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I had a vistor bright and early Thursday morning, the day of Ava's u/s and they day we were getting discharged. I asked the nursery to bring Ava in but she was having her PKU test done and the ped was in checking on all the babies. A while later they came in to tell me it would be longer because she was going to go going to be getting that u/s done. My friend, who is a nurse got to peek at Ava before they wheeled her off. She was amazed at how perfect she looked, with a perfect shaped head and such a big pretty, baby.

She called me when she got back to her office and said she rode the elavator down with Ava and her nurse and Ava wasn't crying at all after her PKU and she was so good on the elavator.

DH showed up a bit later while Ava was still having the u/s done. A few minutes later, a nurse returned with Ava and had told us they needed to get a urine sample. They fastened some type of tape in her diaper area. In walks the ped, who is also a neonatal doc and he told us he seen her u/s results and it wasn't good. Instantly the tears started flwoing. The nurse grabbed Ava outof her bed and brought her to be right away. I was not prepared at all for this news. It is one thing to see a potential problem in a fetal u/s, but when you are looking at your baby and holding her and loving Every bit of her, the news was much more devastating to me. I was just not prepared I guess, it is so easy to take for granted good health.

He explained her one kidney was completely blocked. He said he didn’t mean at all to be so blunt, he thought we were already aware of it. She looked so healthy in every way. What if she hadn’t been a big baby? How would we ever know she was sick? We wouldn’t at all until she got very sick. I am so thankful for that u/s! The doctor was going to get in touch with the pediatric urologist from Mpls and he also ordered an X-ray where they shoot dye up through a catheter to see how the dye runs. I was so glad DH was there because I was a total wreck. We waited hours for them to take her when they had an opeing in X-ray. DH went with her and said she was such a trooper, she didn’t cry one bit, not even with the catheter. The radiologist said one was blocked and the other had reflux, which is not unusual but not the greatest of news. Now we needed to wait some more for the ped to come and talk with us and for the urologist to get back to him. They were not sure if Ava would be coming home after all.

I just wanted to be able to take our new little girly home and see the kids and get some normalcy back.