Random ramblings; my thoughts race through my head and my fingers race across the keyboard so try to keep up 
I have a feeling...
it's going to be one of those days... I feel on edge, b*tchy, and even bratty. Not typical for me. Usually when I know I feel this way I can suppress it...hope that holds true.
DH and I went out for dinner last night to this place called Pacifico. Very limited menu. Service was "eh" at best. Food was good, though we spent way too much. DH got raw oysters as his appetizer and those were $33 alone. We don't usually spend so much out; especially w/o me drinking. But, it was a good night out, and we won't get to do it once the girls arrive, so I'll let him have his kicks.
DH mentioned last night that MIL isn't planning on holding a shower for me till after the holidays. This is why I'm feeling bratty...and perhaps I really am being a brat. While part of it is the ol' "I want it, I want it NOW" stirring in my head, I'd like to think that I'm really not that shallow. Most of the things that I get that neurotic about are actions and things that I do - not things I expect of other people. Like my old infatuation with mowing the lawn (I'd get home and some days could not relax until I went out there and mowed it). Or my infatuation with getting the nursery done (and I did it top to bottom entirely myself except for one crib DH helped with). The other part of my feeling is pure worry - hence why I was up at 7am and out of bed by 8 - I couldn't sleep b/c my mind is going, going, gone. I think my concerns about shower timing are legitimate. I will be 30 weeks when the New Year rolls around. Granted everything has gone well with my pregnancy so far (knock on wood), but there are still so many unknowns...I may just be super uncomfortable and miserable, something could go wrong and I could wind up on bedrest, we could have a horrible winter with lots of snow, the twins could come as early as 34 weeks. I cannot begin to describe the worries, but I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about. I'm grateful that anyone is even throwing me a shower; no way can I afford it all myself. But, I can't help but be disappointed and it's just turning into b*tchy b/c there's nothing I can do about it - it's out of my control.
On the plus side, I have the main things - I can dress them (week's worth of clothes - could always wash & reuse), I can get them home (carseats), they have a place to sleep (cribs), I have diapers for their tushies, and I have a few bottles though hopefully I'll be able to breastfeed.
I owe all of the above to my mom. Even yesterday she called me on my cell phone while I was at work - she was at JCPenney (well the parking lot - she didn't know if her cell phone would work inside the store - LOL) and called me to tell me they had two pink buntings in newborn size for 50% off - should she get them? Of course I told her yes, and that I'd pay her back (though she'll never take my money.)
I'm interested and yet scared to see if MIL has anything for us when we stop by today. She said a bit ago she has a baby gate. Now I'm going to come off as a brat, and this is not derived from worry but rather just how I feel. I hope to heck she has something else for us. I don't care if it's just a bib. I want something that's thoughtful, that we didn't ask for (DH had asked for the gate when he found out we were pregnant). We didn't get a card or anything from them, and I just want to receive a certain sentiment from them. They bought out the @$$ for my niece and nephew and I'm feeling slighted. That's all. My family's always been share and share alike - that's why my brothers are getting, for Xmas, the cash equivalent of what my mom spent on big items for the girls. In my family that's what's fair; we're all treated equally.
Vent over. I did, btw, add pics of the outfits and car seats & stuff I have so far for the girls - I posted it to my shutterfly page. Likewise, my latest belly pic is posted there as well as my album here.
Today DH and I are going to Jersey to get our hair cuts...appt is at 11:30. We'll also stop at MIL/FIL's, maybe BIL's, and maybe Uncle's. It'll probably be an all day affair and we probably won't get home till after dark. Pooch is on his own today. He could really use another bath - so stinky today. I have a load of wash I need to do too...and should go grocery shopping. We'll see what I feel like and what I actually accomplish.
Wish me luck keeping it together today...on holding the worry and b*tchiness in and only giving off good juju.
DH and I went out for dinner last night to this place called Pacifico. Very limited menu. Service was "eh" at best. Food was good, though we spent way too much. DH got raw oysters as his appetizer and those were $33 alone. We don't usually spend so much out; especially w/o me drinking. But, it was a good night out, and we won't get to do it once the girls arrive, so I'll let him have his kicks.
DH mentioned last night that MIL isn't planning on holding a shower for me till after the holidays. This is why I'm feeling bratty...and perhaps I really am being a brat. While part of it is the ol' "I want it, I want it NOW" stirring in my head, I'd like to think that I'm really not that shallow. Most of the things that I get that neurotic about are actions and things that I do - not things I expect of other people. Like my old infatuation with mowing the lawn (I'd get home and some days could not relax until I went out there and mowed it). Or my infatuation with getting the nursery done (and I did it top to bottom entirely myself except for one crib DH helped with). The other part of my feeling is pure worry - hence why I was up at 7am and out of bed by 8 - I couldn't sleep b/c my mind is going, going, gone. I think my concerns about shower timing are legitimate. I will be 30 weeks when the New Year rolls around. Granted everything has gone well with my pregnancy so far (knock on wood), but there are still so many unknowns...I may just be super uncomfortable and miserable, something could go wrong and I could wind up on bedrest, we could have a horrible winter with lots of snow, the twins could come as early as 34 weeks. I cannot begin to describe the worries, but I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about. I'm grateful that anyone is even throwing me a shower; no way can I afford it all myself. But, I can't help but be disappointed and it's just turning into b*tchy b/c there's nothing I can do about it - it's out of my control.
On the plus side, I have the main things - I can dress them (week's worth of clothes - could always wash & reuse), I can get them home (carseats), they have a place to sleep (cribs), I have diapers for their tushies, and I have a few bottles though hopefully I'll be able to breastfeed.
I owe all of the above to my mom. Even yesterday she called me on my cell phone while I was at work - she was at JCPenney (well the parking lot - she didn't know if her cell phone would work inside the store - LOL) and called me to tell me they had two pink buntings in newborn size for 50% off - should she get them? Of course I told her yes, and that I'd pay her back (though she'll never take my money.)
I'm interested and yet scared to see if MIL has anything for us when we stop by today. She said a bit ago she has a baby gate. Now I'm going to come off as a brat, and this is not derived from worry but rather just how I feel. I hope to heck she has something else for us. I don't care if it's just a bib. I want something that's thoughtful, that we didn't ask for (DH had asked for the gate when he found out we were pregnant). We didn't get a card or anything from them, and I just want to receive a certain sentiment from them. They bought out the @$$ for my niece and nephew and I'm feeling slighted. That's all. My family's always been share and share alike - that's why my brothers are getting, for Xmas, the cash equivalent of what my mom spent on big items for the girls. In my family that's what's fair; we're all treated equally.
Vent over. I did, btw, add pics of the outfits and car seats & stuff I have so far for the girls - I posted it to my shutterfly page. Likewise, my latest belly pic is posted there as well as my album here.
Today DH and I are going to Jersey to get our hair cuts...appt is at 11:30. We'll also stop at MIL/FIL's, maybe BIL's, and maybe Uncle's. It'll probably be an all day affair and we probably won't get home till after dark. Pooch is on his own today. He could really use another bath - so stinky today. I have a load of wash I need to do too...and should go grocery shopping. We'll see what I feel like and what I actually accomplish.
Wish me luck keeping it together today...on holding the worry and b*tchiness in and only giving off good juju.
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I hope you can keep it together today, especially being in the car a lot and seeing relatives. That's a lot to do especially with the way you are feeling. I know that mood all too well. Maybe they can have your shower a week or 2 after the New Year. It is really stressful because you want everything in order and everything, I was the same way.
I almost didn't have a Shower because my family was being really ****ty to me so I told them not to bother and my DH bought me a whole bunch of stuff for Christmas. it's your nesting instinct and it will become more extreme the closer you get, not to mention all the hormones.
I think I had the same carseat for my younger, I went straight to a Convertible with my older son. Is the the Safeseat? That sucker was heavy, but I am little, lol. I actually like the heaviness factor because I felt it was safer in the base in the car but I rarely carried it for that reason. The diaper bag does look really cute and durable.Posted 11-07-2009 at 06:50 AM by jenmom2myboys
Updated 11-07-2009 at 06:54 AM by jenmom2myboys -
Your nursery looks amazing!
on all the other. You will have everything you need for them, whether you are thrown a shower or not. You could throw yourselves an open house/meet the babies party after they're here if you want to/need to.Posted 11-07-2009 at 01:54 PM by BC-pepper 
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Thanks ladies, today went fine - I kept everything in check and actually enjoyed the day. I'm going to try not to worry about anything (hah)
Jen - those carseats are Graco snugride 32's. They're pretty heavy - guess I better get around to buffing up my arms - figure I'll need to anyways if I'm going to be lugging around two babies and/or trying to breastfeed both! I did register for convertible also (Graco MyRide 65), but wanted the infant seats for the travel system and ease of getting them in and out when they're born.
Pepper - You're absolutely right. I will pick up things little by little and I'm sure between that and anything I get, it'll all work out.Posted 11-07-2009 at 07:37 PM by tdg119
