morynn

It is time for some personal accountability. I'm fat...no ones fault but my own, really. As of last Wednesday, I have had enough and there are no more excuses for me. The loss of my Mom was over 2 yrs ago...no longer an excuse! My ankle surgery was 2 years ago in September...no longer an excuse! I quit smoking 1 year ago October 5th...no longer an excuse!

Reasons for losing weight...Me, myself and I! I have to do it for me, first and foremost. I don't like the person I have become. I can't continue on this path of self destruction. Second reason is for my children. As I said before, I have to do it for me first but for them it is so that I am here for them as they grow up. I want to be the parent that plays volleyball or soccer or football with my kids. I want to be the parent that swims or wrestles with my kids. I want to be a role model for my kids. I want my kids to learn how to be healthy. The third reason is for my husband. Again, me first, kids second, DH deserves to have somebody that cares about herself. I want to be someone DH is proud to have beside him in public. I want to be someone who DH looks forward to seeing every day. I don't like the way I look now. DH can't convince me that he likes it either. He says he sees me as beautiful no matter what, but I just can't get past myself anymore. I want to have pictures of me with my kids and DH and say that is a good picture. Right now, I can't get past the whale staring back at me!

So, on August 6th, I took the plunge and joined WW online. I have to say in my first week, I think I did pretty well. I have to get my body used to the amount of food it NEEDS vs. the amount of food it is USED TO. I have more energy already. I haven't eaten anything fried in the past week. I have enjoyed the food I have eaten. I haven't missed any food yet...mainly because I can eat what I want. I just have to keep my portions in check and really think about what I cook with. No butter is no problem. No fat is proving to be a little more difficult because I like the way fat full things (like mayo) tastes. Baby steps...going light first! Totally dealable.

Now...drumroll....today was my first weigh-in (at home of course cause I am doing online) and I am down 4 pounds! YAY!!! I haven't seen my scale do that in the last year! Woohoo! I know it sounds like nothing, but to someone who needs to lose 73 more...it is HUGE! I have to celebrate the small victories or I won't be celebrating anything for quite a while!