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It's over! My dissolution of marriage was yesterday, the judge granted it!!! YEAH! Free at last!! LOL
I have never felt such a feeling of calm when the judge said the word "granted". I felt a huge weight lifted from me. I finally smiled, really smiled (with my eyes and all) for the first time in a very long time!!

The judge asked if we believe this is in our best interest and our childrens best interest... my answer .... With out a doubt!

When ...

Im going for a massage this morning at 10. It was a gift from a friend. It will be so nice, its been a long time since I had a massage.
Its a beautiful day out today. Its also supposed to stay that way so I really have to get the front lawn mowed or there wont be another chance cause its supposed to rain after today again.
Im having a hard time eating on the effexor. Yes, thats partly good as Ive been trying to lose weight and now I am. BUT, it makes me not want to eat anything. ...

Went off without a hitch...can't believe there were no tears over not being able to eat or have his Milk!!!!

They ended up using just laughing gas so they didn't have to put him totally under - it worked great! He is such a trouper

For those that don't know - he had a steroid injection done in his knee.

The dr check many of his other joints again, he has some arthritis in his left elbow - which we knew but now it looks like there is some in his left ...

Evan's paper work is in. He should be scheduled for late April. : We really want to get him moving in the right direction. I would love for this appointment to come before his IEP.

In other notes--

**Last week I 'caught' him counting backwards.

**He can recognize all numbers 1-10

**Great letter recognition and knows just about all the sounds.

**Knows his colors.

He's not academically behind--but ...

Beer Pong. Whatever the ^&(^&*%* that is.

Yep. I 'let' (Like you can 'let' a 40 yo man do anything) him go to the Martinsville Race with his buddies. He made some new 'friends' and they introduced him to "Beer Pong". Now, I don't know what this really is--but apparently it's similiar to quarters.

So he calls Sunday to tell me he's the 'Champion' of the World--no less. Then he proceeds to tell me he cracked his ribs ...

I've finally done it!! I'm organised!!

I've sorted out the house... the mountains of clothes... etc etc.

OK.. i still have a few wee things to do... but nothing major... and waht a difference!! We have a call from FIL the other day who wanted to pop round - normally that would send me into a mad panic of "OMG where can i hide the mess?" but i was like - "Yeah! Sure!! NO PROBS!"

it was great!

Today just sucks...and honestly I am so sick of my life. I am so tired of always having to go through something or be dealing with some issue with my body. Is it to much to ask to be able to get through mabye a week with out some crisis?? I am just so tired of "fighting the good fight" if we do not get pg with this cycle I don't think that I have the emotional energy to do another one. Maybe we were just never ment to have children...I hate that my body is broken. I hate that my ...

I'm officially 40. *insert geezer smily*

It was a pretty good day. Low key, but thats what happens when you're old I guess.

Derek said I was sleeping in, but that didn't happen. I could hear him getting Susannah dressed, and discussing what shoes she would wear. She was telling him they didn't match, and that they were new and for certain outfits. (I was so proud of her ) Then *gasp* he told her it didn't matter, since this outfit was new too... Susannah ...

1.) i only have one kidney
2.) i am the most fertile infertile lady i know
3.) i didn't graduate from high school
4.) i have been published
5.) i used to be anorexic
6.) my sister witnessed a school shooting
7.) i want one more kid
8.) i was a vegetarian for 15 years
9.) i want my tattoo removed
10.) i am afraid to succeed

Today we finished up Nick's listening at 6:00, I put on a video, and came up here to relax a little before starting his supper. I heard a certain amount of activity downstairs, but no crashes, yelps, or weeping, so I stayed up here my full 20 minutes and then came down.

I found Nicky trotting around briskly, minus pants. I went into the downstairs bathroom. Nick's underwear were in the toilet. It looked as if he'd added his pants, too, then fished them out and left them on ...