JeanieMd

I've really stopped blogging. More from a lack of time than anything else.

That and the fact that my exercise routine is really really bumming me out.

About six weeks ago I decided to do what the "experts" recommend and mixed up my workout. Decided to bike two days a week, run two days a week and use a cross trainer one day a week. I lift different weights now, and do different ab work.

My biking has definitely improved, but my running sucks.

I had a good workout today, my legs are going to be mighty sore tomorrow. I only ran 2 miles, which is about average I guess. I run for 20 minutes (or bike or cross train), then stretch and then do weights. I'm really lucky with this gym here at the office. Without it I wouldn't exercise at all.

Another thing that is really making me sad...my poor horses think I hate them. I just don't have time to spend with them right now. TJ isn't sleeping well, so I take every minute I can for shuteye. I used to get out of bed around 5 and spend about an hour and a half with them every morning. Now if I'm out of bed by 6:30 it's a miracle. Usually TJ wakes and I get up. It's hard, I jsut don't know what to do with him. He sees an "angry" face in the mirror, or there's a monster outside of his window. I just realized this has been going on since early July, when we moved him out of his crib and into a twin bed. I think since July, he's slept through the night four times. He goes back to sleep right away when he wakes (as long as I'm there) but man it's tough. Two or three nights ago he fell out of bed (I put down cushions just in case) and I awoke to him saying in a pitiful little voice "mommy can you help me." Poor kid was so disoriented I don't think he realized where he was. Then last night (or was it two nights ago) he awoke and said "mommy where are you?" My house is tiny, my bedroom is right next to his. He is so tired, too. I'm going to try melatonin tonight. Anything to get him the sleep he needs.

The new grocery store opened at the mall near us. 18,000 people attended. I'm not bitter, per se, but boy does it make me a little sad that my hope of opening a children's play place there didn't work out. I swear even a bad business man could make money there. And I'm not a bad business man.

oh well. That water's already under the bridge, or whatever that saying is, and I'm not going to dwell on it. Like I said earlier, without this gym here at my office, I'd never get any exercise.

Gained a couple of pounds the past two weeks. (The same five pounds I have gained and lost at least a dozen times in the past two years). I was just incredibly hungry. Eating sandwiches at lunch (I never eat sandwiches...always get a soup and salad). Ice cream at night. A donut a couple of times in the morning. It was an absurd amount of food that I had been eating. I'm back to normal now though, so I imagine these couple of pounds will slowly come off until my next feast.

This is enough for now (and boy is it enough).

Back to work...