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Well, I normally do not blog but I had to get some stuff off my chest and did not want to do it on the boards.....

Money is tight. NO question about it. Jim wants to have it both ways-wants me home with the kids but yet he wants me to make money. I was talking to my dad and stepmom about an idea to make and sell things and they are so behind me. Dad said he would help with anything if I needed. My stepmom likes to dream so it is fun to have her on my side. My sister said I am ...

On Feb 29th, Jim's firend, P, turned 40. Something JIm will be doing in Sept. So P had a big party at his house during the day. I did not go because that whole environment is not for me. Lots of people and noise. But Jim took the kids and I guess they had a ball as they were gone from 2-7:40. I can tell that Jim is upset. Turns out that P and his family were heading down town to the casinos and would Jim come along to make sure P gets home safely. Ok, I am pissed b/c I know it will be a ...

I am so happy for R and H! This is baby number 2 for them. Sounds like it was a bit difficult and can't wait to see pictures of new baby Emma!! Of course, a part of me wishes it was me having the baby. Gosh, why did Jim tell me the other day he wanted another baby! I htought I had all the feelings and cravings gone. Oh well.....

JIm and I were out to dinner on Monday for my birthday and we got to talking about babies. His friend just had another (their 5th) in November and Jim said, "you know I have been thinking about how nice it would be to have another baby". Great, make me feel like a failure. I'm the reason we needed IF treatment in the first place. WE had always said that if God thought we needed another one, then he will let it happen, but no more treatment for us. It was too emotionally draining for ...

Wow, I can see I have not used my blog in ages!

SO I decided that I should maybe use this as I need to find a way to release some of my anxiety and stress. I woke up this morning all anxious and stressed out. And was thinking of my neighbor who I just found out passed away on Friday. We had seen the EMS come but it did not look as bad as I guess it was. Jim said I was "flopping" around a lot last night in my sleep. Gosh, what else am I anxious about??
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ugh, don't you hate it when you have one of those days? maddy had peed her pull ups last night so i was up with her at 4am, and could not really go back to bed. so when jake got up at 6:30am, i was already a bit crabby.

luckily, i was able to hold them off in bed with a movie until 8am, so mommy could wake up and watch a bit of the today show.

had to run to the bank and grocery store. what a nightmare! maddy kept sitting on the floor at the bank, we get to the grocery ...

ok, this is interesting.