MareRI

dh went to the cemetary yesterday for me, to visit "Baby Bella Boo", as he calls her. i know he isnt thrilled with her name, he was never a huge fan, but i always knew, my girl would be a baby Bella...anyway, he hasnt made any comments about ttc again, but i asked him to take down the crib while we were here and he said he doesnt want to because if it comes down, it probably wont go back up (stripped bolt or something)...i think, its his way of leaving that door open for us...though i dont know...we still have to talk to the dr, and get the amnio and autopsy *i hate that word* results before we make any decisions, but i have been thinking lately...what if this happened again...could i stand it? could i put our families thru this grief again? i am trying not to make any decisions right now, while i am still so raw but i wonder..when will i get over this? ever?