With all that's been happening with M, I'm just not into it this year.

We'll go to my mom's for Thanksgiving dinner and probably stop by dh's parents for dessert. It should be fun but there's just no thrill or excitement. Hopefully that will change as T'Giving gets closer.

Usually by now, I'm at least halfway done with my Christmas shopping, this year all I've gotten so far is a few Zhu Zhu Pets for R. I have some things in my shopping cart at Amazon but haven't gotten...

Decided to get up off my rear end and do something about my boredom.

A pot of chili is simmering on my stove as I type.

I've been craving it ever since I read the thread few days ago about chili & pasta (not having it with pasta). So I went out & bought what I didn't already have on hand.

Dinner is smelling good already!

There's a bunch of things I could be doing (and probably should be doing) but I don't feel like it.

With all that's going on around here, I'm just wiped out emotionally and physically. I have no energy or desire to do much of anything.

It's definitely time to call my dr and get back on some antidepressants.

M is having a really hard time in the mornings.

She's probably been late 5 or more times out of the 10 days we've been back to school.

2 of those days, I've dragged her up kicking, screaming & crying. 2 other days she's just been crying and begging me not to leave her.

She's always had some separation issues but it hasn't been this bad since she was in kindergarten/1st grade.

Last year, the school nurse was great. She'd let M sit...

I've made a small dent in things to do this morning but there is still so much more I *should* be doing.

Just no motivation to actually do them.

R has her 1st appt with the psychiatrist at 2pm today. It's in Boston, so I'll be picking her up from school at 12:30, that should give us plenty of time to drive to the train station and take the subway into the city.

20 minutes til I have to leave to get her. I need to go get ready. I need someone to come...

That's how I feel.

We saw M's dr yesterday, starting today, her morning dose has also been increased. Hopefully, it won't make her too tired. As it is, she's been out for the night by about 8:15p. That's a bit early for summer vacation but in 12 days, that will be her bedtime anyway.

Crappy morning.

Both girls have woken up at 6:15am for the past 2 days, when dh was leaving for work. Well actually, Molly has woken up and then woke me & Rebecca up....

M had a major episode on Friday afternoon. I had to call the police. There was an ambulance here b/c if we couldn't calm her down, we have had to take her to the hospital. Luckily, she was able to calm down and we sent them away.

She grabbed our wedding picture off the wall and smashed it on the livingroom floor. She had just socks on and kept walking thru the area that had broken glass. The more I told her not to, the more she did it.

We thought she broke the computer,...

Appt went well yesterday, I think they'll be a help to us. They'll come twice a week for a month to help with M's transition home. Once for meeting just with M and the other for a family meeting.

M is still almost always on the verge of a tantrum, or so it seems anyway. Resorting to violence is still her 1st instinct, though it doesn't escalate like it used to. Yesterday she threw a wooden kitchen chair at me (she missed) and threw some Uno cards all over the diningroom when the...

M came home Monday afternoon!

Things are better than they were before the hospital but still very difficult & tense. Hopefully after she's on the meds for a while longer, things will ease up some.

I should be tidying the house but I have no motivation. M's dr recommended that we have some in-home help to make M's transition home easier. 2 FST social workers (Family Stabilization Team-- I hate that we need help with family stabilization but I'll take any help we...

After our dinner out with Molly last night, we were walking her back to her room on the unit and I recognized a woman we know.

She was with her husband & daughter, saying goodbye to her son, who is also a patient in the same unit. She ran the agency we used for Molly's adoption and has 2 children who were adopted. I stopped to speak withher briefly but then had to get going.

We haven't seen her in 5 yrs, but coincidetally, she called me about 3 wks ago to check...