http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/ Infertility and Adoption online interactive support community for your family-building efforts. Information and discussion includes infertility, adoption, pregnancy, parenting and surrogacy issues. en Fri, 24 May 2013 06:24:20 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/ http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/32006-back-saddle-again.html Sat, 26 May 2007 18:46:31 GMT So I just read my dear friend Cindy's blog and I thought - - " I ought to jump back on the blog band wagon!!! I wish I had continued through my PG and the babies first 7 months. Oh well! I am sure I will have more excitement in the months/years to come. (all the good kind I am sure ;) ) ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/32006-back-saddle-again.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53044-2nd-u-s.html Fri, 21 Apr 2006 22:19:19 GMT I had my big outing today :) I went back to the doctor! First we had our U/S. The babies grew so much this week. They more than doubled their size! Now they are about the size of raspberries :D Their heart rates were strong. . . one was 158 and the other was 134. We like to think that it... I had my big outing today :) I went back to the doctor! First we had our U/S. The babies grew so much this week. They more than doubled their size! Now they are about the size of raspberries :D Their heart rates were strong. . . one was 158 and the other was 134. We like to think that it supports our one boy one girl theory since one heart rate is so much higher :D When we met with Dr Whitworth she seemed pleased with the babies growth. The SCH had decreased in size and is clotting some. She told me to expect to continue some spotting for a while because she could still see a pool of blood. She did say that I can start some light activity this week. I am going to try to work part time next week and just lay down if I need to. I am so ready for this to be over and just enjoy my pregnancy!

I talked to my sister to give her an update. She has been telling me my 3 year old niece, Meg's, prayers for the babies. She said at first they started with "Dear God please help the babies get better" then that changed to "Dear God please help the babies be good when they are born." Then to "Dear God please help the babies know not to lie." (apparently little Miss Meg has a problem with the truth now :) ) And today's prayer was "Dear God please help the babies be able to ride bicycles and we can be cousins forever and ever." SO ADORABLE!!!! Any wonder why we go through all this pain to become mommies??

Thank you God for my babies and my wonderful wonderful family! ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53044-2nd-u-s.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53186-doing-ok.html Tue, 18 Apr 2006 15:49:07 GMT This is the start of my 5th day of "taking it easy" It hasn't been bad at all. The only thing that really stinks is the M/S, but I would have that anyway and probably worse if I was out and about. :sick: I think today I may lay around in the backyard and get a little sun if I feel up to it :D

I am ready for Friday though. I want another U/S to see what is going on. My spotting and cramps have diminished a lot in the last couple of days, so that has to be a good sign! ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53186-doing-ok.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53336-scariest-night-my-life.html Fri, 14 Apr 2006 22:31:54 GMT Yesterday I had to spend the day in Cincinnati at a sales meeting for work. It was a forever long day. I had to get up every 30 - 45 minutes to potty and was popping Lemon Drops to control my sick stomach. But I wasn't complaining a bit. That showed to me that I was indeed PG!!!

At the end of the meeting, we all went to dinner together. It was my whole region. 23 men and me. At dinner, I got some odd cramps that lasted for a couple of minutes then went away. I felt like I needed to go the bathroom to make sure everything was alright. As soon as I got to the potty, blood POURED out. Not a little. A ton and bright red. I choked back the tears and rushed out, told everyone I was feeling sick and ran back to the hotel.

As soon as I got back to the hotel, I went to the bathroom to see if I was still bleeding. I still was. I wiped with some tissue and found even more blood and some tissue! I did it again. . more. I was convinced that I just M/C.

I was hysterical. I called my DH and choked out that I was bleeding and that I thought I had a M/C. Poor thing was also out of town on business in TX. I couldnt' even talk to him I was so upset. Bless his heart, he tried so are to help me calm down and think rationally. I called my friend who is a nurse and had recently had some spotting during her 1st trimaster. She was great. She calmed me down, reassured me, and told me to call my doctor on call. I did and he returned my call immediately. He told me it could be nothing, a M/C, or that I was carrying multiples and M/C one. He asked me to come in the next morning for an U/S because we wouldn't know anything until then.

I got off the phone and frantically packed my things. I just had to drive 2 hours to get to my parents house and then they could help get me the rest of the way home. It was the longest 2 hours of my life. God watched over me because I was completely in another world. I cried, I prayed, I zoned out. All I could pray was "Please Lord Please." Finally I made it home to my Mom and Dad. It was so good to see them and cry in their arms.

At some point in the middle of the night I calmed down. I had SO many people praying for us. I could feel it. Mama's housekeeper even prayed with her, then gave her a scripture. I meditated on it all night and all morning. It is Psalm 147:13 " For He strengthns the bars of your gates; He blesses your children within you." How AWESOME a God we have. I was finally able to pray more than "Please Lord Please" and I could pray " Lord please look after my babies. Please put them where it is best for them to be. Whether it is here with us or in Heaven with You. And please help us be at peace with it." That helped me so much. Knowing that if they weren't with me, they were with Him. . . in His arms. You know when Mama and I were talking in the car she said "You know that God is in control, but that doesn't mean that the Devil doesn't intervene to try to hurt you." I said. . . "Well the joke is on him because I have prayed more than ever and turned to God during this time. God is victorious!"

They drove me home this morning and DH got an earlier flight. We all arrived in Nashville at the same time and met at the doctors. We went into our U/S. I started crying as we were waiting and so did DH. The U/S tech was able to find 2 healthy babies very quickly! We could see and hear the heartbeats!!! Praise God!!! She also found a subchorionic hemorrhage next to my cervix (and also a little too close to Twin A for my comfort) When we met with my doctor, she was very reassuring. She has instructed me to really take it easy and let it heal. It could take a couple of weeks or months. But I need to let it clot and hopefully it will be absorbed in my uterus.

I have since heard that this is common in IVF patients. . . of course this is NEWS to me! But the good news is, that although M/C is still likely, hopefully, by my taking it easy, we can avoid it all together. And if we were to have a M/C, then it would probably be one of the babies that was at risk and not both. Not acceptible to me! I have fought too hard for these babies and love them too much. I am not letting go of either!!!

So I am taking at least next week off. Laying around, being a bum and hopefully clotting like a son of a gun. :D

Praise God!!! :sing: :sing: :sing: :sing: :sing: :sing: ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53336-scariest-night-my-life.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53723-3rd-beta-all-good.html Thu, 06 Apr 2006 20:03:26 GMT I got my 3rd beta done yesterday and all is good! my numbers doubled to 5,334. When I went in I asked to talk to my IVF nurse. She joked that it was more of a question of 2 or 3 babies, not 1 or 2. Now I am more anxious than ever for the U/S! I know that God will not give me more than I can... I got my 3rd beta done yesterday and all is good! my numbers doubled to 5,334. When I went in I asked to talk to my IVF nurse. She joked that it was more of a question of 2 or 3 babies, not 1 or 2. Now I am more anxious than ever for the U/S! I know that God will not give me more than I can handle, but the idea of triplets does make me nervous. My SIL had 4 year old triplets and I know how much more work they are and all the risks involved. But. . . .we will just wait to see what the U/S says. We could still have one and that baby has just really made themselves at home! Anyway, we are thrilled.

I went to lunch with a friend today and she gave me the Everything Pregancy Organizer. I have been trying to work, but alas I have spent the afternoon reading it :) She also gave me some Preggie Pops to help with M/S. No use for them yet, but I am sure I will enjoy them when that day comes.

Last night I was EXHAUSTED!!! When I quit working, all I wanted to do was lay down. But of course, once I got into bed, it took me over an hour to fall asleep and I still woke up at 5. This will get real old if I keep getting more tired and can't sleep well!

I am excited for the weekend. Eric and I are going to work on the backyard. Ok. . .Eric is going to work on the yard and I will sit outside, enjoy the sun, play with the dogs, and maybe plant some flowers :) Mom comes back through on Sunday from visiting the grandkids, so I am excited to see her once more. ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53723-3rd-beta-all-good.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53832-finally-have-symptom.html Tue, 04 Apr 2006 21:04:20 GMT I know it is ridiculous that I am excited about this, but I am. I feel like we have been pretending and we are just trusting this arbirary number that says that I am PG. My boobs finally started to hurt! Not a constant pain, but a sharp periodic pain. I have never felt anything like it! It... I know it is ridiculous that I am excited about this, but I am. I feel like we have been pretending and we are just trusting this arbirary number that says that I am PG. My boobs finally started to hurt! Not a constant pain, but a sharp periodic pain. I have never felt anything like it! It makes me laugh when I think of all those cycles when I poked at them and thought "I think they are a little sore." There is no question now!!!

I also have to pee constantly now. I don't think that has as much to do with me being PG, but with all this water I am drinking. This drinking 64 oz of water a day is for the birds!!! I pee every 30 minutes! Anyway - absolutely no complaints from me. I am as happy as can be. :D

Tomorrow I go in for another beta. I can't wait to see their growth. I also will get to set my U/S. Liz set up a poll for how many I will have on the Life's Journey board and it is hilarious. All in good fun. . . she gave options from 1 to 8!! :laugh: I have made such great friends here :D ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53832-finally-have-symptom.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53874-second-beta.html Mon, 03 Apr 2006 21:24:47 GMT The lab took FOREVER today! Did they know I was sitting on pins and needles! I guess part of me was worried that since I felt nothing things weren't going well. Well, that is not the case! My levels increased 5X to 2,457!!!! I am so thrilled!!!! And SO SO curious that we may be having more than 1! The next couple of weeks will be so long waiting for the U/S to see the heartbeat or beats!

Praise God! ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53874-second-beta.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53927-when-will-sink.html Sun, 02 Apr 2006 19:46:16 GMT DH and I celebrated on Friday night by going out to dinner and getting in bed by 8:30 :) Mom came on Saturday morning and is staying until tomorrow when she goes to see my sister in Texas. WE had fun yesterday shopping. We got my Easter Dress and I got a PG book that a friend recommended to me.... DH and I celebrated on Friday night by going out to dinner and getting in bed by 8:30 :) Mom came on Saturday morning and is staying until tomorrow when she goes to see my sister in Texas. WE had fun yesterday shopping. We got my Easter Dress and I got a PG book that a friend recommended to me. I still feel like we are just pretending that I am PG. When will it sink in that I really am? Instead of being tired like most PG people, I can't sleep. The weight of the world has been lifted off my sholders and I still can't sleep! I guess I am just difficult :)

Tomorrow I go back to work for the first time in 2 weeks :( I am not looking forward to it, but I have great things to day dream about. I also go back in my 2nd beta. My numbers should triple since it will be 3 days since my first. I go in again on Wednesday, then in 2 weeks for the U/S. I cant wait to see the heartbeat. Maybe that is what it will take for it to sink in for me?? I am also anxious to see how many heartbeats we have. I will be thrilled with whatever God blesses us with. Everyone keeps saying maybe 2 since my HCG levels were so high with the first check. Thank goodness for moderen medicene, we will know soon! ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53927-when-will-sink.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53981-beta-day-good-news.html Sat, 01 Apr 2006 02:14:19 GMT Praise God Praise God! Those are the only 2 words I can repeat today!!!! We went in for the beta today and it came back at a 528!!!!!! We are so incredibly thrilled and just blown away. :) Neither of us slept much at all last night. Before bed, as usual, we said our prayers. Of course they... Praise God Praise God! Those are the only 2 words I can repeat today!!!! We went in for the beta today and it came back at a 528!!!!!! We are so incredibly thrilled and just blown away. :)

Neither of us slept much at all last night. Before bed, as usual, we said our prayers. Of course they centered around the pregnancy test and we both cried and cried. I kept my hand on my belly all night because I was afraid I wan't going to be able to if I got a BFN. We went in at 9:30 for the test. WE would have to wait 2 - 3 hours for the results on my voicemail. After they took my blood, we went to Cracker Barrell to eat a late breakfast. Darn them it if wasn't the fastest service we have ever gotten! Then we drove the LONG way home to waste a little more time. We sat and waited for the clock to get to 12:00 before we walked over to the phone. Before we called, we prayed and prayed for God to help us through it no matter the result. Then we got the message. We both sobbed and sobbed and hugged each other. It was so touching - I have never seen DH cry before. Oh and Majors. . . he was hopping all around wanting to be in the middle of it. :D

After a couple of hours of calling, emailing and posting on FT to all our friends and family (at least that are in the IF treatment loop!) we finally sat down for a few. Then immediately got up! We had to do something to celebrate! So we went to Target and just wandered around the baby department. I had to laugh. I felt like we were just pretending. I don't feel any different. We just have this number floating over our heads that says we are finally PG. I guess it will really hit me when I start to get more symptoms or go in for the ultrasound.

The nurse said on the VM that she thought there could be a possibility for twins sinc ethe number is so high. Everyone has been telling me they think I will have twins. I will be happy with whatever God blesses us with, but I do hope it is twins. We put 2 back, I want them both to make it!!!

So much more to say, but I am SO SO SO very tired! I need to go post some things to my 777 girls too. They have a lot going on to, so I need to go be supportive!!!

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :1pray :1pray :1pray :1pray ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/53981-beta-day-good-news.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54033-last-day-almost-over.html Fri, 31 Mar 2006 00:07:15 GMT Today was pretty good. I stayed busy all day long and it is almost over now! I cleaned since Mom is coming on Saturday. I also worked on my scrapbook. I am still not done, but I just have a couple of other sections to finish. If I really wanted to, I could probably finish tonight, but I am not... Today was pretty good. I stayed busy all day long and it is almost over now! I cleaned since Mom is coming on Saturday. I also worked on my scrapbook. I am still not done, but I just have a couple of other sections to finish. If I really wanted to, I could probably finish tonight, but I am not sure if that will happen. I also organized under my bathroom sink and threw out all the expired meds I have. (Boy do I sound like a LOOSER or what!) But that is okay, because I made it through the day with minimal tears and I will know tomorrow if I am PG!!!!!!!

I am making Lasagne for DH tonight and hopefully soon it will be time for bed! I just made reservations for us at Ruth Chris for tomorrow night. I hope we will be celebrating a pregnancy. Maybe we will still go if it is a BFN to celebrate living through IVF. I don't know. I imagine if it is a BFN, I will be a wreck and couldn't make it through dinner out. And getting dressed up wouldn't be too fun.

I am saying lots of prayers and they mostly consists of 2 words "Please Lord please!!" I have so many people praying for us now. We are so blessed. Part of me does wish though that no one else knew. It saddens me just to think about how hard it will be to tell people if it is a BFN. But then again - it was their prayers that kept me strong over the last few months, so I wouldn't give that back.

Anyway. . . next post will be after I get my results. I so hope it is one filled with excitement, joy and thanksgiving not sadness. Please Lord please :pray ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54033-last-day-almost-over.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54086-decided-against-poas.html Thu, 30 Mar 2006 04:26:14 GMT DH and I talked about it tonight and decided against POAS tomorrow am. He really wants to spend the day with me after we find out wether it is a BFP or BFN. He had already decided to take Friday off, so he can go with me for my beta. After thinking about it - it is true. I don't want to have to celebrate or cry with him for 10 minutes and then he goes to work and I am by myself. one way or another I will want and need him around.

Looks like I need to stay busy tomorrow too!! LEt's see. . . house cleaning and scrapbooking??? ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54086-decided-against-poas.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54106-feeling-million-times-better.html Wed, 29 Mar 2006 21:43:12 GMT I got a great nights sleep and woke up refreshed and with a much better attitude. I started to think about the statistics. . . with my age, the embryo quality, my health there is MORE of a chance that I AM PG than not. So that is what I am going to focus on. And I am going to go ahead and HPT... I got a great nights sleep and woke up refreshed and with a much better attitude. I started to think about the statistics. . . with my age, the embryo quality, my health there is MORE of a chance that I AM PG than not. So that is what I am going to focus on. And I am going to go ahead and HPT tomorrow. I realized I will be 9dp5dt and that should be long enough. In fact my clinic would have done my beta tomorrow if they didn't just do BW on MWF. So in my mind, tomorrow is beta day kind of!

You know I would just feel a little bit better if I had one tiny symptom. I think if I were to throw up today, I would actually do a little dance afterwards. I will have to keep that in mind when I finally do get PG and have awful morning sickness! :)

Today I took Majors to the vet then to PetCo for a treat afterwards. Poor baby was put on a diet. He weighs 11 lbs and needs to go down to ~ 9. Apparently that will be pretty hard for him to loose since he is so little. So looks like I will be meansuring his food and no more vanilla wafers when he gets in his room. The vet said he could eat all the veggies (carrots, cauliflower) that he wants. So I picked up some of the baby carrots to give him instead. We will see how that goes :)

I am going to PF Chang's tonight with some fellow IFers tonight. I am looking forward to getting together with them. One is just starting the adoption process, and 2 are in the midst of IUIs. It is a good group of girls and I am looking forward to seeing them.

Next post, I will have POAS!!!!!! ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54106-feeling-million-times-better.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54142-2-more-days.html Wed, 29 Mar 2006 01:51:05 GMT I didn't do as well today. I couldn't get motivated and just sat around. I didn't even really sit around a watch TV and try to get my mind off the wait. I sat around and played on FT and the internet. IT was almost like all I wanted to do was dwell on how much longer I have. 2 days isn't that long (well it was really more like 3 today) but it seems like an eternity. I wish I had some kind of symptoms or something to give me some hope that it is positive. I know everyone is different and some have little or no symptoms.

I told DH earlier that after the results of the test our life is going to change. Either we are going to be extremely happy and start planning our future. Or we will get even more depressed and continue to wish away our life until the next treatment. I am just so tired of being sad. I am ready to look forward to tomorrow. Don't get me wrong. I have a blessed life. I just don't have the one thing that I want most. . . a child.

Anyway - lesson learned - tomorrow I will keep myself busy and only log on to FT a few times ;) ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54142-2-more-days.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54183-one-more-day-down.html Tue, 28 Mar 2006 03:25:38 GMT Today was a good day. I slept in late, snuggled with Majors and took it easy. I decided to make my honeymoon scrapbook my project for the week to take my mind off the 2WW. OK. . .so I am 4 years late, but that is okay! I actually had a pretty good time doing it. Usually scrapbooking... Today was a good day. I slept in late, snuggled with Majors and took it easy.

I decided to make my honeymoon scrapbook my project for the week to take my mind off the 2WW. OK. . .so I am 4 years late, but that is okay! I actually had a pretty good time doing it. Usually scrapbooking frustrates me because I am not that artistic. But I went to Michael's and got some fun stickers to add to my pages and that got me excited. Now every page still looks the same but it has different stickers on each one ;) It also helped me spend a lot of the day thinking about the wedding and the honeymoon. That was a time when we were so carefree. Kids were 2 years away and the thought of IF had never entered our minds. It was a nice escape. :) And I got 13 more pages done! I will work on it more this week and I think I should be able to get it done. Tomorrow I may go shopping for a little bit with my friend. On Tuesday afternoons, I get together with my Little Sister (from Big Bro, Big Sis). Tomorrow we are going to the Adventure Science Center. It should be fun. She is so funny and a hand full.

I think I had a little bit of brownish spotting today. I could only see it when I wiped, but it was there. I am hoping and praying that it was inplantation spotting. I guess we will know for sure soon! I am tempted to do a HPT on Thursday. If I knew I was going to get a BFP, then I wouldn't have as much of an issue waiting the extra day. It is if it is a BFN. . . maybe if I took a HPT and it was negative, then it would help prepare me. Or maybe it would just make me have 2 crappy days in a row. I don't know. DH says not to take it. Much easier for him to say though! Oh well - guess I don't have to decide quite yet. . . ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54183-one-more-day-down.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54239-5-more-days.html Mon, 27 Mar 2006 02:47:42 GMT I am starting to freak out a little bit. I have had cramps off and on since the transfer. I was told that was normal and could even be a good sign. Tonight they are getting a little worse and I am afraid they are Pre AF cramps. I never even thought about the fact that I could get a BFN and find... I am starting to freak out a little bit. I have had cramps off and on since the transfer. I was told that was normal and could even be a good sign. Tonight they are getting a little worse and I am afraid they are Pre AF cramps. I never even thought about the fact that I could get a BFN and find out because AF comes early!

I am trying hard not to freak out, but I can't quit crying and praying "Please Lord please!!!"

On a positive note, DH and I went to go see a movie this afternoon. "Man Inside" Highly recommend it. After the movie when I went to the potty (too much drink and popcorn!) I realized that for 2 + hours I never even thought about whether I was PG or not. I may go see a matinee every day this week! ]]> TeppieG http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/teppieg/54239-5-more-days.html