http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/ Infertility and Adoption online interactive support community for your family-building efforts. Information and discussion includes infertility, adoption, pregnancy, parenting and surrogacy issues. en Fri, 24 May 2013 20:40:11 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/ http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/11295-chaos-life.html Tue, 01 Jul 2008 21:14:19 GMT A couple years ago we bought some land out in the country and put a pole barn out there, this was intended to be a kennel so that we could breed our Yorkies. Got a trailer pulled out there and was going to live in that temporarily until we'd paid down the loan for the land and pole barn, etc. Well, didn't work out so well and lots of crap with lying, stealing, coniving contractors working on an addition to the trailer...never did get moved out there as we'd hoped to do. So, we decided a couple months back to just build a little apartment of sorts inside the pole barn...well, we're almost done and I'm so excited. We've got three bedrooms, laundry room, living room, eat in kitchen and of course, bathroom. It's taken a little longer than anticipated but we're nearing the end and hoping to be painting next week! Emma's bmom's boyfriend has done all the construction and we're pleased, minus all the drama that's accompanied everything it's been a pretty good experience. So, out at the land we've got more livable square footage than here....we have a 2000 square foot house but only live downstairs and the kids share a room as the other two are upstairs. Needless to say Emma is extremely excited about having her own, girly room!

Noah had his lovely little trip to the ER but is doing MUCH better and we're almost done with nebs! HALLELUJAH!!! So, now we've done a hearing evaluation which led to a health and deveopment eval, which led to a speech eval and now is leading to a social work/emotional eval. He's talking but not using consanants so we can't understand clearly what he's saying which frustrates him and sends him into hyper screeching, screaming mode. Not very tolerant of high-pitched screaming from a one and a half year old not getting his way, right now! KWIM. I probably sound insensitive but good grief, you wouldn't believe it unless you heard it...it's ear piercing and he only uses it if he's not getting his way and FAST!!!

I'm also planning to switch to the hospital here in town so that I'm not on the road so much and away from the family...the gas is killer, too! $12-15 everytime I go to work...insane! The hospital here in town is 3 minutes away instead of 45, the shift differential is $3.50/hr higher and the weekends are $0.75/hr higher plus the gas savings...will almost make up for the fact that the hospital here in town isn't nearly as nice as the one I'm at now!

Emma is LOVING summer and is a total fish. I can't believe how good she is in the water...she loves swimming and would like to be a mermaid according to her. Noah's going to be a fish, too, he's always trying to imitate Emma and go under water and stuff. Kind of frightening actually! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/11295-chaos-life.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/21428-christmas-photos.html Wed, 28 Nov 2007 10:09:23 GMT Image: http://i196.photobucket.com/albums/aa170/lleva99/0003.jpg Image: http://i196.photobucket.com/albums/aa170/lleva99/0039.jpg Image: http://i196.photobucket.com/albums/aa170/lleva99/0007.jpg Image: http://i196.photobucket.com/albums/aa170/lleva99/0018.jpg Image:...






]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/21428-christmas-photos.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/21977-11-16-2007-04-39-pm.html Fri, 16 Nov 2007 21:39:53 GMT So, things are pretty good around here. Monday is "termination day" and we are completely done with bparents, possible bparents, legal bparents, blah, blah, blah...it's about time! Then we must wait, yet again, 60 days to finalize the adoption. But at least we'll be done with all the worrying that one of them will screw things up with another 30 day wait!

Noah turned one on Tuesday but we're having his party tomorrow night, so it'll be fun! I've got too much to do tomorrow...balloons, cake, presents, etc. So, that's what we've got planned for the weekend. I'm sure some of the in-laws will be hanging around before and after the party so that'll give us more to do.

This past weekend we went to Turkey Run State Park and hiked. My little princess hiked about 2 miles which took over 2 1/2 hours. She's sure a little athlete! She only asked to be carried a 3-4 times in the last hour and it was less than 5 minutes each time. It was beautiful with all the leaves changing colors!

My sucky news...our camcorder has dissappeared into thin air, seriously. It's nowhere to be found; I really could care less about the camcorder itself but I'm pretty sure that it had the tape of picking Noah up at the airport and his first few months at home, he and Emma together, etc. It just makes me sick to my stomach. I'm still praying that it'll turn up!

Well, I've had a few glorious moments to myself and now I should get something done, Noah is napping and Scott took Emma to the office to grab a couple of things! I don't know how long they'll be gone but I'm going to enjoy this while I can! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/21977-11-16-2007-04-39-pm.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/22622-ahhhhh-much-calmer-than-last-entry.html Sun, 04 Nov 2007 11:54:18 GMT So, everything is calm on the homefront. I went to visit "B" on Wednesday and everything is fine. She was feeling really overwhelmed and helpless sitting in jail and was extremely upset by a visit that they'd had. Grandma and Dad had brought baby "D" to visit and he was dressed in a thin, dingy sleeper with a thin blanket and a leaky bottle. No burp rag, no bib. She said that the bottle was leaking all over and he was getting soaked and neither grandma or dad got up to help. Then his little nose was running and grandma used a paper towel to wipe it. On top of that she'd gotten pictures and the baby seemed to always be sleeping on the couch. She asked why they never took pictures of him in his bassinet or crib...oh, they hadn't set them up yet. The baby was sleeping on the couch all the time. So, "B" was stressing and felt that at least if we had him she would be able to rest easy and know that he was fine.

Well, the next visit, which was only a few days before I went, he was dressed in a cute, warm outfit with a big fluffy blanket. Dad brought a bib, burp rag and new bottles. They set up the bassinet and all seems to be going well now. Our visit was really nice, she's such a sweet heart and I can't wait until she gets out and can get on with life.

As far as all the Noah drama, the time ran out for "L" to get the DNA testing that he wrote the courts to request. How's that for idiotic...write a big five-page letter to the courts explaining all the dumb reasons why he should be allowed to get DNA testing after all this time...gets the court order to allow it and never follows through. Good for us, except for this just ate up another 30 days and now there's no way we'll finalize in '07. I'm pretty ticked about that. But, the termination hearing is the 19th and then we should be moving on to the adoption process. We have to wait 60 days from termination to finalize so hopefully mid-January or early February. The sooner the better so that we can file our taxes and get some money back to pay off all these loans! And once we finalize I'll get my $5,000 adoption assistance from my work, that'll make things easier!

Well, this entry is long enough and I really should do at least a little bit of work this morning! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/22622-ahhhhh-much-calmer-than-last-entry.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/22923-will-ever-end.html Mon, 29 Oct 2007 15:05:40 GMT Well, so the drama continues...this time not with Noah, surprise, surprise! I don't know if you remember me talking about this back in April/May. I don't know, way back when...Emma's bmom was pregnant and didn't know what she was going to do. Back in jail on bogus paroll violations and really in a tough spot. She was considering having us adopt the baby but really wasn't sure what the bdad was going to do or say. So, we put our profile on hold and waited on an answer. She finally decided that she was going to keep the baby, that dad was going to be supportive, etc.

So, baby is five weeks old now and guess who got a call from the prison social worker? Yep, you guessed it! "B" wants us to take the baby until she gets out of prison in FEBRUARY...I just don't know what to do. She is really concerned with the care or lack of care, that the baby is getting. Right now the paternal grandmother is primary caregiver while dad works 12-hour days Mon-Sat. He was just released in April/May for his third DUI, he has court-supervised visitation with his two kids from a previous marraige and was just released from a 45-day-stay in jail at the beginning of October for non-payment of child support! So, I don't even know how it would work with the bio dad being there with the baby...how would we be able to take the baby until she gets out? The only thing I can think of is that maybe she's going to make it known to child services that he has the baby and request that we take the baby until she's released. I can't imagine that the social worker would call and request that I come visit so that we can discuss this if it wasn't a real possibility?

So, not too keen on the idea of three kids under three and two under one for that matter. At the same time I feel really selfish for thinking how chaotic and inconvenient it would be for me, considering what she's done for us. Her love for Emma and her unselfish decision to do what was best for her is the greatest gift that we could have ever received. Isn't this the least we can do, ease her mind knowing that the sweet little guy is well taken care of while she finishes up her time? At the same time, what if she ends up leaving him with us? We'd decided that we were done with two kids! Uuuugh...what to do? I'm going to the prison on Wednesday to talk to her and get the full scoop so I'll know more then.

On a very happy note...the drama of parental rights will be over on Friday of this week and that is something to shout about for sure! Finally on to the adoption process!!! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/22923-will-ever-end.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/23280-ohhh-im-so-tired-all.html Mon, 22 Oct 2007 09:20:35 GMT So, life is good...kids are doing well, although they have way too much energy! Emma's in pre-school one day a week and we're looking into getting her in a few more days a week...she really seems to enjoy it! Noah is busy, busy, busy...crawling, pulling himself up, cruising! I can't keep up!

As far as all the legal mumbo, jumbo...bmom didn't even contest the termination! That was wonderful news but what really infuriated me was that the lawyer (D) didn't even call to let us know one way or another and it was a Friday. So, on Monday I call and can't get in touch with anyone...I left a message. Then a few minutes later (K) our original lawyer and D's sister calls. She wants to know if we're interested in a newborn..biracial baby boy, healthy, both parents are ready to sign, mom has private insurance and baby is on the medical card. I would've jumped at it if we were in any other situation but with all the chaos and all the bills...

And to top it off she tells me that the possible bdad is now requesting DNA testing after all this time...claims that bmom had no idea until way after the 30 days (putative fathers registry) that he might be the bdad. Give me a break, I mean, we know she's a druggie but you've gotta know that if you've slept with him that he could be the father. Grandma has tried over and over to get him to do a DNA test and he refused. Plus, many times he's told grandma that the timing doesn't line up and there's no way he could be his father. So, anyway, we're waiting out 30 days that he has to schedule the DNA testing, that's up Nov. 1st. Keep in mind that this is the guy who admittedly left him in an apartment in the slums for up to 4 hours at a time, has criminal charges hanging over his head for drug trafficing...the list goes on and on. So we're not too concerned. Then bmom's termination date is November 19th, so that's exciting!!!

So, we're hoping that sometime around the new year we'll be finalized and be able to start paying off some of these bills! Good grief! The drama is just amazing! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/23280-ohhh-im-so-tired-all.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/26081-chaos-glorious-chaos.html Fri, 07 Sep 2007 09:30:47 GMT This week has definately been one of the more chaotic weeks as of yet. We had Emma's 3rd b-day party on Labor Day so that everyone could be there. It was a ton of fun and looked more like Christmas than a birthday. She had about 25-30 people there and tons of food! We had a cookout and of course, cake and ice cream. I'm not a huge character person, don't like characters on clothes, etc. Her first b-day it was butterflies and bugs, then last year it was simply pink,brown and mint green, this year I asked her what she wanted on her cake...."I want packpack!" So, "packpack" it was...she had one cake that was Dora and the other said Happy 3rd Birthday, Emma and had backpack on it. They were both super cute and delicious! She got so many toys that I can't even begin to remember them all. Noah got a few things, too, so that was fun!

So, the party was Monday. I worked from 11pm-7:30am and got home from work Tuesday am about 8:30. We had decided to go do something fun for her actual b-day but wanted to let her decide....we knew that it would either be the Indianapolis Children's Museum and the dinosaurs or the zoo and the animals. So, we asked her if she could do anything today what would she want to do...."nothin'" That's what we got...so we asked her again. If you could go do anything today where would you want to go? She wanted to go to the zoo...so we headed to Chicago. We spent the afternoon at Brookfield and then caught the Cubbies game in the evening. It was a ton of fun as this was her second game and Noah's first. We were all decked out in our Cubs attire and the kids were so cute!

Wednesday morning we started out bright and early with Emma's 3 year check up and Noah's 9 month. They're both healthy and doing well. We went to eat lunch with daddy, home for naps, chiropractors appointments and then dinner and relaxing at home for the evening.

Thursday am started out bright and early again with Emma's first day of school. She goes to "Thursday school". It's run by a church here in town and has been going on for around 20 years. It's just two hours every Thursday. They learn basic pre-school skills and hear stories about God that relate to practical lessons like showing love, sharing, etc. I was a little concerned about how she would react when she went to a brand new place with complete strangers and I wasn't going to stay with her. She had me worried as we were getting out of the van..."Mommy, carry me." This usually means we're going into clingy mode but I told her that I had to carry Noah and that she had her school bag to carry. She did fine.

I stayed for about 10 minutes to make sure she was adjusting fine...she could've cared less if I was there or not! LOL They went through the days of the week, the months of the year, colors, shapes, numbers and the alphabet. Then the called each childs name and had them put an attendence sticker on their apple. Each of the kids went up sheepishly and gave a little wave as the teacher tried to get them to wave and say "Hi my name is ___________." Well, Emma goes up and waves at everyone and says, "Hi, I'm Emma." Then the teacher tells her to pick a sticker and put it on her apple. She says, "See this is your apple, it has your name on it." Emma says, "Yep, E-M-M-A." The teachers all gasped and told her good job. I was so proud of her. So, she was doing fine. I whispered that I was going to take Noah home and put him down for a nap and that I'd be back to pick her up in a little bit. She turns around and whispers, "No, go home and give 'em a bath, mommy." Then she turned around and that was that! She loved it!

So, when I picked her up we went to lunch with a couple of the kids from school and their moms, they go to our church and we're in the moms group together. Then to see daddy at work and tell him about school and finally, home for naps. Thank goodness!!! As soon as the kids woke up it was time for Emma's swim lesson and once that was over, we changed and got home I had to throw my work clothes on and leave for work.

So, chaos but good chaos. Lots of memories packed in the last few days! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/26081-chaos-glorious-chaos.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/26626-grrrrrrr.html Wed, 29 Aug 2007 09:53:50 GMT So, we are all adjusting very well. Noah is amazing, he's such a happy baby and has adjusted so quickly to us. Emma loves him to death and he thinks that she's just the funniest thing ever. Everything she does is hilarious and that doesn't always fly with Emma. If she's throwing a fit or she's upset about something, he'll laugh at her. She looks at him and says, "It's not funny Noah!" And he just laughs more! LOL So, life in general is great, we're so happy and loving our new family of four.

The worst thing now is that we have been waiting to get bmom served. The sheriff's dept had 30 days to serve her and if they couldn't find her then we could publish and be done with it. That was really what we were hoping would happen because the 30 days would've ended on Sept. 4th. Well, grandma got a call from bmom on Tuesday night. She'd left a big long message about being sorry for everything and that she wasn't going to fight the adoption, she was going to walk away. Oh, such wonderful news!

Then yesterday morning they served her. Well, she wasn't happy with some of the things that the paperwork said, all of it was the truth, it must have been the fact that it was all there right in front of her. So, now she's pissed and ranting and raving. "I'm gonna fight this, I'm getting my baby back, I'm his mother.....blah, blah, blah" I'm not worried about her getting him back, just that I don't want to go through the court and the additional costs, etc. So, we're just praying that she doesn't follow through with anything and September 27th comes without any action on her part!

Well, Emma is turning 3 in less than a week. I can't believe it, she's such a big girl now! She's having a Dora party. We're having a cookout on Labor Day since everyone will already be off, that'll be the family party. Then on Tuesdays we have our moms group so we're doing a little party there for her with her friends. So, it'll be fun, although a little sad. She's growing up way too fast. She's starting her swim classes up again on Wednesday and then Thursday she starts school. It's only a couple of hours one day a week but....

Well, I'll get through it, probably with some tears but I think I'll make it. My baby's not a baby anymore! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/26626-grrrrrrr.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/27761-hes-home-were-all-doing-well.html Thu, 09 Aug 2007 07:03:47 GMT So, we had a rushed but good time with grandma and baby. We picked them up at the airport and it was such a wonderful time. My sister went with us and she was so happy that she could be there to experience meeting him for the first time with us. Emma was so excited and stood right there in... So, we had a rushed but good time with grandma and baby. We picked them up at the airport and it was such a wonderful time. My sister went with us and she was so happy that she could be there to experience meeting him for the first time with us. Emma was so excited and stood right there in everyone's way while they tried to get off the plane. She kept saying that she was waiting for her "baby brudder". There was no swaying her, she was standing right there. We went back to the hotel and grandma crashed in her room and we all chilled out and spent some time with Noah. He didn't have any formula in his diaper bag so daddy went out and got formula and baby bath. He and Emma took a bath and got fresh clean jammies on. He took a bottle and rocked with me. He really didn't know what to think and it took him a little over an hour to wind down and fall asleep. He slept on my chest until about 3 am. I got up and laid him back in his crib. Then he woke around 5:30 to eat and back in bed with me.

We met with the attorney at 9am on Saturday am and we were on our way by about 11:30. Grandma was pretty overwhelmed and just wanting to go. So, we dropped her off at the airport, hugged, cried, got pix and she waited for her plane home. We drove home and had a welcome home/meet Noah party at my parents. It was a great time and everyone fell fast in love with him!

He really is adjusting amazingly well and he and Emma have really hit it off. She's a big help to me and has really surprised me at how well she's doing with such a big change all of a sudden. Well, it's late and I'm sure I'll be up feeding that sweet boy before too long so I'd best head to bed! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/27761-hes-home-were-all-doing-well.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/28136-oh-my-gosh-oh-my-gosh-oh-my-gosh.html Fri, 03 Aug 2007 09:15:06 GMT So, we are getting our baby boy tonight! Grandma & I talked 17 hours ago and his bmom has abandoned him once again. This time with her boyfriend, who may or may not be the bdad but doesn't care one way or the other. So, I talk to Grandma, call my atty and within 40 minutes of the first word out of Grandma's mouth we've got a plan in place to get our son home. Right now Grandma is at the airport getting ready to board a plane to go get him and bring him home to us!!!

The boyfriend, L, is bringing the baby to the airport in MS and meeting Grandma when she gets off of the plane. Then she and baby will fly out within the hour and get here, well St. Louis, tonight around 8pm. We'll pick them up and stay overnight in a hotel, see the atty tomorrow am, and send Grandma back home tomorrow afternoon. We'll travel back home, about 3 1/2 hours and we're having a big cookout at my parent's so that everyone can meet him.

I am just beside myself with excitement which kind of explains why it's 4am and I've been up for quite sometime now! Well, next time I get on to update we'll have him with us!!! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/28136-oh-my-gosh-oh-my-gosh-oh-my-gosh.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/28488-oh-last-entry-seems-like-so-long-ago.html Fri, 27 Jul 2007 17:57:23 GMT Well, "our" little guy went home with his bmother on Tuesday. I can only thank God that we hadn't brought him home and then have her show up! It's just crazy...she's abandoned two kids and then this little guy. She hadn't had any contact, not even a phone call, since March. Then she calls and says she's coming to get him! What the heck! So, hopefully she truly is done with the drugs, alcohol and prostitution! I worry about him, he really did become a part of our family even though he never made it home to live with us!

So, now we are waiting, waiting, waiting...I HATE it! We have six profiles out right now...one in September, two in October, two in November and one all the way in April! I don't know if I could match with one that far out...we'll see what happens. I just want our baby home, I'm so sick of this waiting game. I really, really thought that we'd have our second child home by now and be enjoying the summer together! It just makes me so anxious and frustrated when I think about it. We've had so many almosts that it is driving me insane! Just one of these has got to be THE ONE...right? It's going to happen at some point, right? I just have to keep telling myself that it WILL happen for us, it just seems so hopeless right now.

We bought Em a new big girl bed while we were in the process of getting the little guy home. Well, even though he's not coming home I knew it would be good to get it set up and get her out of the daybed and get the crib set up again. So, Emma & I put it together yesterday and she loves it, but she keeps going to the crib saying..."this is baby Noah's bed, when's he comin' home?" So, I keep having to explain to her that the baby in the picture has to stay with his other family and that we'll have a baby at our house soon. I don't know if she completely understands but I'm so ready.

All the girls at work are all having their babies or soon will be and I want it to be my turn so badly. There are over a half dozen of our nurses pregnant. Not to mention the fact that I work around pregnant, delivering women all the time and the newborns! We went to visit my friend Sheryl the other day, she just had her baby Monday and I thought it would be good for Emma to see a newborn. She was able to hold Corbin and I think that helped her understand about a new baby, whenever it happens! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/28488-oh-last-entry-seems-like-so-long-ago.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/29514-why-cant-they-work-faster.html Sun, 08 Jul 2007 20:50:03 GMT Oh the darned legal system. :excite: Grandma tried for two days straight to get in touch with the guardian ad litem from Noah's court case after he was born. She gave bmom temporary custody back for the sole purpose of going to grandma's state and relinquishing her parental rights and giving grandma full custody. Well, bmom left and never did it; now we have to get legal verification that his birthstate no longer has jurisdiction over his custody. Grandma has called twice just inquiring and has been told that as soon as they gave the order and Grandma took him home with her they no longer had jurisdiction. Now that we need the guardian ad litem to legally verify to our atty here in IL she's been out of the office every time Grandma calls and hasn't returned phone calls. SO FRUSTRATING!!! As soon as we get this verification then Grandma and the atty in her state can initiate ICPC and we can go be with him. Then 7-10 days for ICPC and we can bring him home!!! I am so anxious to get this thing going!!! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/29514-why-cant-they-work-faster.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/29726-happy-4th-everyone.html Wed, 04 Jul 2007 18:48:05 GMT Well, I was really hoping that our attorney would tell us to book some plane tickets for this weekend but it sounds like it will be another week or two before we can go pick up our son. I'm getting so excited!!! So is grandma, she is really anxious to get this thing done with. She says she's going to miss him terribly but she knows it's going to be better for him and for herself.

I'm not sure that Emma really understands that the baby is coming home to live with us. She seems like she does but it's not something that she's thinking about. She'll talk about him if we bring him up in conversation but otherwise it's life as usual. I guess that's pretty typical for a 2 year-old.

The other day she did initiate the topic. We were at the mall and my SIL told her she needed to put her flip flops on so that she could walk. Emma says, "My baby brother can't walk, he's too little but he's not here yet."

So, we should have a much better timeline of how things will play out tomorrow or Friday. I can't wait!!! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/29726-happy-4th-everyone.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/29937-its-boy.html Sat, 30 Jun 2007 13:14:33 GMT Grandma & I talked for the first time on Thursday and she is absolutely wonderful. She's just plain worn out and is very excited about us adopting him. You can tell that he's been raised in a very loving home up to this point; every time I'm on the phone with Grandma she's talking to him. Last night I got to hear him babble and laugh for the first time and it brought tears to my eyes. I don't think it's totally sunk in but it's starting to; I've got a son and to hear his beautiful laugh was priceless.

Emma is so excited. We were walking into the shopping mall the other day with my step SIL. Stefi told Emma that she had to put her shoes on so that she could walk. Emma's reply was that she is a big girl and can walk but her baby brother can't, he is too little and he isn't here yet! How cute is that?

We've decided to rename him...his new name is going to be Noah. I wasn't sure exactly how Grandma would feel about it but she actually asked me last night if we were going to. I said that we were talking about it. Then she told me that she'd like us to rename him; his name is fine now but it bothers her that bmom named him. This is only an issue because bmom never laid eyes on him until she went to court with Grandma when he was 3 days old. The only reason she named him was because she had to so that he could be discharged. She wants him to have a hand-picked name that was chosen for him.

We found out that at birth he was very close in size to Emma, too. They are only a few ounces apart as far as far as birthweight and the same as far as length. So that's kind of neat. I sent Grandma some pictures of Emma at his age and she said that a couple of them look so much like him with their big brown eyes and dimples. I'm getting very excited and can't wait to meet him!

Well, I am dying to post a picture but since nothing is final yet I don't feel like I should but eveyone should be ready for a TON of pictures when we get him home. Hopefully that's REALLY soon! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/29937-its-boy.html http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/30050-its-no-now-onto-new-situation-hopefully-one.html Thu, 28 Jun 2007 15:46:07 GMT So, it took FOREVER for that bmom to get back in touch with the agency. She was in a drug treatment facility and had very limited phone use. So, we finally talked this Monday it was a definate no for me. She'd used the entire pregnancy up until the tx facility, she's out already and has 10 weeks until her due date which scares me. She sounded really out of it on the phone and hardly talked at all, when she did she talked about the financial assistance that the agency said we would help her with. She's asking for at least $500 per month July-Sept and the attorney fees were going to be $5-6500. Plus travel and stay for ICPC, we're looking at another $10,000 possibly and the other situations we've looked at have all been under 5k.

So, we called Angel and told them that we were going to pass, we just weren't comfortable at all. They actually had a situation to talk with me about. A little boy, he's mixed and seven months old. Grandma actually brought him home from the hospital and she's had him ever since. She looked on the adoptive families page on Angel's website and contacted them about us. We've been e-mailing for the last couple days and it sounds pretty promising. He's a doll and I can't wait to post a picture. I'll definately keep this updated...we've been e-mailing and she's supposed to call sometime soon. We may have a new baby sooner than we know it! ]]> lleva99 http://www.fertilethoughts.com/forums/blogs/lleva99/30050-its-no-now-onto-new-situation-hopefully-one.html