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My friend CindyBW took this picture on Saturday of me. I know some of you have wondered what I look like now that I lost some weight So here ya go...

From now on I am only communicating with him through emails. When he calls me, I can feel my blood pressure go up! ugh. I even can't stand when I see his name come up on my cell phone - I shouldn't have to feel that way.

He called this morning at my work (I dont have caller ID). I told him flat out if he wants to get in touch with me to email me.

My gloves are off now so bring it on!!!!!

Well, instead of dwelling on my divorce - I am redirecting my thoughts to happier things....

I am getting ready for a fun birthday party for the twins on Saturday. I know Friday is Halloween and it'll be a busy night as well but I need to focus my energy elsewhere. I have almost everything bought for the party and it's going to look very nice. I hope it turns out the way I am picturing it I'll have to take pics to post too.

N&N are going to be Batman and ...

We go next Sunday on the 19th. I cannot wait! haha I don't know who is more excited - me or the kids Both of my parents want to go which is cute! I am surprised my Dad actually wants to go but he loves to see the kids expressions.....

I'll post pics after we go

It's tomorrow night that I have to bring the kids to rehearsal for my friend B's wedding. He's still going through with getting married. I think what he had told me about how he feels about me was the "pre-wedding" jitters. Honestly, I do think that's what it was. Some people get very nervous or wonder what the heck they are getting themselves into and if they should do it or not. B and I are best of friends - even tho he's a guy, we are like best friends. I don't feel the same for ...

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It's been 26 days since I left him.... Can you believe it? It's almost a month!

He had called me a few days ago wanting to come by my parents on Sunday to pick up the kids and take them out. I said sure. So, he pulled up to the lower part of the driveway (that way he could avoid seeing my parents). I helped him get the kids in the truck. I could feel him starring at me - not sure what was going through his mind but hopefully he thought "wow, look at what I lost". He ...

Today is our wedding anniversary. It would have been 14 years - I mean technically it IS our 14th since we are still married but it's 3 weeks today I left him.

Honestly it doesn't bother me too much. He's ruined a lot of Anniversaries anyway just by being an a$$.

One of our mutual friends told me the other night that he told him he wanted to send me flowers Is he that nuts? I pictured him putting on the card "Happy Anniversary you c.u.n.t." ...

Wow, it is so nice that soooo many people care for me...LOL I mean, I know they did but people are really going out of their way to make sure that I am okay and making sure I get out to have some fun I am so not used to the attention either

Tonight I'm going to dinner with a very good "guy" friend. He wants to treat me to dinner for my bday since he has to work all this weekend. He's been there for me through a lot of this between my ex and I. He knows ...

I have so much to think about and do.

I am considering switching N&N into another daycare/school. I have an appt tomorrow morning with a better place that is closer to my parents. Since I plan to stay in this area I might as well switch. It's about $400 more a month because this area is pricier but it's also a much much better school then what they are currently in.

I am looking around for a townhouse. I know I have time to stay with my parents but I do need ...