Mrsbeck

Hello Ladies, I have not been on in a while for 2 reasons. The first being I was on vacation from 7/12-7/17 and the second being that I have not felt good at all since I have returned. I am queazy, sleepy and moody most all the time.

The last time I posted I had had my sonogram at my OB's office at 6 weeks 6 days and baby b had made her appearance. 3 days later I left for my vacation. First I had to buy some maternity shorts because all my other clothes are already tight tight lol. I never ever check my bag because of the fear of it getting lost. Well this time I had to check it in because I had all my progesterone in oil injection supplies in my bag. Well this was a traveling day from hell. We left on time but then got diverted in Houston due to a thunderstorm. Then when we finally arrived, We had missed our flight to Newark but our bags hopped on the next flight. We then had to fly to Laguardia. They were going to try and intercept our bags and send them to meet us but I guess they didnt. So, we arrived 8 hrs later than expected and no bags! Luckily I had taken a bottle of prometrium and some crinone in my purse. My bag finally made it to the hotel the next morning. So I only missed 1 injection, but I took a prometrium and inserted a crinone in its place. Our vacation was very nice. I mananged many naps. We returned home with no problems. But the very next morning..........pink mixed with my discharge! And it continued more than usual. I called the RE office to tell them and to ask when would be best to makeup my progesterone check I had missed on the prior friday. They said if I wanted to come in that day. They could check my progesterone and do a sonogram to check things out. I went but I was worried about the sonogram. At this point I was 8 weeks 1 day. My RE is the one with the dinosaur sonogram machine and she is the one who told me that my second sac was empty. Well right away we could see both babies but baby b is still smaller. She zoomed in on baby a and he had a heartbeat of 176 measuring right on target. She quickly glanced at baby b and told me that it had stopped growing at 6 weeks. She does not know I had the other sonogram at my OB. The OB sono tech told me baby b is sitting further back and hard to see until we do abdominal ultrasounds. The OB sono machine is also state of the art. I was a little upset that my RE did not attempt to zoom in on baby b, she just told me sorry it didnt make it and went on. She then looked for the source of my spotting. And she found a bleed near baby a. She said it is because baby a is kinda close to my cervix but that it will stop in a few weeks. So what I am trying to say is that I am not going to take my RE's word that baby b did not make it. Dont get me wrong, I am perfectly happy with 1 or 2 babies but I do not want to mourn the loss and then find out 2 weeks later from my OB that everything ok. So for now, I am just not going to think about it. Since then I have that pink stuff every morning but its gone the rest of the day. I am still giving myself the pio injections but my poor hips are very tender and swollen.

I go back to the RE tomorrow (Thursday). I am going to have a progesterone check and ask about how they plan to wean me off the progesterone. They had told me before that I would get off the injections at week 10 and thats next Tuesday. I am a little nervous about getting off of pio. They will probably do another sono as well. If baby b is gone then we will know its over, if it is still there, then I will wait patiently for my next OB appt.

You know I told myself that I would not worry after I saw a heartbeat on a sonogram. Well it hasnt quite worked out that way. I AM STILL WORRIED! I worry about both my little ones. Now I keep telling myself that when I reach 12 weeks I will be ok. But who knows!

I continue my prayers and gratitude to GOD. I thank him for this journey called life.