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We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Courtesy of lyricshall.com
'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

I was listening to this song on the radio this morning, and it hit me hard. Especially this line:
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
Wow! You see I have been through a lot in my 39 years of living. From an abusive home, a church that thought "grace" was just a word.My brother had a virus attack his heart at 15. Infertility, miscarriage. 6 miscarriages to be exact.My sister being an alcoholic. My mother being a prescription drug addict. My father dying a horrible death of cancer. My husband choosing that very moment to flake on our marriage in the worst way. Richard and I went to counseling again Tues night and I hate telling my life to counselors. It sounds like a flipping soap opera.
BUT and this is a huge BUT- Look at me! I am making it, I am doing this, I am HAPPY! Of course it has very little to do with me and everything to do with my personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
That is why the song hit me so hard. If I had not been through all I had been through, maybe I would not have sought Him out. Because of all I have been through His love, grace, healing, help mean so much more to me than they ever could have had I not had the trouble, the pain and the heartache.
So this morning I am so thankful for every bad thing that has ever happened to me to lead me to this place where I can fully rely on God. Where I can look at all I have been through and see a divine purpose, and reason for going through all I have been through. That I can look and say, Lord if you could bring me through all of that then I know you can handle today!