wannabebe2

This Father's Day is a particularly tough one for us, as we just found out yesterday morning that we lost an early pregnancy. :'( I wanted to believe that it was just a postiive beta leftover from the HCG shot but the nurse assured me that HCG was elevated because a baby started to implant and then decided not to stick around. This is the first time we've had anything other than a zero on our beta, but instead of celebrating I had to say hello and goodbye to my little one on the same day.
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Tags: fathers, fet, hcg, infertility, loss

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Death Mentioned , Venting

For my peeps who are also stuck on the infertility treatment ladder/rollercoaster:

I am proud to say that I am already a mother. I just haven't met my child yet. I have already been a mother to five beautiful embryos, celebrated their blessed creation and each intricate cell division, and mourned the losses when each decided that he or she was unable to stay on this Earth. I am a nurturer, a caregiver, and a role model for the many children in my life (none of whom happen to be ...

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Inspirational Thoughts

My furbaby has nurtured me through many hard times, including 13 failed IUIs and 2 failed IVF cycles. She taught me how to meditate and how to stay in the moment when anxiety strikes. She taught me how to stretch, how to nap, and how to enjoy... REALLY enjoy simple pleasures. I owe her so much more than I can ever repay.

I was talking with my vet on the phone about establishing a timeline cutoff for my Furbaby's nausea to stop before taking her to the emerg clinic and possibly ...

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Everyday Life , Health , Inspirational Thoughts

The Doc and I discussed a bunch of variations to the IVF protocol to maximize egg quality and quantity and implantation rates. The power to the building went out right at the beginning of our discussion so we could not pull up computer files on past cycles. We reviewed the information that we had on paper file as well as some articles I had brought from medical journals. Our appointments are usually 10-15 minutes long. This one was very long, but it needed to happen.

Funny--for ...

I'm a bit of a nerd so I requested photo documentation of the creation of our beautiful embabies. For anyone else out there who wants to know what the process looks like... the creation of life is truly a miracle!!

Please click on the blue words below to see the annotated photos!

ICSI January 2013.doc

Originally Posted by wannabebe2

Some inspiration for today from my daily meditation book: "Don't stop now. Relax as much as you can. Know that the rhythm of life is still there, moving you forward. Don't look back. Focus intently on each stop. Soon you will reach the top. Soon you will reach your goal. Soon you will experience the victory. Keep your eyes focused on the path; look straight ahead. Embrace the thrill of the climb." --M. Beattie

Wow. 5 years ago would I have ever dreamed that I'd be doing my second round of IVF after 13 IUIs and laparascopic removal of endo, choosing to pay for meds and treatment instead of fixing a leaky basement and aging roof, with my mood/sleeping in shambles but my marriage somehow strangely stronger than it ever was before...

Positive thinking: the endo removal could be the miracle cure that we needed for this to finally work. We are DUE for our miracle. God knows we've done our ...

Tags: endometriosis, icsi, ivf, trying after failure, trying again

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Everyday Life , Relationships , Health , Inspirational Thoughts

I just found this piece on the internet and had to share... anonymous author:

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and I prayed. I have endured and planned ...

Does anyone know if dental cleanings/topical fluoride treatment are advisable/safe while TTC or during the first trimester? I can't get a straight answer from my dentist.

We got the call this morning to let us know that Larry (the big overachiever) is no longer viable and will not become a frozen siblingsicle. I am very sad but knew in my heart that he was not likely to survive after reading the literature on 12-cell day 3 embies with no evidence of compacting... he had a heck of a start but he wasn't able to make it to the big leagues.

I've been quite sad but I know that if he was meant to survive he would have, whether or not he had been transferred. ...