http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/ Infertility and Adoption online interactive support community for your family-building efforts. Information and discussion includes infertility, adoption, pregnancy, parenting and surrogacy issues. en Wed, 19 Jun 2013 08:18:17 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/ http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/60549-gosh-has-been-awhile.html Sat, 10 Dec 2005 23:49:40 GMT Sometimes I have so much to say sometimes I don't even remember to update this.
My baby is going to be 1 in 3 weeks. The other day I was laying in bed with her and thinking this day last year I was praying I would have her before Christmas that she would be the best present ever! Today I sit with her thrilled that she came on her due date...the way it was suppose to be.
She is walking saying momma, dada, she even said bye bye to her daddy. The best is grandma she kinda growls that one it is so cute. I am working on sissy for her sisters learning both names I think will be to hard.

Than we have my mom she has been in menopause for 11 years and last week she started bleeding really bad. We are so different medically if I have a pain I call the dr. I don't want them to do anything but I just want to go to one I mean I don't want any needles or shots. So my mom tell me about this and I am freaking out. I tell her let me call my dr she said I just had a physical last month it was fine I said mom they didn't do anything down below they just did a mamogram and blood work. Her pap was about 3 months ago after not going for like 20 years!!!!!

So the receptionist when I called last week is like we can see her on the 29th...I said hello she is bleeding it isn't like she has a normal period she said well if your mom is hemorraging bring her to the ER I said no it is just odd she is bleeding isn't it? Than thank God my mom said ask if I can take Tylenol so she said Oh I don't know let me get a nurse. I get a nurse tell her what is going on she says what the 29th no your mom needs to be seen asap so they got her in 3 days later. I didn't want to scare her so I told her they would just send her for a u/s. Well she comes out and says they did a biopsy of her uterus! She said he had a problem reaching it and it hurt really bad. I tried not to scare her but she said he was making it out like something was blocking it and that was the problem. Than he told her well you are older and sometimes things shut up LOL so that is why it was so hard to reach her uterus. So she is waiting to hear back what they have to say. I am trying to not be scared but I know in her heart she is scared she hasn't said much about it but when she says she is tired or something I worry about that.
The scary thing is heaven forbid that something is wrong and she needs surgery she said when I was having cervical issues and thinking of Gastric Bypass she doesn't trust the drs. in this area so she would want to go back to her home in NJ and have them do it. I would hate to be away from her while she was recoving. So I pray it is just a fluke and that she is ok.

Mya has some type of flu or bug and is throwing up has been since yesterday.
Mikayla is sniffly and I worry about the cold that is coming on with her.
So all in all not a healthy family here. My sinus infection is killing me but I don't want to take anything because of BF.

FUN FUN stuff here.
NOT! ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/60549-gosh-has-been-awhile.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/61734-shes-walking.html Sat, 19 Nov 2005 18:12:52 GMT Erika has started walking in the past week but today she is just all over. She has such a look of excitement in her eyes. She is thrilled with it! She is thrilled with herself! The girls keep yelling she is walking mommy and of course they fight over who saw her first. I swear Erika is trying to... Erika has started walking in the past week but today she is just all over. She has such a look of excitement in her eyes. She is thrilled with it! She is thrilled with herself!
The girls keep yelling she is walking mommy and of course they fight over who saw her first. I swear Erika is trying to walk away from those 2 fighting.
Erika is still so tiny not even 20 lbs. But she is walking right along.
She is my living doll!
Michelle ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/61734-shes-walking.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/61735-bunco-anyone.html Sat, 19 Nov 2005 18:11:20 GMT So my moms group has Mother's Night Out, Bunco Night, Game Night, and Movie Night. They are quite an active group for moms and than every day of the week they have a kid and mom or dad planned event. So I normally go to the Bunco games and last night I was so tired didn't want to go but something said go. So I went and had so much fun met 12 new women and laughed, drank some, and had a good time.
Has anyone heard of Bunco? I guess here in VA it isn't really heard of as we had tons of new ladies who needed lessons. I got mine at the last bunco game but it is such a fun fast paced game.
I am joining a card game group just 4 ladies playing cards once a week in the afternoon and that should be a fun girls time.
I find that when I go out more and keep myself laughing I feel better and the darkness just doesn't seem so dark anymore.
Although one mom did ask my race...she is a childs mom from my DD's preschool so we talk all the time. Having to tell her my mom was raped and I was the product of it kinda brought me down for a bit but I just snapped out of it thinking about another mixed drink LOL!
Who knew a group of 30 something moms could be so much fun. The woman who had it goes away for girls weekends that is what I am talking about...I can't imagine my DH agreeing to that. It is just nice to be with your girls for awhile and have a good time...so I would imagine it hasn't happened here yet!
M ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/61735-bunco-anyone.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/62120-why-cant-i-ever-happy.html Sun, 13 Nov 2005 21:25:18 GMT My friends came down this weekend from NJ and we had a nice weekend. They are all single (1 got married in Sept.) and they wear designer clothes, have facials, pedicures, eyebrows waxed everything must be perfect. So we are having a girls night in watching what not to wear. My one friend who is 30... My friends came down this weekend from NJ and we had a nice weekend. They are all single (1 got married in Sept.) and they wear designer clothes, have facials, pedicures, eyebrows waxed everything must be perfect. So we are having a girls night in watching what not to wear. My one friend who is 30 living home working as a director of a prestigious company for children earning probably more than me and DH together is cracking on these people on the show. I am saying to myself as I am trying to get further away from her Gosh what must she think of me. The next day I get the courage to say what do you think of my eyebrows she says oh yes Michelle you need to get those virgin brows done. Seriously it won't hurt and you need to do something for yourself it really will make a difference with your face. UGHHH I felt so bad.
I told 2 of the girls ya know we are so different I shop in target my shoes don't cost 200.00 like the ones they are wearing I shop at payless buy one get one 1/2 off sale. It just felt so different. I wish they could have kids like me and have a husband. I wish they would know the struggles a couple has and how much fun kids are and how much work. But they are all still single but the married one and one that is dating a guy but not sure if he is the one.
I wonder how did we even remain friends all of these years. Do I regret having them for friends? NO WAY! They are the best I just feel we are at different spots in our lives and I wonder if we will ever be on the same page again ever.
Do I have faith that MM will take off with Elizabeth? Yes I think that we will carve out very nice lives for our families and our recruits. Do I think that money will make me feel on more of an even ground with my friends? Maybe so. They get together and go to Jamaica, Cancun, and Hawaii they were even working on a list of things to do while they were here with me. I wasn't included in any of the items on the list and I told them the one thing I told them about they had to wait for me to come north do to that with me.
Why do I care what these people think of me? Why can't I be happy in my own skin? Why can't I laugh and smile the way that I used to?
I used to be the happiest girl in the world. Somehow someway that spark has left and I want to find it again. I want to love myself and love the woman I have become.
Do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and wish you were looking at someone elses reflection? Do you ever not want to get out of bed and just wish the day would go away? Sometimes my only joy is my children...it is sad when you are happy you get to go out to the grocery store. My DH isn't the same man I was dating we don't laugh together we barely speak and it isn't that we are fighting he is just a quiet guy. I hate to say it but I think he might be extinguisihing my flame. That spark is getting smaller\ and smaller and the darkness is setting in again.
When I was dx with PPD after Erika I took the meds for a bit but than I just started to feel better. I can hear that Gloria Estefan song coming out of the dark I finally see the light again....That is what it felt like and I feel the darkness coming over again. But why am I so sad when I have 3 of the best little girls in the world. My mom is the best she is here with us helping us with the girls, and financially. Erik is a great husband he lets me do what I want even quit work when we could not afford it but he just doesn't talk.
Fast forward 25 years the kids are grown and out of the house what will I do than? I will have no one to talk to as my husband will probably have nothing to talk to me about. That is my biggest fear.
Yet in the back of my mind I have this nagging little voice telling me...it will be ok someday everything is going to be ok and that I need to get over this dark period and life is going to be nothing but sunshine again. ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/62120-why-cant-i-ever-happy.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/62331-am-i-bad-wife.html Thu, 10 Nov 2005 03:54:35 GMT DH was offered a high school coaching job it is M-F 4-6 and Sat 1-3 plus 2 games a week and it is a far away school so he would not be home until 730 - 800 on weeknights. On top of that he would not be able to work his scheduled day off...they always let him work and it brings in another 500 a pay... DH was offered a high school coaching job it is M-F 4-6 and Sat 1-3 plus 2 games a week and it is a far away school so he would not be home until 730 - 800 on weeknights. On top of that he would not be able to work his scheduled day off...they always let him work and it brings in another 500 a pay period if he works both days he is scheduled off. Granted it means he works 6 days a week but he loves his job so he is ok with that.
But he got this high school offer...a stepping stone on his way to college level coaching his dream. I told him to say no. We want to move to NC well I am 100% that I want to move to NC. That would be in a few months. June/July. Well he already is coaching a county team and he would leave them with the asst. to take over. Oh and the salary is only 1100 than after taxes around 800 take home that is for the whole season. I told him to skip it he can find a job in NC coaching a high school. He tried to turn the Athletic Director down 2x today they will not take no. They keep telling him that they will work something out with the scheduling.
Mikayla finished Tball and Soccer it is all over and I am so happy. I can't wait for ice skating and for the dance to really get going. She is in dance and Gymnastics with Mya still but they are in the beginning stages I can't wait for the routines. They have begun to do little dances and tonight Mya even did the bootie bounce! Too cute!
Erika has started to take steps. She is eating like a champ and she even took a few sips from her sippy cup maybe sooner rather than later we will get her off the breast and onto a cup!
Michelle ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/62331-am-i-bad-wife.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/62940-weekend-recap.html Mon, 31 Oct 2005 04:08:35 GMT Well this weekend was not so shabby if I say so myself. On Saturday we went to a fall festival. We had fun I was so mad I was trying to take pics of the girls all around the pumkins and haystacks. Well one or the other would do something so I was taking single shots. I went to take one of them... Well this weekend was not so shabby if I say so myself. On Saturday we went to a fall festival. We had fun I was so mad I was trying to take pics of the girls all around the pumkins and haystacks. Well one or the other would do something so I was taking single shots. I went to take one of them together finally and WHAM the battery died. What is up with batteries on digital cameras?
We came home and I carved my first pumpkin. I see why my mom never did that and let me paint them. It wasn't easy and those little kits are a joke my knives were bending left and right. We did a funky face I will post a pic tomorrow.
I was able to convince DH to move the living room sofa we purchased a huge sectional over the summer it is very nice but my gosh it is so big. So we finally moved it found all of Erika's pacifiers we have been looking for under it. The girls love the way the room is set up it makes it look so much bigger. Mikayla even told us I like it better this way I didn't like it the other way.
Today Erik watched football while I organized the living room again and wouldn't ya know it I took apart the computer to rearrange the living room and did something to the DSL line....My heart is breaking with the **** dial up. I can't believe I actually used dial up for so long. The phone company is sending someone out they said that we have a bad connection.
Mya and Mikayla were very good this weekend. The time change didn't really effect them. Erika well that kid has no schedule yet only that she wants to be attached to me all the time.
Tomorrow is the fall Festival at Mya's school they are not allowed to wear costumes this year I am so sad instead they are having a theater production come to the school and they are acting out Snow White and the 7 Drawfs.
Well it is late I need to go to bed. Happy Halloween hope everyone stays safe!
Michelle ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/62940-weekend-recap.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63286-why-am-i-addicted-tupperware.html Wed, 26 Oct 2005 02:47:16 GMT So I have been addicted to Tupperware for some time. I decided to sign up because they have a 15 sign up and than I will get my discount and I can take part in 50% sales for consultants. My husband thinks I am nuts, how will I have time to sell...I said sweety don't worry I am only going to purchase for the discount...so great he says so you are going to spend our money that you are suppose to be earning from parties? LOL
I always laugh when I think of Doodles post about ghetto tupperware...I never knew what that was until she told us! :tongue:
Maddy Moo is getting off the ground so that is good. I am very excited to be working with Elizabeth and I think it is going to go great. Tupperware well I need to spend 250.00 every 3 months to get my discount so I will be shopping tons LOL! My pantry is going to be so organized I can't wait!
Ok I am running off to bed to dream of my wonderful pantry NOT! It is freezing here so I am going to try to sleep but we need new **** windows so I am going to have to fight with our slumlord for some new windows. God I hate renting...when am I going to be able to buy a house...oh speaking of houses Martha Stewart is building houses with KB Homes in Cary where we want to move. I went and checked them out no floor plans yet but the houses are cute. Of course again Erik thinks I am crazy but a girl can dream right...imagine living in a house that Martha helped design....that would be perfection! Maybe I can get her to give me a new house for a ratings sweep? Again a girl can dream...ok off to bed.
Oh I think I might be pregnant! :confused: ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63286-why-am-i-addicted-tupperware.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63429-3am-cant-sleep.html Sun, 23 Oct 2005 06:49:18 GMT I have been online all night doing work for my job and than just surfing the net. Why can't I sleep? Everyone here is in bed, Mikayla even came into our bed so I told DH me and the baby would sleep downstairs...all because I wanted to stay online and research some stuff. This is crazy! So here I am.
Erika was a nightmare tonight getting her to sleep. We are going to have the new sitter his sister come over tomorrow so she can get used to our pampered Princess. This girl just likes to be held. It is like that commercial with the mom every time she went to put the baby down he would scream that is her.
Mya was upset tonight and wanted me to carry her to bed. She is going to be 4 she needs to walk to bed. I just had surgery for a hernia a month ago I don't need to get another!
I made out my Christmas list tonight. Does anyone else do that for DH? I want him to get me things I really want and like. With me going back to work we should have a great christmas this year. We are hit and miss some years we go all out for each other the last few years we haven't really but this year I want to. He deserves it and he wants some things too I saw his list! LOL
Oh well I am starting to get sleepy. Let me see if anyone else is around and than I will probably go to bed. ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63429-3am-cant-sleep.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63454-day-do-nothing.html Sat, 22 Oct 2005 18:41:53 GMT I woke up this morning praying it was raining. Mikayla had a soccer game at 9am than tball at 1pm I just didn't want to go. I didn't get snacks last night so I would have had to go to the store this am before the game and get snacks. I was snack mom for both teams today so double the snacks would be needed. They are suppose to be healthy my DH said what are you getting I said well what about little bottles of pepsi and m&m bags do you think the parents would hate me LOL.
Well as luck would have it I heard the rain pounding against the window and I got to sleep in well kinda sitting up watching tv between cat naps watched all of Grey's Anatomy this season finally had time to watch it thanks to Tivo. Than I did my LA mailing and got that all out and taken care of. I went to Starbucks alone and had some coffee Thank God my mom was home. Than I went back home found the house a mess still Thought the Clean Fairy would come and visit while I was out and I sit here on my computer and still have tons of cleaning to do. I have friends coming to visit in November and I want to make new curtains for all the windows and pain the bottom 2 levels of the house before they come. Yea I have tons to do why am I here on FT blogging?
Oh well off to try to get something done.
Michelle ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63454-day-do-nothing.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63487-well-i-finally-went-dr.html Fri, 21 Oct 2005 18:25:49 GMT It is allergies she said. I am going to stop bf Erika and get her used to a bottle. With me going back to work anyway it will be better for both of us to get her used to a sippy cup actually instead of a bottle the ped said and than I won't have to lug the PIS around and we will both be happy. A Happy Mom makes a Happy Baby.
She gave me 3 presciptions and also a referral to a nutritionist. I am going to have the lap band surgery for weight loss. I can't wait until it is all complete and I can get a scheduled date. I am so overweight it making me miserable. I was about to walk into WW after my dr appt. They are next to each other but I had to go to get my mom from work. So no WW today but I will sign up. They want me to lose some weight before the surgery I hear this is common.
So this will not happen for some time I need to be with the nutritionist for 6 months first so that is just starting. I am hoping by next summer to be banded.
Ok gotta run Baby is crying!
Michelle ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63487-well-i-finally-went-dr.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63674-going-back-work-full-time.html Tue, 18 Oct 2005 15:10:17 GMT Well I was fine after the births of my 2 older DD's but after Erika I got severe PPD and I was just so mean and so sad. Finally it passed and I have bouts of depression from various times in my life that I can remember but this was so bad! Anyway I think it was because I was home from work I quit work to be a SAHM and found out I was pregnant 1 month later. I had the baby I missed my co-workers I missed having my own money to spend when I wanted and not answering to anyone. Well my boss has been asking me if I wanted to come back I go in for about 15 hours a week as it is. Just to get out of the house he is a great boss. Well my DH's sister is taking a year off from Grad School so we asked her to be our nanny and I can go back to work full time. I think this will help for our mortgage even more money for a down payment, and than for me just to be out of the house I find I spend way to much time on the net, my house isn't any cleaner and I do have fun with the girls but with my schedule I will be home by 430 and Mya goes to school until 12 Mikayla until 310 and I will be able to drop them off in the am so I feel I won't be missing much and they love Tierra and she is so great with kids. She wanted to be a Ped. but got in college and has decided to be a college professor. So I need to see if she accepts the offer. We will pay her 1200 a month and she only has to work 25 hours a week the rest of the time my DH or my mom will be here. My DH has off on Tues if he wants because he is a mailman and he gets Sun and Tues off. Let's hope she does it....Momma wants to go shopping and buy some more Maddy Moo Items! LOL ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63674-going-back-work-full-time.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63754-crazy-man-store-today.html Sun, 16 Oct 2005 21:22:27 GMT Today was a pretty good day we got up had some snuggle time with 2 of the kids in bed this morning. Mya snuck downstairs to my moms room and slept in with her. Than DH made breakfast and we went to Mikayla's tee ball game. She did great and she had so much fun as usual. Her aunts and some of her aunts friends came to the game and she loved that.
Than we came home and got a food shopping list together. We walk in and go to the deli counter this older man is getting some meat. He seems nice I suppose than Erik goes to leave and I wait for my turn he is taking the girls. They are walking slowly behind him and he turns the corner and the girls are still on our side of the aisle. The older man says you better watch that one....WTF I am thinking...He says you better watch her do you understand me do you speak English? I Say yes I do speak English and I understand you. He says lots of crazies here anyone could snatch them up. I get the girls and hold onto them tightly. Have you ever gotten one of those feelings that told you this wasn't right? So I am wondering do I leave or kick his a$$? So I go to leave and he sees Mikayla he was talking about Mya and he sees Mikayla is a girl she was in her tee ball uniform hat pulled down real far. He says oh another little girl you better watch her she is just as beautiful. So quickly I get the girls I go find Erik tell him what happened and he is ready to go beat the guy up. He wasn't saying it in a nice way this old man he was saying it and I got the feeling he was doing everything he could to keep from running away with my girls. We have tons of sexual offenders in our zip code about 100-200 it is so sad. In our other grocery store one of the guys works as a bagger well he did we haven't seen him in awhile. He actually used to talk to the girls I though the was a nice grandpa type than I did a search and saw his pic. Well one day he too told my husband you better watch out for those girls....what is it a line they use????
So we put the 2 youngest in the carraige and walked with M and she always had to have one of our hands. I was so freaked out by this man. Something just wasn't right.
M ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63754-crazy-man-store-today.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63815-why-am-i-so-scared-go-dr.html Sat, 15 Oct 2005 03:08:22 GMT I have been having this pain in the back of my head for some time. The other day I lost my hearing on and off for a bit in the evening in my right ear. I get dizzy spells where I think I am going to go down it is that bad. I have had problems swallowing I felt like I had a lump in my throat so I... I have been having this pain in the back of my head for some time. The other day I lost my hearing on and off for a bit in the evening in my right ear. I get dizzy spells where I think I am going to go down it is that bad. I have had problems swallowing I felt like I had a lump in my throat so I did work up the nerve to go to the dr. a ENT dr. and he said I have reflux and allergies. I thought I had a sinus infection that is what is causing my head problems but it is in the back of my head not the front by my sinuses. But it is near my ears and that could be causing my dizziness. But I have a co worker who lost her husband 2 years ago at 28 to brain cancer. They never had a clue he got a bad headache he said get me some pain killers he had a seizure while she was gone he never came back home to his home again. He was in the hospital for 4 months and finally died in the hospital so suddenly leaving behind 3 little kids. I keep telling myself that I need to go that I have 3 little ones I need to be around for. I had issues with bad cells on my cervix when I was pregnant with Mya. I had a leep surgery to get them removed and it came back clear. I need to go for another pap I cancelled my appt 2 weeks ago out of fear. I had surgery on 9-7 for a hernia and I still have pain in my lower left side that has started about 2 days ago getting stronger. I think it might be AF coming back after all DD is 9m so it might be ovulation if I do it on my own but not sure. I told myself I would call the drs. today from work but I didn't go in. My moms house flooded in NJ and she was a wreck so I stayed home with her today to keep her mind off of it.
Than of course the anxiety issues and depression. How on earth do you find a good therapist? I have spoken to a few on the phone and just didn't like them over the phone. It is taking over my life I don't go into work on days that I should because I am scared of terrorists hitting the metro trains. I jump off the train in fear I would say at least 2 days out of the week that I go in. I see someone that looks a bit suspicious or just get a bad feeling. It doesn't help that I go under the Pentagon on the train and worry they would want to attack the Pentagon again. I am so fearful of doing things that it is taking over my life. I am scared to go outside because of snakes in our area...seems people are finding them all over, I am worried about the metro trains for terrorists...won't go to NJ alone because I can't drive over the Delaware bridge without having a panic attack. To go over it with someone I need to close my eyes and go to a happy place within me...normally I think of my wedding or the kids birth. But all the while I am basically shaking in my seat. I have been getting scared driving lately if I have a dizzy spell or feel like I am having an attack that I could hurt others and my kids. I find ways to stop from driving and make DH or my mom drive when we go out. I need to get to a dr. I am not crazy but I see where things went wrong. On 9-11 I got a call from an agent they were shutting down the tours in our building because the Pentagon was hit. I should have never looked out my office building. Seeing that building smoking sent me over the edge. Than watching the news 24/7 for 3 days my DH told me I had to turn it off. I was not sleeping and when I did sleep I would have nightmares. Than when they were flying the fighter jets over the area and I would hear them I would freak out thinking it was an attack again. I am allowing the anxiety to take over my life and I shouldn't let that happen. I know I need help and I have not told any of my friends about this. They will think I am nuts. Why are my friends all still single, no kids, and they don't seem to be rushing anything! I feel like things like this I can't share with them but I should. When my BF found out about my depression she was a tremendous support. They are all coming in November and I am sure it is to see how I am doing so that should be interesting. I am going to say it and hopefully that will make me stick to it I am going to call the drs. on Monday and get appts for everything.
M ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63815-why-am-i-so-scared-go-dr.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63896-so-much-do-so-little-time.html Thu, 13 Oct 2005 18:04:35 GMT I am trying to get an account set up with Maddy Moo. This has been going on since July....why do companies not call back follow up or even send a letter. Just tell me what is going on! This is turning into a night mare trying to get this account. Than this morning I almost overslept it is rainy... I am trying to get an account set up with Maddy Moo. This has been going on since July....why do companies not call back follow up or even send a letter. Just tell me what is going on! This is turning into a night mare trying to get this account.
Than this morning I almost overslept it is rainy here so the sun never peaked out until later so I quick got up didn't have time for my normal routine to take a shower get myself ready for the day than the kids. So I got the kids ready of course had a fight with Mikayla about her shoes why on earth does this kid need her shoes tight as can be? I swear it is cutting off the circulation. I had some time on my hands so I drove around the neighborhood before I could drop off Mya at preschool and me and my mom who came for the ride looked at dream homes we would buy if we got rich. That was fun and I realized I really don't need that big of a house that we can do with a starter home for our 1st house. Some were really cute. Got to drop Mya off...every day drop Mikayla off at 830 than Mya at 850 so I have 20 min to waste each day...and than home with Erika. My mom went to work and Erika was so much fun she is listening so much better these days. When she was trying to crawl out of the living room I would tell her no and she would crawl back to me. Than a few times she tried to test me I could see it in her face as she smiled at me. It was so cute.
Today is the start of a crazy weekend. On Thur we have dance at 4 gymastics at 5 and than home for dinner and baths and bed. Fri 5 soccer 6 tball and than home for dinner and some family time. Sat games soccer and tball and than we are going to the pumpkin patch to get pumpkins. I can't wait to paint them I saw great pumpkin ideas with glitter on Martha this morning that I might pick up small pumpkins and make glitter ones for the table.
Oh and I have to fold 6 loads of laundry and than do another 3...our washer was broke for about 2 weeks we had tons of laundry to do. UGHHHH
Fun fun NOT!
Michelle ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63896-so-much-do-so-little-time.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63949-feeling-very-torn.html Thu, 13 Oct 2005 00:07:55 GMT My Dh just is in no rush to move I understand his family is here...mine isn't and he never lived in a house until he was a grown man. But doesn't he want more for the kids than living in a townhouse with no yard to run around and play or living in an apartment? Not that it is bad to live like this but we spoke of playsets pools etc in our yard does he just say that to make me happy? I don't want to live in VA. Never wanted to settle here I was on my way to Atlanta when I moved here with my company. Sadly they never went any further south. My DH is an amazing man supporting the family so I don't have to work full time. He coaches basketball and has made a name for himself here locally and he has spoken to people about getting a paid coaching job and I see how he would have to start over in NC but how much will they pay him here 3500 for the year it is a part time job. If he has the resume bring it to NC and get jobs. I don't want to move somewhere around my friends were are moving to his best friends town...should be interesting if we ever make it. But I am unable to get him to say yes or no. I just did a search for 3 bed 1.5 bath homes in Raleigh for 125 or under and 150+ houses came up. Some were really cute. We are just starting out we don't need a mini mansion and the payment was around 800. So that would be better than our 1475 month rent. People tell us we might make less money in NC well my DH is a mailman so he would need to get the right route to make a certain amount of money and I would need to work my a$$ off with Maddy Moo and we could live a nice life. But do I just go along with whatever he has planned and just live here in a townhouse and someday have the house of my dreams. My girls want to move they see me looking at houses and ask is that our new house? When will you find our new house mommy.
If I only had a crystal ball! ]]> MichelleVA http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/michelleva/63949-feeling-very-torn.html