I Hate This!!!
by, 01-05-2009 at 06:32 PM (183 Views)
What I didn't blog from last night was a second phone call from Lauren stating that Carson's CBC and CRP all came back normal - so no new infection. This morning's belly film wasn't much better so the GI workup will be tomorrow or Wednesday at the absolute latest. I'm still freaking out about him facing surgery. He's just too little. He's so perfect - so perfect - you just wouldn't think anything would be wrong with him.
The doctor on rounds this morning - who I really like - said that he thought Carson's outcome based on his labs would be very good. That he has a lot of sick babies on his plate, and Carson (& Aiden) are nowhere near classified the same. He thinks if Carson does need surgery, that he'll have no problems with it and that he's absolutely stable enough to handle it. I'm so scared for my boy.
Tonight he was getting a central PICC line - the one he's had thus far has been peripheral. I'm crying thinking of him crying to get the line. I know how hard it was for him last time. They say they needed to get it in better because 'he'll be on IV fluids for a while'.
As for Aiden - he did start feeds today. 2 cc's every 3 hours. When I last called his nurse, he had spit up his 3:00 feed at 5:00. . . . . . . Please, I swear I can't handle this with both of them!!! It's hard enough handling it at all - I just can't do it times two! Aiden's PA today made the age-old comment to me that "God wouldn't give us more than we can handle." And I gave her the age-old reply of "I wish he didn't trust me so much." She told me I must be stronger than I thought. I guess she doesn't know me very well.
I did get one bit of good news today - Aiden's nasal canula is now gone! That was a very good thing.