by, 11-18-2010 at 11:08 PM (444 Views)
So, I've moving forward (I think) towards adoption after various failed attempts though fertility (....which I still don't know if I'm holding on to that with future hope,) but anyways, we are going to be starting the home study probably next week once we get the rest of the paper work in. I'm exited, nervous and know that it will still take a while for everything to happen but it might be quick, and honestly that stresses me out too. We've been trying for so long to have a baby and to just get a call saying "this one is available if you feel like he/she fits your family". I've always wanted to adopt since I was young and have been looking forward to the day, just never thought I couldn't have kids. I don't want to get to exited because it can be a long way off, from what they told us a yr to two yrs but I know of a couple who got theirs in 2 months!!! I know the right baby at the right time in Gods timing. Just cant help but feel 1000 emotions at once. Even harder that I don't know anyone personally that's going though something like this. SO if anyone is aware of a forum on beginning stages of adoption, or something please refer. Oh well another issue I'm having is that currently I'm aware of 4 teenage girls who did not plan on getting pregnant, and man I just wish I could go up to them and say " Can I have your baby to love and raise if you don't want him/her" Yes, I'm aware it's not tackfull and as far as I know they all are keeping their child (the ones I don't know I can't ask since they are a friend of a client so it's inappropriate to even inquire). Just really wish there was a teen mother who was aware of how much love I have to offer and want me for the mother of their child. Ps. I haven't placed myself on the market to be picked either due to the fact that I don't want to be picked and then the mom decide to keep the baby. I think that would be way to hard. So much to think about. Just need to pray!