Trust the Process #IVF
by, 07-15-2012 at 09:27 AM (346 Views)
My cycle has been totally turned on its head. I'm wating for the call with my instructions... likely trigger tonight and ER on Tuesday. We almost triggered last night but then my doctor called back and said "WAIT!!! There are two 12's that we can likely capture with one more day of low dose FSH... but we'll likely lose the big guy in the 20s." I trust him and his gambling ways!
So... HCG shot went back in the cabinet and FSH came out again... along with a shot of Cetrotide to block my LH surge. I was using Synarel spray at double the regular dose and my LH was still creeping back up, so they pulled out the "big guns" (Cetrotide) to arrest it in its tracks. I had to drive 2.5 hours (round trip) to pick it up yesterday, after already driving 2.5 hours in the morning for blood and ultrasound, but it was worth it to save this cycle and not accidentally ovulate all of my eggies!
I went in for another blood test and ultrasound today but the poor ultrasound tech is off sick again. She has been absolutely overwhelmed since the part-timer quit. They need to get a new tech in STAT. The important thing is that my E2 levels are measured, though... bloodwork doesn't lie... as much as I wanted to know if my little guys caught up and look like they may be mature so that I could obsess over their sizes and my probability of success, I know that I've done everything I can do and the rest is up to God now. This will help me to let go and let God. Yet another lesson in letting go and not trying to control the outcome.
So. Sore. Breasts, ovaries, injection sites, bloodwork sites... everything is swollen/bruised and painful. BUT... This baby is worth it! All of the tears and pain WILL pay off. I know it!!
Now I wait for my bloodwork to come back from today (E2, LH) and instructions about when to trigger.
Ring, phone... ring!!!