and will also check my fsh level again on day 10. I hope all is well too, thank you. Keep us posted, and take care of yourself honey!

Trisha




Today, 11:00 AM #627 posted by keepthefaith

Posts: 305 Dancing, I almost started crying when I read you bought a pink sleeper and put it in your closet! That is so sweet and a great way to remind yourself of "hope". I can't wait to hear how the adoption goes. I'm wishing you all the best and hope you get matched up with a birth mom real soon. Its such a great thing you're doing really.

Trisha, I'm glad your safe from those nasty fires. Its so terrible what's happening out there. Sounds like your IVF appt went very well and December will be here before you know it. I've had the day 3 FSH but that was just a blood test that cost me a lot of money. I don't know if its what you are talking about. My levels came out ok and I'm sure yours will too. My next u/s is Nov 1. We can't wait. I've been so terribly sick with extreme nausea and fatigue. I literally have no energy, can't even take a shower until the afternoon when I get more rest. My body hurts and aches and I never imagined it feeling like this. I'm hoping/praying this is normal (I called the dr and the nurse assured me it is, I just find it hard to believe). Of course, I can't leave out the emotional outburts I have every few nights worrying about the u/s results.

Dana, are you there? Are you ok?

keepthefaith



Today, 09:36 AM #626 posted by Trisha...
Dancing Lilly- Hi!!!! So happy to hear from you!! Awwwww a little girl ! How exciting! I have always loved the name hope! I love the pink sleeper in the closet. I'm glad those darn fires are far from your grandma still!! Our house is ok, there are ashes all over the ground and our cars etc.... but the fires are not close. I feel terrible for all these people who have lost there homes; and to know this was arson, there are some TERRIBLE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!!
So, tenatively my IVF transfer will be the first week in December, so.... right about when your profile will be being reviewed . I guess I'm worried about this clomid challenge test... ... the doc knows I respond well to injections but still wants to do it..... just makes me nervous..... ...
Did the docs tell you why your levels were high at the time?? Oh, I'll pm you with my email and I'll check out the new thread too!! Talk to you soon sweetie!
p.s. As always, thank you for the encouragement!
Trisha

[dancing lilly]

Today, 02:50 PM #630 posted by trisha

Dana- Oh honey!! I'm sooo sorry you're so down ... wish I could give you a big hug!! I alway admire your fierce determination though.... . Ok, so tell me the plan of this upcoming cycle.... I like the "underground" backup plan too. Don't fret too much over the "secrecy" everyone doesn't have to know everything about you!! The only people that know about our situation is my family a couple of friends and dh's one sister. No one at work, no one else in his family..... so ALOT less people than more know. I don't want to constantly explain, discuss, hear the ignorant comments of those who don't know etc etc.... you know the drill.... and what I'm talking about.

So, your parents are moving out? I think it causes just too much stress for you with everyone under one roof, understandibly so....... and it will probably bring you and your parents closer once they have moved out. The DH will come when you're least expecting it sweetie, you just have your plate so full, you have no spare time for it, ya know??? And dont forget sometimes the whole dh thing brings on new stresses...heee heee..... but when the time is right, you're going to have your full family (with the newest addition/s) and just the right person to share all of it with. No worries about what others think. What type of mom and child group did you go to?

The doc actually told us to try timed intercourse with the clomid challenge test..... but you know if the insems cant get me pg I don't think naturally doing it can, that's for sure. Plus, clomid makes my lining a 5 which is impossible to keep a pg with, ya know? So, no anticipation there. So, I just realized today, I am on day 30 so af is a bit late, nothing to be excited about though, I haven't really been keeping track.... but my bbs are a little full so I'm sure I should start today or tomorrow....so I will take the fsh 3 day of af then clomid 5-9 then fsh again on day 10... then we'll see how that looks.

With my next af in November is when the bcp's and stims start. They estimated retrieval for the first week in december, so we'll see. If my fsh level is good they will let me do three fresh ivf cycles for 16,000.00...


Hang in there honey and play with the kids..... that'll cheer you up!

Trisha

[dancing lilly]

sorry ladies I don't know how to creat a link??? I just pasted and copied any responses since I moved over here. hope you don't mind but w/ me adopting, keep pg, trisha doing ivf and Dana doing iui and parenting I thought over here we could talk more freely.

[TRISHA]

Dancing- K honey, I'm here with you ... we can talk here from now on!!


Trisha

[dancing lilly]

keep, glad you found me over here! hope the other girls do too! Sorry you are feeling so miserable. that is a good thing though! You will have to let us know as soon as you get home from the u/s what those babies are doing! I know it is hard not to worry but, take confidence in the fact you feel so crappy. morning sickness is always a good sign. plus you are carrying more than one right? that can make you feel more sick! I think you should have a boy and a girl. What do you think?

Once our application is received then agency has to complete our homestudy. that will take about 4-6 weeks. Then, yes we just wait. They have a huge scrap book with aprox. 70-80 families in it all waiting to be matched w/ a birthmom. With ds I did our profile scrapbooking style and we were matched with his birthmom in 5months. I am praying that it will go even faster this time but, we are requesting a girl so that may make our wait longer. I am choosing to believe that we will be matched by Jan 2008 and our baby will be born in March 2008. God heard my prayers with ds so im BELIEVING that he will hear them with this one! We aren't the ones doing a great thing hon... it's those birthmoms out there that chose life for their babies and give them to people like me to love that are doing the great thing!

Trisha, glad you are ok! I am SO excited for you!!!! Dec. will be here before you know it! Do not worry about the clomid deal. My fsh is high because I have thyroid disease that has gone on for so long that it is causing premature ovarian failure. you are going to do just fine! I'll bet you'll be one of those ivf'ers with 20 embies on ice and two buns in the oven!

Dana, I am so glad to hear from you! i've been thinking about you so much lately hon! sorry you are feeling down... if your anything like me that just gets me motivated to find more answers and get what I want. What is the plan? Is there anything your RE can change? have you found any options for donor embies or eggs? I'd send you mine if they were'nt junk!
sounds like a good thing that your parents are moving out. hope life can settle down for you a bit and not be as stressful. You and the girls can have some nice quiet time enjoying each other before that baby comes and starts making noise! I know what you mean about small town. Although I do like where we live, adpting here is tough. We are SO private and would rather not share our fertility or lack of it with every stinking person around but...
you get pg and everyone is looking for the man, I have a baby and everyone is looking for the pg. Why does everyone think another persons fertility is theirs to plan????? makes me crazy! HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH WOMAN! YOU ARE A GREAT MOM AND DESERVE ALL THE CHILDREN YOUR HEART DESIRES ( or your checkbook can support! )

gotta go!

[Danasingle]

Thanks Dancing!

I'm here too!

I'm feeling mixed up about a lot of things. I applied for a higher mortgage and was denied. I planned to use it to pay back my ttc credit card loans; buy an investment property that my children and I could move into in a year or two if my business does not pick up and cover the shortfall of my business and housing expenses.

Not sure what the plan is. I found out yesterday that two couples I know also plan to buy rental properties here too. (very small town). Of course their financial situation is much better than mine.

I'm really wanting circumstances to be a little easier for the girls and I. I'm also rapidly approaching my last baby's EDD. Gads, I haven't even named him or her.

I was going to cancel my follow-up appt with my new Dr. tomorrow. He said if I am not feeling less anxious or depressed after a month he would refer me to a psychiatrist. Really don't want to see one, because the last one was extremely scathing about my desire for another child (to put it mildly). Many of the medical professionals I've seen would have preferred me to live alone, not work not have children and just 'take care of myself'.

Gads, it would be really best if I don't post until I am feeling more chipper, eh? Sorry.

Dana

[TRISHA]

Dancing Lilly- Love the scrapbooking style idea too cute!!! Those birthmoms will pick you before you know it!! I can't wait till you get some great news on your lil girl!! Any ideas for the first name (sorry if we've already gone over it all these months)??

So ladies are you saying high fsh levels normally are not good responders to stims?? I know in August of 2006 I had a point too low of tsh then in december of 2006 it was fine, so the doc never told me she said it wasn't relevant..... who knows .... Oh, DH did a semen analysis yesterday, results came back today..... his normal count 32 million.... about his average, but again the IVF doc said all looked good and all in "normal" ranges with no problem areas and no sperm antibodies..... so far so good, now if AF would get here, I could start my tests.....

Dana- We ARE HERE FOR YOU whether you are chipper or grouchy!! That's why we're here!! Who the hell going through IF can be chipper all the time ??? We're here 4 you regardless!!!

TRISHA

[dancing lilly]

hi girls! I am SO glad you found me!

Dana, I wish i had some great piece of advice for you... please do not feel like you cannot post hon! that is why we are here, to support each other no matter what. Unfortunately ttc does not come in it's own little basket. it is tied up in everything we do with our lives and everything we do with our lives is tied up in ttc. I REALLY hope that good things will come your way soon. I am so sorry you are having to deal with so much at one time. Hugs to you as you approach your due date. I know how hard those days are. please do not go away! We are your friends and we are going to worry about you if you just go away!

child ment.
trisha, the baby's name is going to be Elenor Hope. We will call her Ellie. Elenor is my grandma's name (the one that lives in CA). Freaks me out just to type that! We have wanted her for SO D*** long it's hard to believe she's really going to be ours!
yes, typically high fshers are poor responders. fsh is follice stimulating hormone which is what is in stims. therefore, if your levels are already high, pumpimng in more fsh with drugs is not effective in producing more follicles. the fsh raises when your ovaries are shutting down because your body is trying harder to get those follies to grow=more follicle stimulating hormone present in your body. your tsh (thyroid) is ok if it is a little low, high tsh levels can cause m/c. gotta put the kids to bed! i'll be back!