katiesmom

Well I have not blogged since the last time I was upset with H. I can see from reading my last blog I am again feeling the exact same way. Is this what they mean when they say relationships take work? We are so on again off again that its really uncomfortable to have him around. This weekend has been completely ruined. Why? Well becasue I was tired and went to bed at 945 pm on Friday night. I fell asleep on the couch during the debate. So I got up and went to bed. Once I brushed my teeth and checked on the kids I was a bit awake and got in bed to finish watching the debate. I started to think I was forgetting something I had to do that weekend so I picked up my iphone to look at my to do list. Then I clicked on FT page just to browse a second and see if anything was new. I do that all the time before I go to sleep. Well DH came in the room and saw me with my phone in my hand and got all huffy about me going to bed and not actually sleeping. GET A FREAKING LIFE. So I did not want to be with you at that particular moment and all of a sudden he is going to go into a little jealous silent hissy fit. Over a freaking parenting website I guess me and you ladies must be getting it on the way he is acting Good lord please I would not have the desire to get it on with ANYONE anymore the way sex has been around here. TOTAL turn off. its a freakin chore and I have NO desire to seek it elsewhere thats for sure. If he wants to be jealous of a mommy web site than he can just carry on with his little whinny self cause im not even going to entertain the notion that I should not be checking the bb whenever and wherever I choose. He certainly has his freedoms to do whatever he wants at all hours of the day and night. He came home at 12am one day drunk from a luxury boat ride to the bahamas. He called it very important work to sign documents so that makes it all better right. I mean anything done under the blanket name of "work" cant be discussed or argued about because his hands are tied right? He has worked till 1030 everynight for the past month. Im told work work work cant be there. So I do my thing being the faithful mommy and stay at home wife and try not to feel neglected. BUT HOLLY crap look out when he has a bit of free time on his hands I better be right there by his side ready to spend some time or Im labeled the too busy one who has more important things to do than spend time with him PALEEZE. He took the kids out for breakfast this morning and said comon guys we will go out and give mommy all the talk time she needs alone. He meant FT. Ok so here I am. Im so freaking pissed at him I could spit fire. Basically it boils down to this. I stay at home and take care of all his **** and he will get with me whenever he feels like it. BUT when he does feel like it I my god better be in the mood or else he will make my life a living PITA. So Im just living my life to be on standby for him. Can you say Marriage counseling........................................ .....