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DH doesn't really care how I am still feeling about being excluded from baby shopping with SIL and he showed this by agreeing to go and see the IL's and our new baby niece. I am tempted to just stay home and play sick. It would be a good reason to stay home just to avoid the 2 faced SIL and also get to watch baseball online.

Starting tomorrow I will start going to work a whole hr earlier and getting out a whole hr earlier. It's going to be nice to be able to pick Dana up from daycare again but I am really going to have to get used to going to work earlier. I end up losing out an a whole extra hr of sleep but since Dana has been getting up earlier these days I guess that it will just help me get moving a lot faster. (I can only hope)

I ended up in the hospital last night. I fell in the shower, in addition I have been kind of sick for the last 4-5 days and ended up really dehydrated. Everything is fine though, they gave me some fluids, and I think that helped. Although I am still quite dizzy today, they said that would probably contiune to happen because I am so anemic. Plus there isn't much they can do for me until I give birth. Just glad the babies are ok. Anyway so far so good, a few more weeks until I meet my precious ...

Well i got my af agian I think this is the 7th iui in a row that i am doing now. Johns last count was 13 million. He has been rediagnosed with prominent varicoceles. NO surgery needed at this time. I am on cd 2 gong for cd 3 us and labs tomorrow. We were really positive this time. I actually stayed in bed for 3 days praying it would take this time. I usually do femera for 5 days then gonalf the rest of the time til hcg trigger shot. IT has been a really crazy cycle. depressing too. I got ...

I can't believe how fast everything is going! Seeing Tammy's babies (and Crystal's Wyatt) makes all of this SO real. It also makes that "strong" little baby I've been imagining seem so fragile and more precious. The burden to have things done LAST WEEK now seems even greater... it REALLY could be anytime.

I now The house is still a mess- HOW can we have a baby? There's going to be so much more to do, and stuff to organize, and we're already SO far behind! ...

Loving Two

I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?
Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you’ve never shared me before.
I hear you telling me in your own way, “Please love only me”. And I hear myself telling you in mine, ...

That we are moving on Fri. And the butterflies of being miles away from all I have ever known as home...
I can do this, and I will ignore that fear.

It's a little chilly out this morning so I pulled out a pair of jeans. The last time I tried to put them on there was a gap at least 3 inches between the button and the button hole. And they felt like they were painted onto my legs. I put them on this morning and I could button them and the feel like they actually fit. These are jeans that I bought when I started showing with my pregnancy so they aren't slender girl jeans but I'm still thrilled they fit. I even put on a shirt that looked like ...

It is so strange to write 1dt, I have always had blast (5 day) transfers in the past. Praying these little embies are hanging in there. I've been doing my best to rest but with a toddler (20 months) it isn't exactly easy! Plus Syd has a football game (cheer) this afternoon at 4pm. I need to get the house straightened up, 2 loads of laundry folded, bring in eithe pork chops or hamburger to thaw, not sure if we are going to have italian pork tonight or meatloaf Nate is zoning out watching ...

He is a real cutie. I had a great time. There are a few draw backs though. He just got out of a relationship a month ago (7/8 mos long) he has a cat, facial hair and asked "do you wanna get this" when the tab came for the 2nd place that we went. I wanted to say NO, you are the man YOU are supposed to pay! But it was the first date so I guess that is ok. As long as it doesn't happen again!
I did absolutely nothing today. Tonight, I met my GF for dinner and had one drink. Hairy ...