KMic05

I have so much to think about and do.

I am considering switching N&N into another daycare/school. I have an appt tomorrow morning with a better place that is closer to my parents. Since I plan to stay in this area I might as well switch. It's about $400 more a month because this area is pricier but it's also a much much better school then what they are currently in.

I am looking around for a townhouse. I know I have time to stay with my parents but I do need to think about it. There are so many nice places in this area and I want it to be just right for the kids and I. I am hoping within 6 months I can find a cute little place.

I work for my parents and have for the past 17 years. Now that I'll be on my own, I need to make more money. So yesterday my Dad said for me to look into getting my Associates Degree. He said if I can take a business or accounting course and learn more of the financial part of the business, then he could pay me more and let me be in charge. He does want to retire eventually and my brothers and I would take over so I guess I should learn what I can. Plus, it would be so good for my kids to see that Mommy went back to school and is doing this - not only for me but for them! So soon I'll have to look into going back to school or doing an online course.

The other thing I have to do is look for a place for vacation. My parents want to take the kids and I away for a week down the shore. They put me in charge of finding a place My Dad is giving me his laptop so I can go online at night now at their house. I will start looking tonight. They want to go away the 2nd week in Sept.

N&N are in a wedding on Sept. 27th. my ex is the best man. I'm not in the wedding but I have to go and also take care of the kids during church. I have to go to the rehearsal b/c of the twins. Nicholas is the ring bearer and Noelle is the flower girl. I'm already dreading having to see Andy. But I'm a big girl and can hopefully handle it. I'm doing it for my friends who are getting married. I really don't want to stay for the reception but I feel obligated. They already separated Andy & I to different tables. UGH! All I know is I need a very cute dress and look as hott as possible...hahaha I wish he'd look at me and realize what he lost.

I'm going to see my counselor today. I'm so happy I found him. He's such a cool guy and I enjoy venting to him..lol That's what he's there for and to help guide me during all of this. He has told me for months to leave but I guess it had to be me to make that final decision. He did say to me once "Kari, when is the light bulb going to go off"? Well, it finally did and I think I did the best thing. The teachers at N&N's school said how good I look and how happy I seem and how happy the kids are! I just don't know why it took me sooooooooo long to get the courage to leave. Anyhoo, no looking back just looking into the future.