jstockmyer

it's been a year since my mom earned her wings. i still miss her everyday. there are times when i want to pick up the phone and call her, then i remember she is in heaven. my sister and i are going to the cemetery tomorrow. we have a small tree for her grave. i know she would love it. adam is still having a hard with her passing away. i told him, that he need to try to go school tomorrow but if it gets to hard, i will come and get him.

love u forever mom
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i finally had my wrist surgery done friday. i hurt so bad today. the pain med isn't working ..i do have another scp for something esle that i will fill on sunday.

my sister, brother and myself finally buried my mom...she passed away suddenly on 12-22-08. it rained the whole time, we took it as a sign that the angels were crying. she loved to bake cookies so we put her ashes in a cookie jar and sealed it tight. adam helped to put her in the ground...i was so proud of him..it was a ...

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the pictures were taken on saturday at a friend;s wedding

it was different today not calling my mom. i thought about calling my mil but not sure if it's a good idea. we don't have a close relationship anymore. at one time we did. sometimes i miss since i don't have my mom anymore.

their father shocked me yesterday. he gave the boys money to buy me something for today. i did have a problem with that. they wanted to buy something for them but they ended getting me a nice summer shirt and shorts.

adam has a lacrosse tournment today.....i wish i knew how long it will last. he will play 2 or 3 games today. he is going to be so tired when he is done. he does love playing. i'm happy that i signed him up. i know next year if he plays i will have to get a defe.man stick (long pole).

he hates it when i take pictures but i love taking them, i may not have the greatest camerea in the whole but i can get pictures of my boys. i don't have alot of pictures of myself growing up so i want ...

i know the day is going to be hard but i have to be strong. my boys need me but not sad. they don't like to see me sad but it;s hard for them too. usually we would've gone to her apt and had dinner. i will have to do something special here. we all miss her very much. i will try to find some balloon's and we will let them go.

happy 1 st. mother's day in heaven mom....love u forever

it's been just 4 months since my mom passed away.

this is what has happened since she passed away

x-mas
my sister's b-day
my brother's b-day
my b-day

6 great children's b-day
my son's b-day
her b-day
easter

mother's day

i'm starting to have a hard time with it. i don't want to accepted that she is gone. i just miss her so much.

mother's day is coming up soon ....i ...

at 2:29 on april 24, 1995 my son was born ...he was born by em. c-section. i was so scared. his heart rate went down and my would go up. my doctor decided it was best for the c-section. i wasn't prepared for that. i had done the child birth classes...i wanted to have a natural childbirth like everyone else. sometimes i feel like i was cheated out on that. i was in labor 12 hours...tried pushing for 2.5 hours before having the c-section. also time i would push, my tailbone would crack.
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i'm actually legal still married...he wont sign the papers.....

on x-mas eve of 2004 he walked out on the boys and me. he choose to walk leave i didn't force him. he wanted something different i guess. well he currently lives with the lady he lefted us for. well i found out that one of his x-g/friend's works with me now. yes he has cheated on his live-in g/friend. i'm not happy about having to work with her. she never met the boys which is a good thing

when i was ...