hoping2bmamaKat

I called my youngest cousin yesterday afternoon and left a message asking her to touch base w/me about the egg donation situation. Haven't heard back yet...

Last night I dreamed all night about her. I kept trying to find her, catch up with her, talk to her about the letter, and at one point she said yes, but then she vanished again, and at another point I avoided her b/c nurses were making her do something embarassing and I didn't want her to think I had seen it. I guess I feel pretty ambivalent about the situation with her and our incomplete communication. I would like some clarity so I can move on, but I'm not sure if she can communicate as clearly as I'd like her to.

My older cousin has been great - she stepped up to the plate with clarity and courage, and is an excellent communicator.... so I think it would be best to go ahead and work with her. I'm going to give it a few more days just in case the younger one calls and offers a different option...