Maybe it is b/c of the babies I have lost. Maybe it is b/c my dad is dying. Maybe it is for all of my friends who have lost babies.Maybe it is b/c the thought of losing a child like they did just makes me sick to my stomach as I look and my almost 5 yo and 6 yo.
This is Steven Curtis Chapman and he lost his 5 yo DD Maria Sue a year and half ago in a tragic accident, in a car driven by her older brother.
This song is about Heaven and his DD, and seeing her again one day.
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Dh has not had any calls about jobs. He has applied for many jobs. Christmas is fast approaching and I am stressed about money and not being able to give the boys the Christmas that they have had in the past. Praying that the calls and interviews start soon.

Anyone know if you can get some of the same deals online? I don't wanna go out!

Not only is that a line from the Parappa the Rappa video game (for Playstation 1 - long before the days of Guitar Hero - in this game you had to hit controller buttons as they came across the screen and try to keep rhythm). So, as I was saying, not only is that a line from the video game, but it's what my girls are doing in my belly right now. Last night they were causing a ruckus too - they seem to be getting quite strong judging by how much they can make my belly jump around. I'd just like...

Not sure what is going on. Made it out of bed this morning only to return by noon and haven't left it since.

Working with the Dr.s but not sure what they are planning as they aren't doing it fast enough for me

Just want to be me again.

I'm going to POAS this Sunday (and maybe Monday and Tuesday too) and I'm getting really excited and hopeful. I'm not sure if it's just me but I've been feeling little headaches come and go at all times and also (TMI WARNING!!!), I've been constipated for the past 2 days... I did some googling and read that it could be a symptom of pg but then again, maybe it's not... it's driving me nuts!!!!

I've been tring to stay busy with work, with attending Weight W meetings (lost 5 pounds so...

Jasen took off his glasses again. We always lose them when dh watches him. That's what I get for leaving daddy in charge. we're already on a backup pair. One more month until we get new glasses. How do I keep this boy from destroying stuff? Good thing he's so darn cute.

Found a dress today at Kohls. I need a dress for the funeral. We don't know how long my mom has. I want to make sure I have something to wear so I don't have to think about that when the time comes.

I'm angry right now, because know-it-all kids his age can be so dumb that it's infuriating!! His roommate had people in the room, and lights on all night last night and they wouldn't let Cody sleep. Everytime he'd try, they'd wake him up. So needless to say, he pulled an all-nighter. Then he had class all day. Then he lifted weights and did his running. He had a meeting set up with both the coaches of BGSU's wrestling club, for 8pm tonight when the team has practice to see if they'll let him...

Alright. So she arrived. Aunt Flo that is... As usual on the exact day I was ready for her. Funny isn't it that I can calculate exactly when she will arrive, have my cycle down to a science, but can't produce the desired outcome. Hm....

It's frustrating to not be able to make my body do something I want it to. Especially when anything else I want my body to do, can be done. Lose 30 pounds~ put your mind to it, eat better, exercise. Learn more~ go back to school get a degree....