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My mom is happy because she finally has some fuzz on her head. All of her hair fell out after her 3rd chemo treatment, so she had been bald since about August. I notices a little fuzz on top about a month ago, and since then, it has grown rather impressively. I bet it is almost a 1/2 inch long now. She says she is brushing it every night to train it to grow in nicely. What a dork!

Things have just not been going well here, and the ice storm sort of threw me off the edge.
We still haven't heard back from the insurance on how much our claim will be. If it isn't over a $1000, our deductable, we wont get anything back.
We have some gutter damage and some roof damage, as well as the damage to the deck. It is unknown whether or not the swingset will be covered.
Richard is working a lot. He was gone 3 nights last week. He will be working late this week. ...

Today I was at my parents before they left for Salt Lake City and mom's appt with the specialists and further tests early in the morning.

Dad pulled me aside when mom wasn't in the room and told him that mom's doctor had called back, privately, this morning after he'd talked with them both on the phone.

He said that in his experience and what he's seen in the past, he's 99% sure that mom has pancreatic cancer. How far its gone past the main tumor, he can't say. ...

The kids made Christmas cookies last night...they are doing a cookie exchange with their friends this year.

L made cut out sugar cookies...she did snowmen and Christmas trees, they turned out very cute!

T on the other hand, well, he made Playboy Bunny cutouts. I have no idea where he found the cookie cutter...I sure the heck don't have one like that!!!

Nothing says Happy Holidays like a PlayBoy Bunny Cookies!?!

Once again, we arrive at the 18th. Four months since we lost the girls, and one day longer than I had them inside.

Their ornaments came today....they are heavy. But they are beautiful. There is a star burst on the bottom that leads up to the stars on the main body...which makes it look like flowers.

I was doing ok until I went to the mall. I had to go to Williams Sonoma....which is across from Babystyle and next to Jack and Janie. I did lose it a little walking ...

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It's been a while, and since I just mentioned them in a reply, I might as well update a bit.

J went back to AZ. I am beyond relieved that he isn't here anymore. That sounds horrible, but he was SUCH a drain on life. Seems that if he has a backup (us) he will not do anything for himself. From what I hear, he is working and has a roommate. He went back thinking he was going to hook up with his brother and live with him, but N's probation officer put the kabosh on that plan, basically ...

So, it has been a week since I had my u/s and saw our precious little bean and saw the heartbeat.

Why is it that I spend all my time worrying about the little bean and not really enjoying the fact that I have been blessed with a miracle?

I know God is good and is with me always, but I can't seem to just relax and take it all in!

Ugh!!

I want to enjoy every minute, but I can't seem to make my mind shut off and let me stop worrying ...

Between my mom's tumor being diagnosed this week, our best friends moving away tomorrow and Christmas next week, I don't think the timing for these combined things could have been worse!!

I spent several hours at the hospital last night with my dad while my mom was put under for the endoscopy. As Jodi shared in her blog, the doc said it is indeed a tumor that is causing the blockage, which is causing her these other problems such as the jaundice and itching. Now that the stent ...

I ran out of time to get the boys pictures made professionally for Christmas so I tried my hand at it at home..

This is what I got.







I got some pretty good ones ...