Patience

Ya know I am beginning to think that certain people in my life really don't belong there. I mean I am surrounded by a loving family and my husband and my kids are great.. They are my rock I have great friends the ones that know me best but for some reason I can't shake my past it doesnt matter what I do or who I speak with the past is right there behind me. There are a bunch of hipocrites out there who state forgiveness is possible but if forgiveness is possible how come they can't let it go. Shea and I have removed ourselves out of peoples lives for a reason because they show no interest in us or our kids. It's like a revolving door of sadness and madness. We have forced ourselves into the lives of our children and my family. I love my friends dearly because they are our family. It's sad when family isn't really "family" there more like aquantances. That is actually sad obviously you don't know me or my husband and you especially don't know my kids so don't pretend to care when actions actually speak differently. Im sick and tired of trying to put on a front for people when in actuality they dont know me or care to know me. Either accept me or leave me be. Either accept Shea or leave him be. You don't like my kids it's your loss.. Between my kids, Shea, my family and my friends thats all that matters those that don't care for us realy don't know us at all. Im tired of the Holier than thou attitude some people give off. I have too much on my plate to deal with petty crap. I am sick, my son is sick and for people to think that I could give a rats terd about past mistakes is unbelievable. move on, if you cant move on then forget about us.





"For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace."