06-05-2006 - 08:01 am
by, 06-05-2006 at 06:01 AM (284 Views)
I'm already starting to feel very defensive about people thinking I'm a "new mom" when our daughter gets home. I am not a new mom, I'm just not lucky enough to have had the opportunity to have sleepless nights and a crying baby and everything that goes along with that "new mom" territory. I should have experienced all those firsts already...they should have been with Cole. I've just been so angry and sorry for myself. I have a hard time touching or looking at baby things in public because I'm sure someone's going to think I'm pg (which is ridiculous, since I don't look pg at all) and start asking questions like "is this your first child". When I have been asked if I have children, I answer that I have no living children, or I have a son who died. I'm just being paranoid, but I'm so worried that people are going to treat me like I'm an idiot in that "cute, oh, she's just a new mom...she'll learn...chuckle, chuckle". I want to prove that I am NOT a new mom...I hope I can do this.