kizzyhill

Sorry to hear that Kizzy. I have been trying for 17 yrs just to get preg. Never been. Been through 3 AIs, 1 fresh and 1 frozen IVF. Currently on my 3rd IVF attempt. I cry a lot around babies and have panic attacks. They started with friends getting pregers, then as it started to move onto my cousins and closer into family (my sister had 2 cycles IVF to get my nephew), the worse I got. I even was on several different antidepressants and was hospitalized for suicidal ideations just prior to my sisters 2nd IVF attempt. I was even a cutter. On occasion I still feel the urge to cut to stop crying or not start crying Needless to say, I still get very upset around babies, but have had to avoid them. This has helped me feel better, but I do feel isolated from things I used to enjoy and people/friends/family. I don't go to family get togethers and never met my nephew. My family can't talk about the little ones in the family and I haven't been to my parents/grandparents house for 4years due to pics everywhere of the grandkids. It breaks my heart and I dropped lots of friends from fb and my life due to their little ones. Family and friends just don't understand why I can't be around. They all think I just need to get over it. My sis used to understand until she got her little one. Suddenly she forgot how she felt. So yes dear. There are people here that understand you. I just hope your emotions don't get as bad as I did and in some ways still am. Fingers crossed for you. Best of luck. From your profile pic your a beautiful woman. May beautiful things happen for you.

Kizzy...my heart goes out to you! I am definitely in the same boat. I have seven friends that are pregnant right now...many are on their second and third child. I am heading to another baby shower this weekend. My friend that's having the baby shower got pregnant while breast feeding and using a condom...seriously!! Also, my best friend just told me she's pregnant with her second. We used to talk about getting pregnant together and I've been trying since she got pregnant with her first!

I am 32 years old and my husband and I have been trying for over two years with no success. I just went through my first round of IUI and I won't know for another 11 days what the result is. This two-week waiting time is sooo difficult!

I just stay positive and think of the things I am thankful for. (I know that sounds super cliche!). But, I can't control what is going on so I try not dwelling on it too much. (Don't get me wrong, I have my moments where I cry or I am angry that this has happened to me...but, I let me have those moments and then I think of what I am thankful for). My stepmom is dying of cancer right now and it has really put things into perspective for me. I have a loving husband and family and great, supportive friends.

Something that I found that has helped is finding other women in my community that are going through the same situation. A few months ago I met with two lovely ladies that have had a super difficult time getting pregnant. We talked all night about how when we go to showers and the mom-to-be says something like, "I got pregnant just from my husband looking at me", we just take a drink from our mimosa and roll our eyes!

Your time will come! There are so many medical advancements now to help couples that have difficulties getting pregnant. Unfortunately, it sounds like it may not happen the old fashioned way...but, it WILL happen! Stay positive. It sounds like you have a very loving fiance. :-)

Goldspiker...I will be sending positive thoughts that the third time will be a success! Stay strong...you are obviously a fighter and don't give up. One positive way that I try looking at this whole process is that I will just appreciate being pregnant and having a family so much more than those that get pregnant so easily. I won't take it for granted at all!!!

Thank you for replying...I really appreciate you responding.. When i read your struggle I begin to instantly cry! 17 yrs...my heart goes out to you. You have such I positive attitude about this. I pray that I can learn and grow to get over this attitude why me. I am so grateful to have ladies like you to continue to encourage me. God bless you..Babydust to you!

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So my fiance has a 4 year old, I have a 5 yr old. We have truthfully been trying for 3 yrs, while only acknowledging 2 yrs ttc..I havent got preggors yet..It sadens me because I feel like a normal women would be able to have his children. While Im not normal. I constantly worry about what he thinks. Even though he reassures me he loves me no matter what. He even suggested adoption..I got angry. I felt like he had given up, while he felt that he was only trying to ease a little hurt. I want a child that we share togther..is anything wrong with that. While women have been trying for 10 yrs are more.. I feel really sad, and upset with myself for it due to the fact that I have 2 little boys running around..second infertility is so terrible. Its like Gods playing a trick on me. Only good for one child. No second one. I had my son with a irresponsible jerk..I hated him for a very long time. Now I have a wonderful man in my life, who is a exccellent father..and I just want to start to build a family. Is that to much to ask for? Ive push the wedding back twice due to me. I just cant get married knowing that I might not ever be able to give him the children he wants. I want him to be happy. I love him so much. I wanna be happy.

Kizzy...it sounds like you DO make him happy. He loves you, which is why he wants to spend the rest of his life with you. I know this will work out for you...unfortunately, only time will tell when it will happen.

Is one of your tubes damaged, or both? It sounds like the HSG test may have uncovered that one tube is damaged, which is why you were still able to get pregnant. If that's the case, once you get the surgery you will have a higher probability of getting pregnant. I think you will feel better once the surgery is done and over with. Infertility is so frustrating because there are multiple steps that need to be made before you can start "Trying". My DH and I went to the infertility doctor in March and it took five months to get to where we can finally start trying with IUI! (I really don't think this last round worked...but, we'll keep trying).

I think you need to take this one day at a time. Get the surgery, continue to try, and GET married!! That is so exciting that you have a man that loves you so much he's willing to do whatever it takes to have a family with you. That's pretty special!

I know it will happen for you. :-)