No one to talk 2!
by, 08-17-2012 at 02:55 AM (450 Views)
There is no one I can talk to about this. so I am going to continue to talk to the ladies on here. It makes me feel alot better, plus least you ladies understand me. I really feel like no one understand, one neighbor on the side of me had 5 kids, the neighbor on the left of me just had a baby, and the baby is 2 days old. I wasnt able to pry myself from the baby..I was extremely emotional, even crying.Im pretty sure I freak out my friend. While at the same time she was feeling sorry for me. I dont want sympathy, I want someone to listen without interupting. Saying stupid stuff like "things happen for a reason". "It will be allright". Sorry to go on and on but Who else understands me better than you ladies! My Fiance is so uncomfortable talking about the baby..Its like he hurting but choses not to express it. While as a women I cant do nothing but where my feeling on my sleeve.
Im waiting patiently for my surgery, even though, I originally was getting the surgery cause my doctor said my tubes where damage, and there was no chance of pregnancy unless I get the surgery. Yet I still I got pregnant a month later after I had the HSG test..So like others I am a true believer in the test..which I believe I am going to ask my doctor to repeat the test..due to fact that the test was wrong. Here I am up another night, its 4:53 a.m and Ive been up on googling everything to "miscarriages to adpotion".
My mind wont rest..Does anyone feel like me?