10-23-2006 - 02:51 pm
by, 10-23-2006 at 12:51 PM (276 Views)
I am tempted to delete that earlier post but i do not know how. I still feel that way and VERY strongly I might add. But I dont want people to judge me by it. it is very strange we have all this other stuff going on in our life and we are like best friends but this one issue keeps coming up. I really think he has unrealistic expectations where this is concerned. I am a more go with the flow kind of person and he is worse than my 7 year old with his need to know everything in advance. If you have to ask me in advance then 9 times outta 10 my answer will be NO. I cant plan how the baby is going to be feeling at 9pm. I cant predict how tired I am going to be at the end of the day I cant predict if there the other children are going to be so clingy and needy that I will just want to curl up with a good magazine and relax without someone else Needing something from me. Somedays I feel that way and others I dont and I cant predict it. Why should I have to. Saturday night we went out as a couple we went to a very nice restaurant and had a nice evening together. I was relaxed and out of Mommy mode when we got home. it was nice. He makes me feel as if something is wrong with me that I am not turned on at the site of him or something. he is not turned on at the site of me. it is the mere thought of sex that turnes him on. Not me. I am so tired of the constant pressure and the Ole sex cloud lumming over my head day in and day out. I know I am not the only woman that feels this way. He thinks I am but I know better.