Fertile Thoughts - Blogs - Powerful thoughts by Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/ Infertility and Adoption online interactive support community for your family-building efforts. Information and discussion includes infertility, adoption, pregnancy, parenting and surrogacy issues. en Mon, 20 May 2013 01:58:16 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg Fertile Thoughts - Blogs - Powerful thoughts by Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/ Lets seee http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/77496-lets-seee.html Wed, 14 Nov 2012 04:35:44 GMT as we losely entering the TTC #2, I think this one is lot harder physically and easier mentally. Physically, I am turning 40 in February. I am not sure how bad my eggs are and ability to carry etc. etc. My endometriosis could be back and I may not have any symptoms (i didnt have a lot of symptoms... as we losely entering the TTC #2, I think this one is lot harder physically and easier mentally. Physically, I am turning 40 in February. I am not sure how bad my eggs are and ability to carry etc. etc. My endometriosis could be back and I may not have any symptoms (i didnt have a lot of symptoms before with stage III). Even my god send RE said "after age 40, it gets extremely difficult to conceive"....
Mentally, I think having my baby already helps. When we went thru IF before him, I was very emotional. Preggos or mom stuff didn't bother me but the feel of inadequate as healthy female (meaning fertile) bothered me a lot and had a many nightmare. Now I just look forward the pregnant feeling again but if it won't happen, I feel I can handle better this time.

Anyhow, this cycle would be a bust because I am sure I am about to ovulate but we are busy trying to find where to send our son next year. I am getting up at 4am to line up on the magnet school registration line tomorrow morning. Keep your fingers crossed! ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/77496-lets-seee.html TTC again http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/77495-ttc-again.html Tue, 13 Nov 2012 04:17:05 GMT well I have been pushing my DH again to TTC again. he is not sure but he agreed that we will see what happens. So I am back here:) We decided we will try naturally without medical intervention this time for while. So far, not much going on. I removed my Merena on August and just kind of letting it... well I have been pushing my DH again to TTC again. he is not sure but he agreed that we will see what happens. So I am back here:)
We decided we will try naturally without medical intervention this time for while. So far, not much going on. I removed my Merena on August and just kind of letting it go. I am POS addict normally and I chart my temp but I quit all that. Life is busy and just don't wan't to stress about it.
we shall seeee.....:) ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/77495-ttc-again.html missing my baby http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75828-missing-my-baby.html Thu, 28 Oct 2010 02:43:43 GMT this week has been crazy busy. after work, i had a training last night so he was being watched by my friend. today, i had a meeting after work and was not able to go home in between work and meeting, so i dropped him off at sitter's around 7am, didn't get pick him up until 7pm. My DH picked him up around 11am and dropped him off at 4pm again, so at least he was not at the sitter's 12hours straight but still this sucks. I was only with him total of 2 hours today and those 2 hours are just driving to/from the sitters, bathing,clothing, packing him up etc etc not quality of time.
I cannot believe how much i miss him right now. He is happily asleep now after i nursed him when we got home, but i have this strong urge of picking him up.... aghhhh how can we love someone so much! ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75828-missing-my-baby.html missing my baby http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75827-missing-my-baby.html Thu, 28 Oct 2010 02:43:35 GMT this week has been crazy busy. after work, i had a training last night so he was being watched by my friend. today, i had a meeting after work and was not able to go home in between work and meeting, so i dropped him off at sitter's around 7am, didn't get pick him up until 7pm. My DH picked him up around 11am and dropped him off at 4pm again, so at least he was not at the sitter's 12hours straight but still this sucks. I was only with him total of 2 hours today and those 2 hours are just driving to/from the sitters, bathing,clothing, packing him up etc etc not quality of time.
I cannot believe how much i miss him right now. He is happily asleep now after i nursed him when we got home, but i have this strong urge of picking him up.... aghhhh how can we love someone so much! ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75827-missing-my-baby.html Busy October http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75809-busy-october.html Sun, 24 Oct 2010 11:45:26 GMT it has been really busy month. Had a many after school meetings at work, that requires baby to go back to sitter in late afternoon (he goes to a sitter a few hours in a morning). I had a first appraisal at work and it was so so. On top of that we had a first pumpking patch and and then a first... it has been really busy month. Had a many after school meetings at work, that requires baby to go back to sitter in late afternoon (he goes to a sitter a few hours in a morning). I had a first appraisal at work and it was so so. On top of that we had a first pumpking patch and and then a first halloween on the way. He will be a baby Yoda lol and he was just okay for the pumpkin patch, it was too warm for him that day so he slept most of it. He is also starting a solid, i have been having a fun making home made organic baby food. so i attached some pics from both events.
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]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75809-busy-october.html What happens? http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75796-what-happens.html Fri, 22 Oct 2010 02:23:07 GMT I kind of forgot i had to avoid eating Mackrel. So i had a take out sushi for dinner tonight and i was starving so i just ate all of them, including one piece of Mackrel sushi... Now i am going nuts googling aobut this and feel guilty that i might be harming my baby... stupid me,, i knew to... I kind of forgot i had to avoid eating Mackrel. So i had a take out sushi for dinner tonight and i was starving so i just ate all of them, including one piece of Mackrel sushi...

Now i am going nuts googling aobut this and feel guilty that i might be harming my baby...

stupid me,, i knew to avoid the fish,,, agghhhh ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75796-what-happens.html A year ago yesterday http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75681-year-ago-yesterday.html Tue, 28 Sep 2010 02:11:59 GMT I POSed and found out my first IUI worked. I remember all emotions related to 2ww and whatever the nurse said when i called to notify my pregnancy test turned positive etc etc. Tomorrow was my scheduled beta blood test and i waited patiently over 14 days to do home pregnancy test. All... I POSed and found out my first IUI worked. I remember all emotions related to 2ww and whatever the nurse said when i called to notify my pregnancy test turned positive etc etc.

Tomorrow was my scheduled beta blood test and i waited patiently over 14 days to do home pregnancy test.

All moments of my pregnancy was very special. We are not sure if we'd try for 2nd baby but this first time around,,, it's just special.

That's all i had to say.. my miracle baby is growing like a weed and now turning 4 months old. He is into grabbing and he smiles all the time. He is weighing wooping 17lbs 6.5oz and is GIANT!!!

I cannot be any happier... ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75681-year-ago-yesterday.html Lots of firsts for baby http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75567-lots-firsts-baby.html Tue, 07 Sep 2010 02:44:04 GMT our first labor day weekend together. 3 days weekend was nice. We didn't do much of anything for labor day weekend festivities. My DH was out for his best friends' bachelor party on Saturday night and I actually enjoyed my alone time with baby on Saturday and Sunday morning. Sunday, i was everywhere with babywhile my DH was not feeling well (hungover dah). Went to see two friends and stayed out until waaay late. baby enjoyed all the attention he got everywehre he went. so he is very clingy and tired today, which means more cuddle time for us so it was just fine.
Did really nothing for the holiday, didnt even watch any fireworks. but more breastfeeding and bonding time with baby. Thats what i needed so bad for last few weeks.

although some of the first is not very exciting to mommy. He is going to the babysitter starting tomorrow. it's only 4 hrs in the morning and he will start now, instead of waiting til last min. we could post poned it til the end of september but then we will risk losing the spot at this babysitter's place.

I am more nervous than anyone else. I know it will all work out and my baby likes people. but i am just not ready to have anyone else taking care of him. Will I ever? lol...

anyhow, it will change his daily routine and we just have to work with it... ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75567-lots-firsts-baby.html feelings.. feelings... http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75553-feelings-feelings.html Sat, 04 Sep 2010 06:44:02 GMT currently it is 2:30ish in Friday night/ Saturday morning. Baby woke up around 1:30 and i fed him. after put him back to sleep now i am hungry... I actually slept since 8pm as i had only 3 hrs sleep night before. Baby is taking some time to adjust this breastfeeding schedule switch, due to me... currently it is 2:30ish in Friday night/ Saturday morning. Baby woke up around 1:30 and i fed him. after put him back to sleep now i am hungry...

I actually slept since 8pm as i had only 3 hrs sleep night before. Baby is taking some time to adjust this breastfeeding schedule switch, due to me going back to work. So i have been not sleeping much ( not to mention it used to be only 4 to 5 hrs daily for sleep)

anyhow, DH let me sleep and baby has been sleep since 8:30pm too.

This reminds me when i first came home with baby. I was stationaly to the couch and set his bassinet next to the couch. I woke up to any nosie he made.

probably because i am wearing the same pajama tonight. the one my friend sent me from Japan, practical pajamas to nurse and very confy. It is a very chilly night and i needed pajamas instead of my nursing tanks and short pants.

Just a thought of how far my baby and us came along this few month, making me tearly:) ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75553-feelings-feelings.html A year ago today http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75549-year-ago-today.html Fri, 03 Sep 2010 03:48:42 GMT i was finishing up my last pill of clomid 50mg. I was one of the lucky one who got pregnant for first cycle of our clomid/iui combo. I remember thinking "nah, it's the first one, it wouldn't work".

Truth is, i was afraid of the dissapointment i would face if i tought the cycle would work. I know, i am such a wuss.

Now we have this beautiful creature, currently sleeping soundly in his crib.

Life is beautiful. truly. i won't lie that there is a day i want to say "someone help me!" when he won't stop crying or won't go sleep. But his smell, smile and existance is so precious i won't change a thing for anything. ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75549-year-ago-today.html as the first week of work went by http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75509-first-week-work-went.html Sun, 22 Aug 2010 15:03:24 GMT Thursday, work was busy and chaotic. I am not used to teach K-8 so it was definately different from High school. They are cute, but i feel that i don't know where to start teaching them! Previous teacher didn't leave me any lesson plan or any syllubi.sigh.
Oh and in the evening, i got a call from the day care provider who stood us out yesterday. She was saying that her car went out and her mother is sick. She apologized for not being there but then she ended the conversation. It is clear that we were not interested in each other at all.

Friday, the work was aweful. Kids acted out and i struggle to deal with these kids. I wonder if i last a whole year..... I went to stop by some teacher supply shop to get stuff for the classroom, so i came home late. then i found my DH and baby sitting in the front porch, DH was just talking whatever to the baby. It was super cute....

baby is getting better at hand control.. He still cannot suck his thumbs but is able to bring both fists near the mouth. showing more emotions and loves to coo. Now he loves to watch his own shadow moves and stare at the ceiling fans.

sooo here his random moments captured in my cell phone ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75509-first-week-work-went.html Life goes on without baby too http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75499-life-goes-without-baby-too.html Thu, 19 Aug 2010 03:55:53 GMT so i started my new job on Monday. I confess, i cried a bit at night on dh's shoulder. Baby had a good day with DH. He was stuffed up on Sunday and unloaded them on DH's lap (lol). Im not sure that's the reason or not, but he slept 6 hrs strech for the first time. It was great. Both of us got more rest.

Tuesday was ok. i was in meeting all day and missing baby a lot. Whatever i was doing, i thought of him and had DH to text me his picture. There he was, being himself but looked different when i am away. Oh also, we visited a potential daycare provider but she wasn't home. didn't answer the phone. Ok. she is out. I don't like this. If something came up, she can call us and don't want to trust her with my son after being stood out.

Today, i had a first day with students. It was busy and chaotic as every year. Came home, didn't get much done for work but held the baby and nursed him as he asked for. After long discussion with DH, we decided to use IUD for birth control. I had a DR's appt to put mirena on myself today. It was painless and hope this works for us. I do want one more child but it is too soon if i get pregnant now.
Baby was having a clingy day. He wanted to be held a lot. So we replied to his request. DH was doing it for all day so i took over. He was sooo sweet. Millions things to do for work but again, baby beats them all.
He looked totally growing and i felt i missed out so much just for 3 days being at work. I had to tell myself,,, at least DH is watching him and baby is in good hand...

well it's already midnight and got to go bed. Baby wakes me up around 5ish anyways... ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75499-life-goes-without-baby-too.html 1st day back at work http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75488-1st-day-back-work.html Tue, 17 Aug 2010 03:13:15 GMT it was rough... baby got up at 5:10am, earlier than usual. I fed him and pumped before going to work. Work was not that bad, was in the meeting all day long. Looks like i can only pump once during the lunch break. My DH texted me with pics few times to tell me the baby was doing fine. Actually he... it was rough... baby got up at 5:10am, earlier than usual. I fed him and pumped before going to work. Work was not that bad, was in the meeting all day long. Looks like i can only pump once during the lunch break. My DH texted me with pics few times to tell me the baby was doing fine. Actually he had a super day. When i called before i leave work, DH is like [ahhhh! He just had an explosion of poop ! lol
so i hurried home and helped to clean the mess while DH bathed baby. baby has been stuffed up over the weekend some reason and it all exploded in my hubby's lap. poor guy. It was a mess. really..

then i had to go to store for my classroom and found out the store has moved without telling me.. sigh... i would have spend more time with baby if i knew...

came home, fed and hang out with baby for 2 hours then it was time for baby to settle down...

it was too short... i suddenly feel that i have so much distance with my baby....
Hate my life now:( ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75488-1st-day-back-work.html a moment that I know i would miss http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75477-moment-i-know-i-would-miss.html Sat, 14 Aug 2010 14:48:26 GMT Baby slept 5 and half hour straight last night. He woke up with good mood with lots of smile, and we played for while. I talked to him and he'd coo and move his arms and legs a lot. He usually naps after being up for 2 hours or so but this morning he was up for good 4 hrs.

He is finally sleep on maya wrap and look soooo peacefull...

Please, someone stp the clock... ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75477-moment-i-know-i-would-miss.html Not so fast,,, please http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75473-not-so-fast-please.html Fri, 13 Aug 2010 23:47:51 GMT Finally, my work situation worked out and i am starting new work on coming Monday. this means i will be away from my baby 8 hrs day at least and i have tons of preparations to do for work. On top of that, we need to find a daycare.... anyway, my baby had a two month check up. He is acutally 11... Finally, my work situation worked out and i am starting new work on coming Monday. this means i will be away from my baby 8 hrs day at least and i have tons of preparations to do for work. On top of that, we need to find a daycare....

anyway, my baby had a two month check up.
He is acutally 11 week old but we didn't get to the Dr on time around 2 months.

He is 14lbs 8.5ounce, 24inches. 92% of growth chart!

He is now able to
-put his fingers and hands in his mouth
-touch and mess with his own toes and feet
-roll to the one side
-smile a lot
-smile at own reflection in mirror
-make differnt tone of cooling
-sleep 4 hours straight at night

he changes every min i see him. Even crying is changing..

He has been super cute for being super clingy last two days because he had 4 shots at Dr's.

I seriously wish time would stop. I want a power to stop a clock so that i can stare at my miracle forever and ever. ]]> Mrs A http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/mrs-a/75473-not-so-fast-please.html