JeanieMd

We've actually had to close the windows at night because it's too cool. I love this time of year. There's something very earthy to me when leaves begin to decompose.

I had a really pathetic run today. I've been battling sleep issues with TJ...he is going to bed so late and last night he woke up twice. Once because of a nightmare (a giant squid was eating him) and then the second time he had to go to the bathroom. His ear infection (I believe) is cleared up and he's sleeping better once he goes to sleep, but it's usually 10 o'clock before he nods off. Way too late for my little boy. If we don't head to the beach this weekend (a friend of Andrew's invited us) I'm going to try some melatonin and get him back to an 8:30 bedtime. The poor kid just can't wind down at night...he'll sit in his bed and play. And then he sleeps too late, which we just let him do, but then it makes our days begin later and later. I didn't get in to work today until 10 am. I guess I forget how lucky I am to have this job that I really do have that kind of flexibility.

Any way, back to my pathetic run. I ran a mile. One lousy mile and then walked. I've changed my workout routine so that I only run on Tuesdays and Thursdays...I ride a bike on Mondays and Wednesdays and then on Fridays I use a cross trainer. My weight training is going well...I'm building up the amount of weight I can lift and the muscles are becoming defined so that's working well.

For the Katrina victims, I still have a ton of stuff to ship. Somewhere. Anywhere. I just don't know where to send it. Need to get on the horn with that and find a place.

I also am gathering stuff to send to a friend who is sending stuff to an orphanage. I had this bright idea of outfitting the kids at this orphanage with properly sized shoes and F.C.L. informed me that they probably could use toilet paper just as badly. Toilet paper! I can't even fathom not having toilet paper. We live on a farm, so I regularly pee outside without wiping. But, to not have access to something so ... what is the word ...so hygenic...it really puzzles me why things are. Why some people are born into such wealth and others are born into a life of not having toilet paper to wipe themselves with when they pee. It's a mystery to me...and a mystery that concerns me much more than the supposed mystery of the holy trinity. Who cares when there are little three year old girls out there who can't walk because they've never had properly fitting shoes?

harumph.

Not to make this a religion gripe, but I'm reading a book right now (when my darling son finally nods off at 10:15 pm) and it's pretty much just enraging me when the author claims that God has a purpose for each and every one of us. I think it's really easy to say that when you have food in your belly and a warm roof over your head. But how in the world can anyone rationalize some superior being putting innocent children on this earth just to suffer? Some may say it's so that I become a better person. Well you know what I say to that? pffffffft. Make me a better person by making me suffer...don't make a three year old girl suffer.

Religion at the moment is really pissing me off.

ha ha...I was going to change the title of this note to something derogatory about religion, but then it may get some views which I don't particularly care to read. So I'll keep it plain and boring and about the weather.

Jeanie